I am very sad and broken

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Jordache

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So there are two issues going on. One is that it is my worship pastors birthday soon and I'm going to write him a card, but it is very difficult to do so. This man means so much to me, it's hard to describe. In many ways, he has saved my life over and over. I know that he is not God, but this man is one of the most important (if not the most important) people in my life right now. Its hard to know what to say because it all seems inadequate, and I don't want to come off as obsessive. I'm not really. This man has just had an incredible influence on me.
To follow it up, i am heading up north to see family. It's a very difficult trip to take because of the state of my family. None of them are Chrisitians except my mother. It's hard to see my mother because ive had to not allow myself to see her as source for anything good. Though in my heart I wish I could just go home and see mommy, it's not like that. She is a fairly dangerous person at least for my emotional health and this is a big challenge for me to rise to as I have to tell her to her face what I've only had to say via text thus far. Being around my father is worse. He is terminally ill with cancer and refuses to acknowledge my existence. I can't even describe how much it hurts to know that he's dying with just a few months left and won't even acknowledge my exist. I want to be mad, but I can only be hurt.
I feel like I have a huge task before me that I am not equipped for.
 
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shekaniah

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As for the pastor...
When I can't think of what to say...
That is what I say..."Words cannot express how I feel, I don't know how to thank you...so I'm asking God to do it for me."
His blessing are perfect!

As for the rest of your stress...I will pray for you...
 
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pickles

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That was a wonderful idea shekaniah. :)
Jordache, sending you hugs and saying prayers in Jesus ,for your visit and continueing for you.

Huge hugs and God bless
pickles
 
shemaiah

shemaiah

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I will continue praying for you, God bless
 
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Lucy68

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Yes, a simple sentence of gratitude is often sufficient. Maybe write down all your other grateful thoughts in a journal.

I'll be praying for you on your trip. I know it's hard to have an un-caring father; but we have a very loving ETERNAL Father to make up for it :) Yeah, my dad is the same way. But you know, we just have to accept them the way they are.

What is hard to stop doing is to not view ourselves as we think THEY see us. That goes for our moms too. When we grow up, we have to start seeing them as who they are, fallible human beings with inadequacies. Especially if they are not Christians....they don't have the teachings that you have. Without the Holy Spirit working in their lives, they cannot overcome their 'humanness'.

You say your mom is a Christian but is a dangerous person. Do you mean physically dangerous? Or mentally?

I'll be praying for you on your trip and that the Holy Spirit will equip you!
 
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