Depressed and scared.

so this is kind of in relation to my other thread about how i was scared cause of the scary movie and having panic attacks. well today, thanksgiving, i woke up feeling alright and happy and thankful. we went to my brother's house for dinner and my mom and brother went outside onto the patio. and well, part of the problem is i felt alone, so i felt like they were leaving me.
so being depressed, i just walked out and my mom and dad followed and we came home. along the way i was crying and feeling like no one loved me and i had a thought like "if i just open the car door and jump that would be it" the only thing that stopped me was that i still believe that God loves me. But that thought scared me so much.
Everyone has suicidal thoughts, but this was the first time it's ever scared me. I feel so bad, I would've hurt my mom and family. My mom told me that they were outside talking about how worried they are about me. Please pray that this depression and dark thoughts go away.
I feel so bad and like this is getting too much for me.
Thank you

I will be praying for you.

Try to find either a pastor or councelor to talk to. It would help you figure all this out. I will keep you in my daily prayers.
God bless, pickles

counselor, pastor friend? for your health...? hang in there...fight. cry. Love

I'm already seeing a counselor, but I just need extra prayer.
And another thing freaked me out this morning A little wind up wishing well that plays music started playing this morning. it kind of woke me up. it didn't play fast, but kind of like when the winding is running out and plays slow, not for very long, but i haven't touched it in a long while.

Yep, that sounds like something out of a movie. Are you afraid some spirit made it play? Are you afraid you won't be in control of what goes on with you or around you? Put good things in your mind. Dwell on good things. This could be a long process, but if you'll do it, over time, you will see a difference. God is in control and nothing can happen without it going through His hands first, and He has good plans for your life and your future. I will continue praying for you.

Happ I pray that you feel better, I have psychiatric problems too (depression, insomnia, ADD, delusions, hallucinations) I'm praying for God's love and strength for you, may God Bless you, Amen

Thanks everyone, it's hard I'm just praying to make it through.
Appreciate it so much.

Ro 8:31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

I know you have heard this verse over and over again, all your Christains friends repeat this verse to you all the time. but Now you must allow this verse to guide you, you must allow this verse to be your only thought, If God be for Happ who can be against her. God Had you on His mind when He allowed His only begotten Son to die. God said Jesus I need someone to go and die for Happ, and Jesus said I'll go Father. Now God is looking down At His beloved Daughter Happ and He sees your every need. He sees that Happ is in the midst of her greatest battle yet. He sees the despair, the loneliness, He sees the battle satan has began with you, and sees how satan is trying to destroy you, But satan can only win this battle if he can convince Happ that God has forsaken her. The One that died that you might have life and it more abundantly, and You through faith have believed this, you must also believe this One when He said I will Never leave nor forsake you. You have heard that you are weak and He is strong, But The God Almighty, the very God that created everything and without Him nothing was made, is now at this very moment, commanding you to be strong

Ps 68:28Thy God hath commanded thy strength: strengthen, O God, that which thou hast wrought for us.



Ps 68:1To the chief Musician, A Psalm or Song of David. Let God arise, let his enemies be scattered: let them also that hate him flee before him.Ps 68:2As smoke is driven away, so drive them away: as wax melteth before the fire, so let the wicked perish at the presence of God.

Happ, I know you and anyone else that has called upon the name of the Lord, everyone that has sought His Kingdom and His righteousness, can be strong, for God has strengthened us, God will not put anything on us that He can not get us through, with our faith in Him. it is His power, His strength, His Holiness that you must take on now, claim it with all you have, when you get up in the morning, when you go through the day, when you lay down at night remind yourself; If God, the very God that Loves me, Be for me, who can be against me.

Father, I come to You on behalf of Happ and all others that the devil has put in this battle of despair and loneliness. Father; my Lord and my God I ask you to just allow them to know, that Your Eyes are upon all Your Children, and that You are with them. even Now, oh Please Lord let it be, for all things we ask in the Name of Jesus Christ your precious Son, and our Beloved Brother Amen.


1jo 4:4Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

If God be For us, who can be against!!!!!!

You continue to be in my prayers.
Hugs and God bless, pickles

Amen Pickles

Thanks so much for this. It is what I need to remember. Thanks all, once again, for those of you who are continuing to pray for me, I try to keep you all in my prayers as well.

I have no advice to give, and you wouldnt want my advice anyway. But I know where you are at, I have been there myself, been there, done that, have the t-shirt. Once again, I am back in the pain and depression and anxiety which seems to rule my life whenever it feels like it. I always like to think about the song Another Time, Another Place. For some reason, it makes me feel better knowing that even if God makes me live my whole life in pain and misery, that eventually, it will end. I will pray for you.

So, I'm waiting for another time and another place, Where all my hopes and dreams will be captured,With one look at Jesus' face.
Oh, my heart's been burnin', My soul keeps yearnin', Sometimes I can't hardly wait,For that sweet, sweet someday, When I'll be swept away,
To another time and another place - SP