Suicide

I might kill myself tonight. i am serious. I was banned from the chat rooms because i was talking to a councilor about it. shes the only one i trust right now to help me. now i can't talk to her. i am scared and i need help.

Ki: In the name of Jesus and all you hold dear stop. I tried to kill myself 3 different times in my life and can tell 100% that that is the devil making you feel like that is an option or you only option. Please respond to this post immediatly and I will talk with you.

If you'd like to, you can talk to me.
I'm not a counseler, but I'd like to help.
Feel free to message me.

Hi BlueAngel. Ki me and BlueAngel are both here for you, we love in Jesus our Lord and Savior. Now for a fact that God loves you, He formed you in the room for a purpose. He has a plan that only you can fulfill. He wants nothing but the best for you. He knows your struggles and your fears. He is close to you, maybe you just can't feel His pressence. Please pray for help in Jesus's name.

I am so scared right now! i don't know why i was banned, there are so many things going through my head right now! I'm scared!

Ki: I am sorry I have no reason, why you were banned. Is there anything I can do to help? Do you have a friend or someone you trust that can come and stay with you?

Can you tell us what you're scared of? Maybe we cahelp better, if we knew...

i am scared of myself. I want to kill myself. I was just trying to get help, part of me wanted to be talked out of it, but obviously no one cares about that. If i was banned for trying to get help. The voices in my head are loud, i just want the pain to end. i just want it all to end because there is no way out. no one can help me.

Ki: Me and Blueangel are here. How come you say noone cares we both do. Lord please protect Ki from themselves Lord please we pray for your annointing Holy Ghost to show Ki the truth of your love. Lord please send your holy angels to protect Ki, please we plead the blood of Christ over Ki. We cry out in anguish for Ki, We maginify you Father, We magnify you Jesus through your Holy Spirit. Please reveal yourself to Ki. Please show Ki that he/she was bought with a price. The precious blood of Jesus. That God so loved Ki that He gave His only begotten Son, that Ki might live. And have a abundant, prosperous, and glorious life in His Son Jesus. KI Stop in the name of love before you break God's heart, thank it over. Don't let a temporary problem become a permanent solution please what is making you want to die tell me.

the voices in my head. i am in so much pain inside. i want this to stop. ReinItIn was helping me.. or she was trying. i am a terrible person. i am scared that the enemy is going to win this time

according to ReinItIn's profile she is currently in video chat. I don't have a video camera so I can't join. Maybe you can or you know someone who can?

There is a way out! There are people who care (why would I be here right now if I didn't care?) I do!
God does! if you haven't read my signature already, I'd advise you to, but aply it to yourself.
God loves you! God cares!
I've been in the exact place you are now. I hurt, I had voices in my head telling me a hundred different things. I was confused, I was scared, I was going to commit suicide too.
But, when you die, all your emotions go with you, you'll be in this hell forever... I for, one, really don't want you, or any other fellow christians to have to go through that.
When you quit... you lose.
I know, life is extremely scary, and sometimes, we are the scariest parts in it.
But life is about learning to turn to God for everything....
I also know, that it's hard to trust God completely. It's human nature to resist it. But if you keep trying, keep praying, keep loving, you'll make it someday....
Don't quit though, you can't try anymore, when you've quit.

i go in without a camera, you just have to click that you are not going to use a webcam. i'm in pain and i want it to stop, i am scared

i am tired of trying, BlueAngel

Amen BlueAngel

Ki: This is ReinItIn's profile page: Christian Chat Rooms & Forums - View Profile: ReinItIn maybe you can open a private mail thread with her and she will respond. I have no idea what the situation is but I can tell you suicide is not the answer. Me and BlueAngel have both been there we know how you feel. We both also know that God loves you and He has a special plan and purpose for your life that only you can accomplish:

I've been praying this whole time and i can't feel God anywhere. i am alone

Ki: Do you know who Jesus is?

Have you been baptized?

Have you been filled with the Holy Ghost?

Have you asked Jesus to come into your heart?

Lord Jesus I am a sinner.
I know that only you can save me.
Jesus I believe that you are the Son of God and died for my sins on calvary's cross.
Lord Jesus I believe your testimony that you were ressurected from the grave.
Please come into my heart that I may become a new person.

If you really believe this:

Jesus will come into your heart and the Holy Spirit will come upon you and you will be born again.

Don't do it, Ki. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please be strong through this, and it will pass. Listen to the others. *hugs*

Coming on strong now, Praise you Jesus.
Your holiness is a raging storm.
So pure and undefiled.
Your pressence is like shining light.

Oh Praise you Jesus, Praise you Jesus, Praise you Jesus for your love.
It's like quaking mountain, life giving fountain.

yes to all four of those questions, but i have been empty lately. I have not connected with Jesus for what seems like a long time. i feel broken inside. and no matter how hard i pray and ask Him to fix me, nothing happens... tonight i just don't know if i can go like this anymore.. the pain is too much, but part of me doesn't want to die