Mrsouthside, I am sorry you are going through this painful season in life, I'm sorry that you are suffering. But let me tell you that I am a woman free from depression and suicidal tendencies. I was diagnosed with anxiety depression at 22 years of age, but I battled with depression since 14 years of age, the age I first attempted suicide. I suffered 8 long years of emotional, mental and spiritual torment that almost took me to the grave.
But there is hope, it is found in Jesus. One of my favourite scriptures is this, Psalm 42:11 "Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God." Place your hope in the Lord like your life depends on it, move God's heart with a cry from your inner most being, and I promise you He will respond.... like He did for me.
At 22 years of age, I was about to take my life. I came to the end of everything I am and couldn't stand to take another breath, to walk on or to drag my feet through this thing called 'life'. And so I cried out to God, a God I thought wanted nothing to do to me. But because I cried out, because I yearned for one to save me from myself, He answered, He came, and He instantly delivered me from the depression that covered my vision and blinded me from truth. In my complete brokenness, He filled me until I was overflowing, He submerged me in the Hope and Peace my soul longed for.
I am sharing this testimony because I want to pass this blessing on to you. Be encouraged, I pray that this testimony stirs something in you. God is alive and responsive. He is a healer and restorer of our souls. I am believing He is set out for the broken hearted... and He had His heart set on you. Open up and receive Him in to those places deep within you.
Lord Jesus, I lift up MrSouthside to You, awaken his soul to the hope that is found in You. Lift the veil from his eyes and bring clarity where the fog of depression has covered him. Restore the places of his soul that are hurting, take his heart and breathe new life in to it. I declare this depression broken and rendered powerless in the name of Jesus Christ. I release the chains from this man by the power of the Holy Spirit. This bondage will not stand against the power of Your mighty name, Jesus. Let this man experience increase of joy, increase of supernatural peace, flood him in Your goodness, God. Thank you for this healing, in Jesus' name, Amen.