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The hard part is over. the day. now God calculates my expense for today through the Good deeds and the not so good. I feel bad about my previous post from earlier today.. is that considered a bad deed? when you break down and just let it all out from the bottom of that abyss called your soul? Well, GOD I know your getting a kick out of this because you know what I am going to type before it even evolves into a sentence.. well on a more serious notes, my day went pretty well other than that break down I had earlier.. GOD please forgive me for my negative thoughts I am truly having a hard time with my failing marriage. I can never find the right things to say when they are needed to be said... its always when I recap my day that I realize "well hey should of done that" .... yep it gets worse- I yelled at my daughter today.. well I shouted at her.. she is a whitty one and I was so frustrated with my situation that I spewed out my anger onto my baby girl (shes 3 god bless her) one of those moments where I was upset and she kept asking me to look at her and i just exploded for 10 seconds.. felt like an eternity... I asked her to forgive me and she did with her precious smile... she can tell I am going through something tough.. that is you in her eyes telling me it will be ok ..I need you GOD.. I feel like things are falling apart.. I have a pretty good sense of humor which has helped us get by for a while but man, I have bad days too and this was a pretty crumby day...I love you.. and I am devoted to you GOD. Good night and good morning world..