I need prayer for my addiction

I need prayer for an addiction. I'm addicted and obsessed with Sherlock Holmes. I have been since I was 13 years old and I'm now 26 years old. I literally can't stop myself from thinkin about him all the time. I look at pictures and watch shows of him all the time. its weird but I feel like I need to keep staring at his picture and watch shows of him. I know I don't need to but I feel like I need to if that makes any sense at all and when I can't I get very antsy. But when I dabble in that when I come back to reality I feel convicted and guilty for not spending that time with GOD it is idolatry. I have asked GOD many times to make Sherlock Holmes real which of course won't happen. I have daydreamed of him constantly. I can't stop myself and I know I need to. This is gonna sound very weird but I think I've fallen in love with Sherlock Holmes. As werid and as impossible as that may seem I think I have. I don't wanna be cause he isn't real. Even while I'm reading the Bible he pops back into my head. I found a good ministry online called Faith Comes By Hearing and I listen to and read the Bible there and he still pops into my head. When I wake up hes there. When I go to bed hes there. I listen to music hes there. I'm at Church hes there. I don't want him to be there but he is. I know its weird but part of me is almost expecting him to be real and just suddenly appear and then my dreams would come true. Doing my best to not think of Sherlock Holmes by reading the Bible and listening to Christian music and CR and Church and Christian chatrooms and Christian forums but he's still there he never goes away. No matter what I do hes always there even though I don't want him to be. Its weird but sometimes I am glad for this addiction obsession because even though I know its wrong it does feel good to think of him as a husband. I haven't had a date or any attention from any guys at all in 4 years this June. I mean literally nothing from guys not even a wink nothing and I am a human being after all. So it feels good to think of someone giving me some attention. I have wished many times that my obsession wouldn't be a bad thing that GOD would tell me its ok and its not a sin which of course He's not gonna do that. Its just part of me still hopes that Sherlock Holmes will become real and I can't seem to let go of that hope even though I need to. If I had the power to make Sherlock real then I would in a heartbeat without thought I don't have that power though but I wish I did. So please pray as I really need GOD's help with this addiction obsession and if He doesn't help me there will be no getting rid of Sherlock Holmes.

Start giving Watson some attention to get Holmes jealous.

I am sure that this is just a way of expressing to God that you have a deep need that is not being filled, and it is the only way it seems to you that you can fill it. Been there, done that! I go someplace where no one can hear me so I can shout about it, and storm and pace. Once I bought a huge dog, a backpack, and a backpack tent, a tiny stove, and books on how to backpack. Then I searched trail books to find a trail no one used, and boy, did I let loose! God knew of my need before I shouted it to Him, of course, but it made me feel a lot better.

For me, the Lord filled me with the Holy Spirit that was part of Him, then led me to oils as in painting pictures in oil. You can look at my albums to see some. And some of those backpack trips I learned about gave me pictures to keep inside of me of places that were absolutely filled with the Lord. There is an ice cave where the sun could penetrate the ice and show gorgeous colors, for instance. There is Ruby lake in the Trinity Alps in California, that picture in my mind can soothe any need I have, and tells me the Lord is up close and powerful. Sharing a backpack trip with a friend is wonderful sharing, just be sure they see and hear God and don't need their own voice constantly. Even music is out of place out there, the music of the land is gorgeous, it seems God is in all of it.

I'll bet you could find a way to share friendship with men, even if it isn't a romantic one. My daughter just finished a course in low voltage electricity!! There are groups at church with men in it. Photography clubs usually have men in them. Cross country skiing. Get creative. Friendships help, even when they aren't romantic.

Lord we seek your intervention in this, please let this addiction problem go , Amen

Do you have any Sherlock books, movies, tv shows, memorabilia in your house? Begin by collecting it all and either selling it or throwing it out. I mean everything. If you allow the temptation to be around you, you will give in. At first "he" will be in your mind, possibly for a long time afterwards. But the longer you are able to not feed "him" he will slowly wither away and die.

You are doing the right thing by trying to replace him with the things of the LORD; study, reading, prayer, worship, fellowship, etc. Have you told your pastor and/or family or friends? Maybe someone close can be your accountability partner?

I have prayed for you.

I'm praying for you and also thanking God for your courage and honesty and safety to reach out with this unconventional attack from satin. You can beat this you already have many of the God like qualities to do it and of course He's always with you. One thing I am hearing is whenever your doing the things necessary things for healing the enemy shows up pictures grafics and feelings. This is where you really need the power of the Holy Spirit because your watering the wrong seed.

A tool that works is to activate your voice. Let me try to explane. Vocal your brain can really only think of one thing a time if your using words. When you pray pray out loud. You have a post from here I need to read again myself about going camping and screaming it out. Good stuff reread that wisdom again. If your mouth is engaged its harder to be distracted and when satin comes looking like whoever get your mouth to working loud and proud.