You are in my prayers but I must say this :
You sound like my Mum, she is 51 and she has been a born again Christian for years. She loves her live but also lives an 'isolated' one. She only ever phones her mum (my granny) once a week and other than that, its just her husband (my dad ) and her children she talks to (6 of us)
If it is born again friends you ae seeking, may it be prospeus for you
But if it is not christians, be warned because, it is better to be in the presents of children that to be in the presents of non-belivers, they are a
very bad influence and I just hope they dont influence you faith in a bad way
I am sorry if it sounds harse and I know I am a dreadfull speller so my apoligese in advance
God Bless and May the Holy Spirit Guide you in this matter
Kathleen x