Hi gee22,
What is your relationship with Jesus like? The need to feel loved and emptiness you describe can only be filled with a close relationship with Christ. If you are waiting for a relationship or job to make you happy then you are creating idols in your heart. Idols will drive you mad, believe me I know, because they will never be satisfied, ever. I pray that you find the one that God has for you but when you do he will be fallible unintentionally hurting your feelings, occasionally being selfish, not affectionate enough especially if you are depending on him to make you happy. Good job same thing. Here is a
great, solidly bible-based website to help you learn how better to turn your eyes to Jesus
Peaceful Single Girl | Biblical, Christian Relationship Advice for Young Women
Also the ability to forgive people who hurt you is something everyone struggles with, even mature Christians. I like that Beth Moore says she is the world's biggest tattle tale, if you hurt her feelings she is going straight to tell her daddy!
I now do that also, helps soooo much. I also listen to this song in my car right after the real or imagined offense happens
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHcVTbyJqis Tenth Avenue North - Losing
Gracious Father,
Touch gee22 with Your unfailing love, heal the broken places, opening her eyes to the true source of love she desires. Thank you for loving us with an unfailing love that never sleeps. We also pray that at Your anointed time You will bring about the one You have for her, placing the lonely in families like You say You will do in Your word. We praise Your Holy Name. Amen
gee I will be available for the next hour or so if you would like to pm me or there are prayer warriors in the prayer chat room that would love to intercede for you (Btw I am also new to cc so it might take me a minute to figure out the pm but I would love to learn with you)