Prayer for freedom from my pains & more

Hey all so I'm 16 and have been going through a lot since 6th grade. My anxiety started in 6th grade after the shock of being in middle school, when I worried and got upset, I'd get sick. I went on medications after my nurse reccomended I go on them after worrying I had a brain tumor because of headaches caused by my anxiety. I've been on and off meds and have been off my meds for a few months, after realizing anti-anxiety meds had many bad side effects. Over one year ago I attempted suicide by taking random vitamins, and also allerclear meds. I'm done suicidal thoughts as I got over the PTSD and never get suicidal thoughts. (I've had a history of going to the ER for anxiety or pains when I think it's something else, and dad has gotten stubborn and less concerned over how I feel. Recently I've been dealing with lots of painful symptoms. I've been feeling weak all over, have been having cold hands and really bad stomach pains, I think I let myslef slide off in health and maybe being faithful to god. I am taking this as a revival of my walk in christ and have been staying strong, but I still pray for god to forgive me of sin and to also relieve me of my pains and uncertainty. Today I was so worried over my symptoms and thought I was going to die, I've been telling my best friend lots of my things and it's really hard on both of us. Especially after going to the ER via ambulance thursday only to be met by an angry mom and dad who rushed the docs and nurses to let me go. No tests other then oxygen monitor and arm cuff were done. I feelreally sick and fear it's something not anxiety and that I won't be okay
It's really hard as I have to wait to go to the docs now as my dad always assumes it's anxiety. My worst fear is getting sicker and my dad still thinking it's anxiety. But I accept my lord as my savior and know he'll keep me safe. Please pray for me to do things to get me healthy, give me guidance, to be relieved of my pains, and to be holy. Thank you all for your time and concern. GOD BLESS you all sisters and brothers in Christ, love you all!

You sound like you need psychiatric help for your hypochondria. I am not trying to put you down, as the anxiety and the mental illness you are suffering is very real, and very painful. But you are not going to get over it, if it has been going on this long without professional help.

God also will help you on this journey. He will never leave or forsake you. He loves you and he is going to use this for his glory. There was a time, when I was very depressed and suicidal because of the untreated pain of a very serious disease. God has taken this time in the desert and helped me find a ministry with those who are hurting and broken.

The sooner you get help the better. These thought patterns can become deeper and deeper. Finding ways to stop these thoughts which make you think you are dying when you are not is the goal you need to aim for.

Praying for you to find the right help, and that you will read your Bible and look to God as your strength. Remember, if you know Jesus Christ as your Saviour, death cannot harm. You will be with the Lord if these symptoms are real. If not you are not a Christian, please PM me and we can talk about how you can walk with God. I know you said "brothers and sisters in Christ" but you didn't mention Jesus in the rest of your post. That kind of concerns me much more than all the symptoms, real or not.

God bless you all! You've all made me feel pretty good, especially you jkalyna. I'll look upon the lord and pray to the lord and will also continue to thank him for no matter what goes on. I'm very thankful to have christ in my life, and knows he is not one to ignore and not one to give up. Thank you lots!

I hope God gives me answers, the answers only he can give me.