Im very sick, neurologists dont know whats wrong with me, but Ive also sinned alot in this life so maybe that has something to do with it. And I keepsinning bad.
You are loved anyway by God and this reception of this love from God is real, whether sick or not. I have been for over a year now and am healing some areas healed. More importantly through it all I am and have sought what can i learn from this. And God has never said I am punishing you for your sins (people do that well enough). God am perfecting us to be see how to walk away from harming others and yourself, by his love, which being sick does not appear that way for now. God sees everyone's future we do not, and we all need someone to trust don't we?
The hardest thing to trust is why me Lord? Read Job and maybe be put at a little ease in the midst of your adversity.
Now the first stage to actually begin to heal is first accepting what is, whether you like it or not. I found healing can not begin without accepting what is, whether I like it or not.
Praying this helps. for I know Father is right there at your side, living in you and desires to live and love through you. No more focused on not being right with God
this is the message from God to you.
2 Corinthians 5:18 And all things
are of God, who hath
reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;
2 Corinthians 5:20 Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech
you by us: we pray
you in Christ’s stead, be ye
reconciled to God.
Reconciled is made right with God by Son, Sister please God is trying to show you this, and it hurts God to see you going through this, as I know it hurt God for me to go through what i went through losing parts, yet looking back now it was for my best interest, even though it hurt much and still does today, if I focus on the loss, rather than the life he came to give in
Spirit and truth, considering my old flesh dead with Christ back at the cross of daily to be alive daily in spiritual love to all
So trust God with your contite heart now, right now and receive the new heart he came to give to you, and thus love all in truth without being selfish to what you want.
Just some Spiritual food for you to consider, God does just love you and people do not