unloved and greiving is god still listening ):

I dont really know what to say it amazes me though how people read this and see you in need and a lot of the time if its not a so called interesting prayer request they dont even message you its happened to me before do you know that 100 people viewed a prayer request and not one response i was confused about that, o well.


I dont know if i will even get one reply on here, but as you have guessed im feeling down i am really missing my dad he died april 2007 and i just want him back i cant even not cry whilst writing this but its the only out let i have im at uni now and doing well but seriously if you have never lost someone you cant even begin to understandthe pain i feel i told my auntie i loved her she never answered or said it back, my dad wouldnt of hesitated imnot trying to say someone has to be him.

But when you have had sincere love from someone who wasnt just a parent but your protector, best freind, EVERY THING TO ME, EVERYTHING i just love him soooo much, i keep thinking im ok , im healing but i cant last a month without fallin to pieces.


I just wish this awful suffocating feeling would go away, i wish i would stop feeling unloved and rest in gods love i just dont know how to get back to thats place of no to do list distracting me from god and not focusing on my churches faults but seeking god and not hurting over losing my dad when i know it would hurt him to see me crying so much.

He was my best freind, he would always make sure i was safe and he would tell me to live life with arms wide open to all that is of worth- Dreams, ambitions, people, life,god.he had a way of pointing me to that i dont really get on with my mom most of the time its a strange relationship it really is ): ive kinda given up trying to make someone be loving im done.

It seems i have the weight of the worl on me doesnt it, i dont have any christian freinds i have one who acts like a judgmental envious parent, sometimes i think, god im not good enough for you why do you want me im just this lonely loser who has freinds who dont really love her or get her, whats the point im not this good christian girl i dont abide by my churches external rules and cant seem to find a loving church in my faith not a perfect church, but surely isnt there a loving church family left??
someone please help me i dont know what to do ): oh and i accidently pressed that yellow smiley face im not happy, i wish!. ps: i dont need a counseller, i need genuine love from somewhere.

I understand how much it hurts to lose the one who loves you so much. Its been over eight years since my mom died but I miss her as much today as the day I lost her. She is the kind of person who saw only all the good in you. She saw you as I believe Our Lord God sees us. Because of this I have learned so much of how Jesus loves us. I want you to know that Jesus loves you and cherishes you so very much. He is not looking for you to be perfect because you are perfect to him. The being good comes with time and the desire to do what is good. Right now with how much you hurt it is hard to know where or what Jesus wants or where he is. But he does want you to look to him and let him help you through your pain and loss. My favoret scripture for this is revalations 7:17 and he shall wipe every tear from your eyes.
It is this that helps me when the pain is so great that I wonder if all inside of me is breaking. Hold Jesus close and he will hold you closer, wether now or in time you will know he is there for you. I will keep you in my daily prayers. Huge hugs and God bless, pickles

Hello There, You look a really pretty girl may I say. Sometimes we wonder where God is, I feel the same at times alot. Its a confusing world we live in and we wonder why we get hurt and feel alone. Maybe its got some truth in when people on here keep saying lean on jesus. Even is you just talk about your hurt that is a good way of letting it go. I will listen to you as I know when we loose someone close it does hurt, and I even understand the hurt you feel, as you are a very young lady and I feel in time you will still be hurt but as you get older you may deal with it better, but saying that when we are hurt we write all sorts down. I have battled with an illness for years and I know how ouir minds can upset us so much. If ever you want to chat I will write to you, I too know thats its hard to find genuine freinds as christians, as when we are hurt it seems worse than ever. Just take your time and look after yourself and do the things that you like doing. Just say to yourself that your Mom is now with Jesus, and think nice thoughts of her. Love Mandy xx

god is with you sweetheart

God can and will repair your heart if you ask, hit your knees and talk to him, he is right next to you and listening.. I pray for GOD to send you his angels to be with you..

made me cry to read that!! my dad passed about five years ago...and I loved Him very very much as well...it takes time, I still miss him, there are times I really need him, but I have taken those needs before God and He has answered in amazing ways. A note from one of my dads friends at an unexpected moment...things to remind me of him, and almost let me know it is only a temporary seperation, and that my heavenly Father and my father both still love me very much! You will always miss him, but he is still here! God bless...if you ever want to talk drop me a line! I love your love for your dad! I pray that God will be your Father from now on, and fill that role in your life with himself.....God bless....and you know your Dad wouldnt want you to be sad! He is still somehwere loving you! ...all my love

Trust in God with all Your heart and lean not to Your own understanding/

Jer. 31:13b "I will turn their mourning into joy, and will comfort them, and make them rejoice from thier sorrow....
otere scriptures to read: Ps. 28:7, Ps. 147:3, Ps. 25:20

Louiselis, you know when you post & people read and dont respond... perhaps they are doing as requested and praying. Dont assume the rejection ok. You know there are so many on here who truly care about you. We've spoken before and private messaged, please keep the faith girl I pray for you to physically feel the Lords embrase around you holding you tight. You are his precious child. Try to laugh lots ok & listen to praise & worship music that uplifts your spirit. God Bless you.

I probly dont know exactly how u feel to lose someone so close to me.Today i lost my cousin, we werent really close but im so shaken its i cant explain it. but i just remember a song that says "God will chose and he'll use whatever he wants to, to tell us I LOVE YOU. He knows the end from the beginning, and y he did this but i know he will get us through this. He understands what ure going through and he loves you. just keep trusting him and praying for the strength and comfort to get through. and also pray for godly friends, i believe he will answer your pray. Youre in my prayers. May the Lord bless and keep u. Lots of hugs to u.

hey im not gonna say, i know how youre feeling, or something because i dont, just being honest. ive never lost anyone close to me. but i have gone through some pretty lonely situations. God was always with me, he was my friend when i was alone, he always will. just remember to pray, it makes you feel a lot better. he will always be there, he loves you so much. you can just let him hold you. have you ever heard the song "hold my heart" by tenth avenue north? its a really good song
hey if u ever need someone to talk to, im here. im younger, but i think i can still be a good friend.
im praying for you! God bless!
Love, Morgan

I am praying for you! I lost my father about 4 years ago, and I still miss him so much! It does get better, but there is rarely a day that goes by that I don't cry a little for him. It is much harder for you, I am sure, because you seem rather young to be dealing with the loss of a parent.

I want you to know that you have a Heavenly Father who is always with you and longs to comfort you. I pray that you feel His love as strongly as a pair of arms embracing you. Wrap yourself in His Word and His promises as you would a comfortable quilt. Be still and let Him show you that He is still good even in the midst of suffering.

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I lost my dad years ago and understand your pain. Thankfully, after a short time the pain was transformed into a beautiful peaceful feeling—a remembrance of a man I loved dearly, who I will be reunited with in the Resurrection.

What helped me immensely was having a loving church family. If your church is not supportive of you, you might check out new ones until you fine one that is. If you can’t fine one, then you might join a church and teach the people in the church to be better Christians. Become an adult Sunday school teacher, for example.

Don’t forge to pray frequently and walk with the Lord.

I know this is counseling, but I don’t know what else to say. I hope you get over your sadness soon.

You know louiseelis, I don't know your personal pain.. but I can remember my own pain of losing my grandma last year, and then losing my aunt theyear before, and then losing an uncle the prior year before that. Grieving is a process and you need to be ok with the process you go through because we are all different. I am gonna sound cliche but I have to say this... the bible says when my father and mother forsake me, that the Lord will take me up.. He will cover me.. I don't know where you are.. but it has been in the dark valleys when I have run out of options of things to run to .. when I ran to the Lord that He has filled the holes in my heart and covered the loneliness that I felt for missed loved ones. The Lord wants wants to comfort you. Probably not what you want to hear but it is what I know. Sometimes when I don't know what to say I find other mediums to communicate with the Lord.. whether its through writing letters.. sometimes I have just gone to the park or even found a quiet spot somewhere to just get quiet... and to think of some of the scriptures that help me to remember that not height, nor depth or even death can separate us from the love of the Lord... while my current state of loneliness is not the same state you are in .. I can say to you that the Lord hears your spoken and unspoken prayers and He will answer..

blessings sister,
Maggie

Thank you all so very much i have read all your replies, didnt want to respond without good news and i finally have some i am feeling a lot better i took the advice of every one of you (= god is helping me through the healing process he is teaching me that i was trying to do it all alone when he just wanted me to let him in (= so thanks very much for all your prayers, and support godbless xxx

Ahh sis,
I came back to see if there would be a response from you. That is great! I whispered your name in a prayer today and He answered

Maggie

I pray that the Lord gives you strength.

Psa 62:5 My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.

He will never disappoint you! Having expectations of the flesh of man to fulfill anything in you that only God can, will only lead to disappointment and over time, recentfulness and bitterness...be careful.

I hear your longing to love and BE loved and to have the sorrows of your heart heard. CRY OUT to Abba Father, He is waiting for you and be assured, NOTHING compares with His sweet and tender compassion for you. He understands you better than even you do.

Psa 62:8 Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah.

I give thanks to the Father that you're not denying what is the truth of your heart...how you feel is the truth for you but it is not The Truth of Him for you. The Lord uses every circumstance of loss for our gain and you will soon see...that this too shall pass.

You ask, "is God still listening?" And I heard Him say, are you still willing?" BE patient with yourself. Matthew 7:78...BELIEVE!

Psa 73:28 But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may declare all thy works.

Eph 2:8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Eph 2:9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.

The Lord BE GLORIFIED,
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