Prayer for the heavy hearted

Hello,

I am new to this site, I need prayer very badly. First things first, a few months ago I went through an extreme tragedy, I guess you could call it a heart break I lost someone close to me, I went through a phase of confusion, frustration and betrayal. I was betrayed and lied to for a very long period of time, by someone I cared about more, then myself. I prayed for this person often and forgiveness is something I struggle with. However now my problem is, my health is deminishing. I did not releize that when you go through a heart break, your heart can physically break. Everyday is a struggle for me, I go in and out of doctor appointments and next week I have an apt with a doctor for a four hour heart exam, my heart is litterly breaking physically. And then to the emergency room for a stomach problem. the doctors all traee it back to one thing. Stress. The stress of the trama this p erson put me through, masked with the point I am in my life write now. To be honest I turn to God but i have a hard time because the person who was dear to me, I shared God with and he betrayed me, under the eyes of God and myself.

I live in fear everyday because of the lies and trama I was put through, I live with hate everyday, and my health is poor. when I lay in bed at night I do not sleep, I struggle with insomnia, which has put quite an impression on my health. My heart beats out of step, and I am at a time in my life that this can not happen. I need strength. It just is on my heart to impress on others the damage we can do to ourselves and others. I belive that god left this world along time ago because of what we do to each other. The web is filled with nasty, nasty things, and its breaking up families, marriages, relationships. I did not wantt to turn to the web this was my last resort. Please pray for me. I do not understand why I am going through this, or why people go through things, ,or why people did to me what they did. All I know is god protects his children.
I need help to lean on him.
wings

Lord God Please help wings to look to you for strength. Help her to see you have abigger plan for here than she could ever dream of for herself. Heal her of her physical pain. I pray that she is able to know you are there and have never forgotten her! I ask this in Jesus name. Amen

Ecclesiastes 7:3 Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.

I'm truly sorry. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through right now... But I'd like to share a bit of my life story with you.

I also feel betrayed by someone I love, only a week ago now. My now ex-girlfriend recently broke up with me, after I did everything I possibly could to help her, up to and including lending her my car for two months illegally, because she has no driver's license. I was walking an hour to work everyday. She lived 45 minutes away by car, and I rarely ever saw her...

I was on the phone with her last week, and I burst out in a fury when she told me that she was going to church on Sunday and didn't invite me to go with her...she invited another friend, but she never wanted me to go with her anywhere anymore. I accused her of being ashamed of me.

I apologized after a moment, but then she told me she was through with the relationship. Along with many scathing words about how I hadn't done anything good for her lately, how she spent more money on driving my car than on her own kids (which she could have returned to me then, right?), how we always fight, how I never trust her, how I hate her kids (yet earlier that day, I was calling her to find out when I should take off work to help take her daughter to the dentist for a broken tooth), that we don't believe the same things (that apparently being related to her being Pentecostal, and believing "once Pentecostal, always Pentecostal", and I don't believe in denominations at all, and I especially don't believe in ones that try to dominate you into Christ, if such is possible, but I respected her beliefs as long as they included faith in Jesus), and other scathing things.

I'm also heartbroken...what I did for her, I would do for anyone I truly love...but she made it seem like nothing I did was good enough for her. Some of the things she said to me were true, but the reason I became angry with her is that she seemed to be avoiding me. And as soon as I get my car back, we break up... I feel used. And everyday at work I can barely concentrate on my work. I have dreams of her reconciling with me, and I know that will never happen... I know it's Satan.

For what little it's worth, know that you are not alone...I don't have the physical ailments you do, but I struggle with why God would bless her and curse me. Because that was her initial reason for leaving me...she said her pastor went to her job and told her to leave me; that if she didn't, something bad would happen to her and her kids.

And although she asked me what she should do when that happened, if I had asked her to stay, she could have said I was so selfish that I didn't care what happened to her or them. I encouraged her to go if she believed it was God, because I've been there before...God telling me to do something, and how important it is to obey Him. What I didn't do is break up with her for her own good...and I should have...instead, I asked her if she wanted to end the relationship that day, and she said no.

I wish we had ended it, because I wouldn't be the "bad guy" if we had. Or I wish we were just friends now

I don't know why God allows some bad things to happen to me...but I do believe God never asks any of us to do anything for a bad reason. And I don't believe that someone who seems to be blessed by God, even when they tear you apart heart and soul, is spared because God doesn't care for us. Rather, I believe God always keeps the big picture in mind. He wants ALL of us to get to Heaven. You, me, and anyone else who hurts us. That's his primary concern for us here on Earth, if there is any hope at all for someone...

Know that I have been to prison for beating another of my ex-girlfriend's brothers that she had custody of. Both I and that ex-girlfriend both went to prison. But while I was there, nobody laid a hand on me in vengeance, which is so common in the prisons. God even allowed me to lead a Bible study in the jail, and made an appearance to me in prison, towards the end of my bid. One of the things he said to me was, "Do you remember how you used to feel when you first knew me?" I said, "Yes." He said, "I want you to feel that way again."

Dear sister, the Lord Jesus considered NOTHING I had already done when He said that to me...He did not blame me or judge me, as so many people have...and my sins are far more than what I did to go to prison in the first place. He was more merciful and gracious than I can ever convey. He revealed His heart to me. He will forgive any sin if you come to Him, and believe me, He can heal any ailment.

What I'm encouraging you to do now is seek the Lord Himself, through constant prayer... I know it's hard. But there are promises of peace in there for those who do this, the only peace that really exists is what the Lord gives us. It's hard to let betrayal and anger go; believe me, I know. I caught myself today having a conversation with her (to myself) where I give her my arguments and she feels ashamed, and I had to stop myself. That's not what Jesus would do. Jesus would have me reconciled to Himself, so that I don't need to feel the hurt anymore. That's what I believe. And I believe He wants that for you too.

"Lord Jesus, please open the mind and heart of my sister in You to Your loving presence. I pray that she will begin to seek you, and that you in turn will touch her heart with a love that is unfathomable to us, yet so precious. Remind her that every ailment she is going through you bled on the cross to heal for her, and that nothing is more important to her now than knowing You better. Faith in you and closeness to You will deliver her as nothing else can. Help her take that first step towards You, Heavenly Father, as you once helped me. I thank You for doing this, and I thank you that it will be soon. In Jesus' name, Amen."

My name is Rob. If there's anything I can ever do for you, don't hesitate to contact me. God be with you always.

Wow, Rob, thank you. From the bottom of my heart thank you. Eveyrthing you said about the betrayl and the anger for wondering why god blesses the people who hurt us was so true. Thank you

From the bottom of my heart god bless you and thank you.


Please pray for me friday when I go for my nuclear stress test. I am hoping that my health will get better I firmly belive my heart rate is due to to much stress, but my doctor said because of my age she wants to be sure.. I just want to get better. i want to be happy again.. Do you know i cant remember the last time i laughed until my stomach hurt? Or even woke up smiling. The nights are the hardest for me. I will take your advice and I thank you.

Wings, your story sounds painfully familiar. I went though the same thing with a girl I dated for almost 5 years. After it was over I was in such a horrible place. I hated everyone and everything. I hurt myself as much as possible with alcohol and cigarettes. I lost all self respect and self preservation. Stress, anger and deep sorrow have also contributed to my health problems. To this day I still deal with some of the lasting health problems I'm sure I attained from that period in my life. Healing has been slow, and my faith is still struggling. But I know God is real and that he loves us. I know I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for my hope in Him. I know the pain will take a long time to fade, even long after we can finally forgive. Just remember there are people out there that love you and that God loves you. I will pray for you and wish you well, don't give up or give in. You can do all things through Christ Jesus.

Hang in there, you will find that Jesus has alot of love for his brokenhearted. You are in my prayers. God bless, pickles

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