I can tell you how illogical it all is...
I discovered I needed to have an unopened package on my desk to keep me form thinking about going to buy anymore. They've been sitting there for two weeks. If it wasn't there, all I could think about was going to buy a pack. Oddly, I have no issues with being tempted to open them. I don't care that they are even next to me while I type. The logic fails here, I have a full pack next to me that I am never opening, but I want to smoke. I want a cigarette, and there's a pack next to me that I am not going to open.
It makes no sense to me why I have no problem resisting opening that pack, but inside all I can think about is smoking the contents of that pack. Maybe if there were a way to get them out of the pack without actually opening it, I would solve this riddle? (sarcasm)
Anyway, thank you all for your prayers. I'm hoping things will calm down in my head when things calm down in my heart and life - and sometime around the 21 day mark things should get a little better by nature.
GBU all