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I know this is going to sound so selfish but I need help
through prayers of those who can understand the best
you can.
I have a precious Granddaughter getting married soon.
It has been an answer to prayer for God to put a good
man in her life who will love and cherish her forever. He
did put such a man in her life. So, what is the problem ?
I am having grief and crying without wanting to. I have
to guard against anxiety attacks as I must be well for
this wedding. Why am I having these attacks ? Why the
grief.... I am ashamed to say I have asked for prayer
before because of the loss of my daughter who died in
2007, and then my grandson, her 22 year old, one and
half year later. Aug. 2008. This is my granddaughters
Mother and brother.
She wants to incorporate them in the Wedding and Reception.
She wants to honor them and be a part of this special occasion.
You must wonder why am I weeping, and thinking I should be
joyful. I think I wrote once for prayer here, about having
to go through photos she wants to use. This is the most
difficult request because each time I have to find photos I
see my daughter, grandson, mother and father who are no
longer here. It opens up the gate of grief and I want it to
stay closed. I don't understand myself at all.
She asked me to read a reading during the Wedding, and I
just want to burst into tears at the thought. I should feel
honored, I know. I should feel joyful, and just be happy.
Don't get me wrong, I am joyful for her and I am happy.
But is is a reminder of my preparing my daughter for her
wedding. It is a reminder of the birth of my grandson, and
he died too young at age 22. As did his mom at age 45.
Please, just pray against the spirit of grief. I am so serious.
I can't be ill for the Bridal Luncheon, now it will be rehersal
dinner, then wedding next day and reception. My body does
not do well with stress. I need a miracle. Please ask God to
remove the spirit of heaviness and replace it with the garment
of praise. This is like 'death' all over again when it hits me.
I want it to be a happy day. I want to believe her Mother
is seeing her beautiful daughter on her beautiful wedding day.
Most of all I want to enjoy this with the joy of the Lord.
My Granddaughter knows of God, and received him when she
was about four and half or five yrs. old. But, very worldly.
It is my prayer I can focus upon the fact God is going to
bless my Granddaughter with her Wedding day being special
and believe me, I pray for her and her husband to be will
come into the fullness of Christ in their marriage.
Sorry this is long. I plead to be delivered from the grief
and tears that come when I least expect. Thank you so
much. In Christ I am your Sister in the Lord.
through prayers of those who can understand the best
you can.
I have a precious Granddaughter getting married soon.
It has been an answer to prayer for God to put a good
man in her life who will love and cherish her forever. He
did put such a man in her life. So, what is the problem ?
I am having grief and crying without wanting to. I have
to guard against anxiety attacks as I must be well for
this wedding. Why am I having these attacks ? Why the
grief.... I am ashamed to say I have asked for prayer
before because of the loss of my daughter who died in
2007, and then my grandson, her 22 year old, one and
half year later. Aug. 2008. This is my granddaughters
Mother and brother.
She wants to incorporate them in the Wedding and Reception.
She wants to honor them and be a part of this special occasion.
You must wonder why am I weeping, and thinking I should be
joyful. I think I wrote once for prayer here, about having
to go through photos she wants to use. This is the most
difficult request because each time I have to find photos I
see my daughter, grandson, mother and father who are no
longer here. It opens up the gate of grief and I want it to
stay closed. I don't understand myself at all.
She asked me to read a reading during the Wedding, and I
just want to burst into tears at the thought. I should feel
honored, I know. I should feel joyful, and just be happy.
Don't get me wrong, I am joyful for her and I am happy.
But is is a reminder of my preparing my daughter for her
wedding. It is a reminder of the birth of my grandson, and
he died too young at age 22. As did his mom at age 45.
Please, just pray against the spirit of grief. I am so serious.
I can't be ill for the Bridal Luncheon, now it will be rehersal
dinner, then wedding next day and reception. My body does
not do well with stress. I need a miracle. Please ask God to
remove the spirit of heaviness and replace it with the garment
of praise. This is like 'death' all over again when it hits me.
I want it to be a happy day. I want to believe her Mother
is seeing her beautiful daughter on her beautiful wedding day.
Most of all I want to enjoy this with the joy of the Lord.
My Granddaughter knows of God, and received him when she
was about four and half or five yrs. old. But, very worldly.
It is my prayer I can focus upon the fact God is going to
bless my Granddaughter with her Wedding day being special
and believe me, I pray for her and her husband to be will
come into the fullness of Christ in their marriage.
Sorry this is long. I plead to be delivered from the grief
and tears that come when I least expect. Thank you so
much. In Christ I am your Sister in the Lord.
