I have been having some people pray for me in the prayer chat, but I wanted to post, I need a lot of prayer here, I have been going through a lot of struggles over the last few years, and everything finally seemed ok, then the bottom fell out, my wife suffers from mental illness and has once again been in and out of the hospitals for the last four weeks, she decided all of the sudden she hates me and went somewhere else instead of coming home, she won't talk to me, I have no idea where she is, I have been a good husband these last 12 years, I have stood by her through all of this and all the dozens of times she has been hospitalized, and the hundred and hundreds of doctors visits, and the break downs etc . I have always stood right by her and been the best husband I could be. I am just broken right now, after everything we have been through, I have no strength left, we are poor people ad she left me with all the bills, alone by myself and my health going bad, I am grateful for this site, and the fact that people have prayed for me, it's just going to be one day at a time, I am going to need a lot of prayer I have had to take the money to pay the utilities and pay other bills that weren't paid, so the lights will be off tuesday morning,lights water etc, it's going to be a couple of weeks living in the dark, I somehow have to get through this and manage to keep working. I am having trouble doing anything right now as this has been such a shock to me what just happened. The only thing that will get me through this is God, I will keep praying to him to let me survive, I seriously considered suicide a couple of days ago,but he pulled me thorough that, I know thats a sin but I was that far down. Let me as also would be be appropriate to ask for help with the utilities? if not I will remove that reference, I would be just as happy knowing people care enough to pray, I am at that point where I can't help myself back up. If it's appropriate you can pm me and I can tell you how to contact the city directly. That would be a huge help,right now I'm going to make myself get up and make something to eat. I put the prayer room on last night and slept on the floor in my computer room listening to the prayers. Thanks Tim