Prayer needed please.

Hi, while this is nothing terribly important compared to the other prayer requests. Id still like some fellow christians to send a few prayers up on my behalf. For the majority of my christian life, i haven't been the best christian i could be. Heck, id be amazed if anyone would look at me and even think that i might be a christian. I was seeking things i THOUGHT would make me happy... a girlfriend, a nice car, and money. The last one, is my reason for this post. For awhile now, ive been trying to get a job that i knew would make me alot of money (like 6 figures). I had all the "connections" to get into this line of work, but things kept coming up that got in my way of starting along this career path. This went on for almost 2 years, at which point i started getting angry at God for not allowing me to have these things. Thats when i remembered this little verse, i was told as a child: Matthew 6:33"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.". I realized that the reason for my lack of success in all the areas i was persueing, was because i was only doing them for myself! Ive since turned my back on all those thing i was looking for, and am seeking jesus with everything i have. Ive been praying on it for awhile now, and am still awaiting a definitive answer. I feel as though i would like to get into missions work, but I dont know if thats something i can do. I have been anything but a good christian for the majority of my life, im not sure what i could do. I just know that our time on this earth is far too short to be trying to make a buck. I want to do something with my life, that glorifies God. But when i try to think of what i am "qualified" to do, im drawing a blank. Id do anything... help build homes/churches/wells etc.. I just need prayer for guidance.. for God to reveal to me, what it is he wants for me to do. If its ministry, then give me the ability to speak infront of people (i get very nervous infront of people), and confidence. Maybe someone can explain to me, what falls under the catagory of "missions work", maybe something will stand out, that i know i can do. On that note, while im not looking to make money, i dont know what to do about things like: cell phone bills, insurrance bills etc.. I understand that alot of churches that send people off on missions work, cover the cost of their trip/food (through offerings). But what do i do about exsisting bills? Is there any kind of "full time" missions work, that even pays a little.


Anyways, im rambling on here, thanks for taking the time to read all this. God bless you all, for your prayers.

JOY: Jesus, others, yourself.
Yeah, I want to do something with my life too that's for God. And honestly, I think missionwork can be anything from going to China or something to just sharing with someone (that's still rather intimidating, though...). On a larger scale, I guess you could say our life is a mission for God, or anything you do for Him. Haha..maybe too vague on that part. And all that other stuff; God will provide someway or another. I'll be praying for you.

Hi Shawny, and Kite...remember something, all things are possible with God. (Matthew 19:26, Mark 9:23, and Luke 18:27). Also Shawny, we all go through that stage in life that you were goig through wanting a wife/husband, car, home, money and all that. We're humans, which doesn't justify anything but still. As for both of you, mission work can be simply showing others Christ by how you live. Good habits, just like bad ones, are very easily picked up. Just because we don't know somone has been watching us doesn't mean they haven't, just because we don't know if they pray, read the Bible, go to church, etc. doesn't mean they haven't at least tried it or started it as a ''normal'' thing. Sometimes people do that, and we have no idea until we see and speak with them and they say ''you know God is good'' or ''you know, prayer does actually work'' or ''church is pretty great'' something along those lines.

Our mission in life is the same for every single human being. Spread/share the love of God, His word, and all that stuff. We just have different callings on how to go about doing it. I'll keep you both in prayer, and hey, if you don't mind, send upa prayer for ole Stand here, she hasn't always been the best Christian either, no one has. God bless y'all!