Depressed

I'm depressed. I have no real friends. I'm sick. I feel like killing myself... I see no real future a head of me. I feel like I'm wasting away in my sins. I feel I can't change for God or anyone else. I doubt God. So, I wonder why God would want someone like in His kingdom. I just feel like a worthless pile... I feel I don't belong anywhere. Every day feels so pointless...


I really need prayer.

Father God of comfort and grace, wrap your arms around searching for the truth and bring him peace, comfort, hope, joy, strength and faith.. Please help this person open himself up to the people around him. Lord please bring Christian people into his life to share your love and word with him. Help him learn to make you his refuge in life. Lord strengthen his hope let him feel you near so that he knows he is not alone and that you will never leave him. In Yeshua’s Holy name I pray amen.


Searching for the truth , We all have a future God made everyone of us with a purpose It is as we learn to trust him that that purpose will become clear. When you think of Jesus on the cross remember he did this for you so that you can let go of the sins and shame that are holding you back. Change will happen if you have asked the Holy Spirit into your life. God does not expect you to do this alone. Some times change takes time and that is why we must remember all the little things that have changed for the better. Then when the darkness tries to come in you can say everyday I am closer to the person that I want to be and that is because of the Holy Spirit working in me. Why would GOD want you? you ask, well I cannot tell you all the reasons, but this I know when we come to the end of ourselves and then we feel empty he wants to fill that place with his love. He wants to be the one that gives you joy and hope. God want you to know that he is all you need. It looks to me that you are at the point of empty so let GOD fill you up. It is when you surrender all to him that he can start showing you why you were created, you have a purpose . That purpose is to touch as many people that the Holy Spirit puts in your path with the LOVE of GOD, but before you can do that you must give in let his love change you on the inside and then it will show on the outside. Do not let yourself take in the lies of the evilone he puts thoughts in your mind and if you are not careful you will think these thoughts are your own.

Here are some scriptures that has you learn them I pray they bring you peace and comfort. Whenever you feel the darkness coming in sing a song to GOD or start quoting one of these scripture until the feeling is gone and please remember always to reach out to people.


Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down (depression), but a good word cheers it up. Proverbs 12:25

Deuteronomy 31:8 – The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

2 Samuel 22:29 – You are my lamp O Lord; the Lord turns my darkness into light.

Psalms 9:9 – The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Psalm 27:14 - Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Psalm 55:22 – Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

Psalm 62:5 – Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.

Psalm 147:3 – He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 145:14 – The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.

Isaiah 40:31, But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

James 4:10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Searching for truth I know how you feel. I accepted Jesus into my heart about the time my mom married my stepdad. I was nine and my stepdad abused me mentally, emotionally, physically, yes and even sexually. At nine years old I could remeber praying to God to take me in my sleep b/c I didnt want to live anymore. Instead He took me out of that situation but the scars were there. My mom shorlty married another man after and I was then left home from dusk until midnight. I thought ''how can God love me if my own mother obviously didnt care about me?''. I hated myslef. I worn baggy clothes and obsessed on how I looked. I couldnt even go in a grocery store b/c I was afraid others would see me the way I saw myself. God was the only one there for me during this time. I thought about suicide on a daily basis b/c it seemed like no matter how much I cried out to Him He never seemed to hear me. Then one day I decided I was going to do it b/c the pain was to much to bear . I cried out one last time ''Lord if You are there and You hear me show me'' I then grabbed my Bible and flipped it open and it opened to Psalms 13. I got goose bumps and knew that He heard me and I gave all my pain and sorrow over to Him that day. Next thing I knew He changed my life in a way I never imagined. I am blessed b/c I leaned on Him in my darkest hour.

Psalms 13 reads:
How long, o Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me? How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day? How long shall my enemy be exalted over me? Consider me and answer me, O Lord my God; light up my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death, lest my enemy say,'' I have prevailed over him.'' lest my foes rejoice b/c I am shaken. But I have trusted in your steadfast love, my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to the Lord b/c He has dealt bountifully with me.


I will pray for you my friend that You find His truth and unending love! Never doubt your worth b/c He never will!


d cared

ONE DAY AT A TIME, SWEET JESUS

Help me believe in what I could be
And all that I am
Show me the stairway I have to climb
Lord for my sake, help me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That's all I'm askin' of you
Just give me the strength
To do every day what I have to do
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Lord, help me today, show me the way
One day at a time

Do you remember when you walked among men
Well Jesus you know
If you're lookin' below, it's worse now than then
Pushin' and shovin' and crowdin' my mind
So for my sake, teach me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That's all I'm askin' of you
Just give me the strength
To do every day what I have to do
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Lord, help me today, show me the way
One day at a time

I can be depressed. Yes, I don't excuse myself from that. Friends, including family members, may leave you but the lord will always stay for you. I remember one time it was my birthday. My father never failed to call and see me during pay days but he failed on my birthday. A lot of disappointment may come our way. I am one of those who feels depressed at times but there is one left, JESUS. When everything seems to fail, God's love never fails. I share the same sentiments as you are.


Father in heaven, we lift up to you "searchingfortruth". You know him from the inside and out. Lord, fill His life with JOY and that it may be complete. This is my prayer in Jesus name amen.


By the way, I am depressed too. But my God is MIGHTY TO SAVE. HE can move the mountains.

And no matter how difficult my situation is, I will sing for the glory of the risen king.


You are always in my prayers

Praying in agreement with all here for you in Jesus Christ is Lord.
Keep holding on in faith, this will pass. I know as I felt this way myself at one time.
I just asked Jesus to bring me the help needed, and over time He did.
I am so greatful that I held onto Jesus in spite of my failings , sins and dispair.
For my life grew in Jesus even more than I ever hoped for, and that time passed, now just a glich in my life.
Jesus will bring you through this, He loves you so much more than you can ever imagine and more.
Just give him your sorrows, and hold on in faith.
It will be so worth it!

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I tried to kill myself once, for the same reasons as Depressed. Fact is each and every day I have a point at which I have to ask myself why I shouldn't just put the shotgun in my mouth and be done with it. But I don't, suicide won't keep you from 'Heaven' but since the Lord died for my life I kinda feel like it's not mine to take anymore. So I say not today, we'll spend another 24 hours mired in sin dissapointing my God and see what tomorrow brings.

Depressed, God doesn't care what you've done here and now. He knows He set a bar that you're going to fail to clear, over and over again. You're human it's our nature. In the end all He asks is that we own up to it, acknowlege and thank Him for forgiving it, and whatever it is here and now we'll deal with and make right on the other side. Just don't shortcut the process by doing something rash.

Hang in there buddy. It's gonna get worse before it gets better but it DOES get better. And on that day we're all gathered before the throne of God none of it's going to matter one little bit. The suffering may seem like an eternity here and now, but once you get to see the real eternity the here and now will be but dust in the wind.

Let us know you're ok.

I was reading an article earlier today about how many of those committing suicide do it by jumping off a given bridge (incidents not connected). Some of them survived, and they all said the same thing: On the way down, I realized I wanted to live ! No matter how messed up their lives had been, their realized change was possible.

Why would God want you around? If He can be bothered to keep me alive I can't see why He wouldn't want the rest of the world.
God loves you, even if you feel you're worth nothing. As a matter of fact, although God does not want you to be depressed, the fact that you feel you are wasting away in your sins make you more righteous to God than a person who says "I don't sin".

10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’ 13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

Furthermore: In spite of what you have or have not done, God can use you. He IS using you, here, in this forum.

I know that the "God has a plan for you" argument is of little or no help when one feels so far down, but the wonderful thing is that God is the same, even when we change. He will not leave you. Ever.

Praying

You know I have been where you are now emotionally without the thoughts of killing myself though. I think all of Gods children get to rock bottom. I think that when we get to rock bottom that is when God really picks us up and starts to change us to become more like Him. That is exactly what happened to me in 2008. I was so lost and broken and my soul was screaming out in agony and I was at the lowest point in my life. He really truly does swoop in and save you. Have Faith my friend. If He didn't have His hand all over you and your life you wouldn't be in this thread asking for prayer. I have not one friend where I live to hang out with and I use to get really lonely but then I prayed and I asked God to take the lonely feelings away because they made me sad. Guess what, He did. And guess what else. He used me not having any friends to help me focus on His and My friendship and He sustains me completely and has become enough. You want to know what I have personally come to find out? If only I have God in this lifetime, He is enough. He teaches you this. Keep reaching for Him. Ask Him to show you your worth through His eyes. If you really need hope and encouragement God really used this radio station to help heal me. you can listen to it online and find it on your local radio station. Listen to Contemporary Christian Music online or find a radio station near you - Positive Encouraging K-LOVE Listening to this radio station is like having the love of our Jesus wash over your soul with each song I swear. You can feel it seep into your soul and heart comforting you. Keep coming back to this website. It will be a soothing balm to your soul, heart, and mind and your brothers and sisters in Christ will keep lifting you up in prayer hon. God Bless and Do Not Give Up! You may not know your purpose or reason yet for being here but I promise you the more you keep reaching for our God he will reveal your purpose if only you keep seeking Him.

Searching4Truth, can I first say that I laugh when I see your signature?
My husband and I were reading the site last week, and praying together, and we both burst out laughing when we first saw it. So...thanks!
I am sorry you are ill, and I have asked God to help you.

Beloved, you say you doubt God, but by your own testimony, you ask for prayer to Him. (meant as an encouragement. )
So, somewhere, you have faith in Him. ♥ Somewhere in your heart, you know where to go for real help.
I see at your profile page that you were raised by believers, but are unsure of your own spiritual condition. I would say this is the first thing that needs to be resolved, dear child. (when I call you a child, I hope it won't offend you. I don't mean to talk down to you...but I have a daughter almost a decade older than you, so I hope you understand.)
I'm sure that if you were taken to church with your parents, you know of this Truth for whom you search. His Name is Jesus. ♥
You're about as far from a "worthless pile" as it's possible to get, beloved! Created by the Living God in His image! (think about that for a sec) You are valued by God! And His opinion is the only one that matters.
Then, that Creator came to this earth in a flesh body. He lived a life as you do. He got sick, and got frustrated, and got sad. He suffered a totally horrible beating, and death on a cross to redeem you from the sin that sickens you. To buy you back from the penalty of sin; the sin nature we all inherit (and then the sins we commit) from the first man created. He rose from that death the victor over death, and the first man to overcome. And through faith in these truths (which I've really simplified, as you know), we are also overcomers. He just really, really wants you back.

That doesn't mean we will never suffer, or fall into sin, or become depressed, but it does give us access to the Throne Room, and the Mercy Seat at those times.
If you feel like you're wasting away in your sins, please go to the One Who has the remedy! You do not have to carry the burden of sin, dear one. You can't...none of us can. We can't be "good" enough, and we can't do one thing on our own. The Lord understands this, and He is such a good Provider! He gave us a way to be forever rid of sin-sickness, and all the awful things that accompany it.
Of course you can't "change for God". None of us can. If we could, we wouldn't have needed a Savior. But once we are in Christ, God changes us. We submit, and He does the work in us. His grace is HUGE! His power is the ultimate!
The future God will give you as one of the redeemed is far better than any we can imagine.
For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen. Ephesians 3:14-21 NASB


God says He has plans to prosper you, not to harm you. (Jeremiah 29:11)
He knows what these plans are, and He desires you to have them. Not because you are worthy, none of us is. But because He is, and He is Who He says He is.
The trick is to take our eyes off ourselves, and put them on Jesus. When all we see is ourselves, of course we will be depressed! It's not a pretty view, right? It surely is not when I look at myself. But them I remember that when God looks at me, He sees Christ. ♥ We should see Christ, too, and keep our eyes fixed on Him.


I have prayed for you. I will pray for you. I encourage you to believe what He says about Himself, and about you.
God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. 2 Corinthians 5:21
This is the heart of the gospel---the good news!
On the cross, God looked at Jesus and treated Him as if He had lived my life. And through faith in that atoning act, God looks at me, and treats me as though I lived Jesus' life. (wow! and hooray!)
You may not "feel" different at the moment you are redeemed. But feelings matter little, beloved. God's Word...the Truth is what matters.
I pray with all my heart you find Truth.
love,
ellie

I hope you can see and feel the Love of Jesus shining through!
Jesus is using this place to touch your heart and let you know you are loved!

Isaiah 40:28 - 31
28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ: Philippians 1 KJV | YouVersion.com

You know if you want a optimistic outlook on this (me, I'm good at finding those) you could simply look at the state that you are in as the bottom from which my Jesus is going to start the remolding of your soul and mind in His image. That is EXACTLY what he did to me in 2008 until now. I was lost in an alcoholic haze and I had lost custody of my Daughter so I felt destroyed and hopeless and so so so lost. (willingly gave her up to live with her dad because it was what was best for her because he was the better provider at the time and she told the judge at 9 that she wanted to live with her dad which just about destroyed my mother's heart) I remember walking to town to get my two shots of whiskey and my soul I felt my soul scream out in Agony and guess what my God heard and he delivered me from alcohol and he saved my mind and healed my mind. I swear to you it really truly feels like he picked me up and tucked me under His wing and has kept me there these whole four years. I have felt Him with me every single day since He saved me from that dark dark place I lived in. I should have died so many times sweetie. I black out when I drink. I almost drowned, I landed on my neck 7 x falling down the stairs, I almost got hit by a car, I almost fell into a fire face first, I almost got beat up by 5 women when I was defenseless. Not one time out of all of those did a hair on my head get hurt. God protects His even when they are really freaking lost in sin. You know what matters sweetie? Let me tell you, what matters and what should fill you with complete Hope & Peace was that for one God sent me back to your thread to say all this to you but most of all what should fill you with complete Hope is that you have God on your mind and you are asking for prayers. I bet you everything that I own that if He is on your mind then you are certainly on His mind. I prayed the other day inviting God to live through me each moment of that day. I had the most amazing day where I was just filled with this happiness and joy and peace and I had moments where my heart completely filled up with appreciation and this all consuming love that I felt for my God. The thought popped into my mind that when I felt love like that it was me feeling love towards my King but it is also Him letting me feel His love for me. Yes, I started to grin from ear to ear because wow, what a thing for my King to tell me ehh. God becomes your everything, when he becomes your everything He is all that you need as a human being in this world so hold on young man, He has plans for you. You have great importance in His eyes. His love for you is so much bigger then you can even imagine. I have been blessed to feel it. I am forever faithful to my Lord and my God. Don't give up on my God because He will NEVER give up on you honey. Be at Peace.

Praying with my entire hert for you.

I have been there. felt the pain your feeling...
and Thank God. God has pulled me through.
He sent me wonderful online friends. who Said ..
Guess what Jesus loves you and thats all that matters.. you wil make it!!

If you ever need A friend or someone to talk to im usually here..

Ellie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha............this has *pointing up* filled my heart to completely overflow with Heavenly Happiniess and Joy to where I want to get up and dance around the room as laughter bubbles up and out......you are one amazing powerful tool used by our Lord to do His Heavenly work and it just takes my breath away to see it happen. wowizers You humble me completely and its a honor to know such a soul!!! I am glad to have prayers from you that is for darn sure lol. Thanks for spiritually rocking (as Jeff would say) and for sharing it. It made my day happy.

well I have a name for beautiful souls such as yourself, I call them character people. They are the rare people you meet that are one of a kind and they shine with their very own beauty that reaches out and touches others lives with beauty and love. Its a honor to know you Missssssssss Ellie!!!

You'll be in my prayers.