Help! My Life Is a Nightmare...Prayers Please

This is the hardest time in my life...

1. I am trying to get out of an abusive marriage of 11 years. He was abusive to my older daughters and myself..I have tried to leave many times before though every time he messes with me, my job, the kids and any other way he won't leave me alone unitl he has his way therefore..in the past it was too much pressure. I am divorcing him now though I am going through it all over again and last week he called the cops on me for know reason and I am still sooo upset and I just want him to leave me ALONE.

2. My older children are still having a hard time with the abuse...my 13 yr old has been hurting herself and I had to put her in the hospital multiple times in the past couple of months and was suicidal. My 14 year old is very defient, wanting to run away and starting to drink. My younger children are weepy and don't understand why their dad is tell them "mommy is bad"when he is supposed to be "visiting them at school lunch".

It been really tough trying to keep my abusive ex away and at the same time try and console and support my children when I feel I also get the wrath from them too because I stayed when I should have left. I am trying to love them through it though most the time I feel so hopeless and don't know what to do other then pray...Please pray that Satan will flee from me and my children and healing and restoration will continue.!
Thank you and God Bless

dearest LOrd,
I lift my sister and her children up to you Oh Lord God- I ask for a hedge of protection to be formed around their lives, I pray for comfort and peace to fill their hearts, I pray for healing to restore them back to the place of joy and safety. I pray Oh Lord for all evil to be bound up and cast out in JESUS NAME. I pray for your wrath to come upon this sisters enemies, That you discipline her enemies and teh ones who abuse her. I pray that You handle the situation and give her life a new refreshing start. I ask all this be done in your will and your name JESUS, AMEN

Father God I thank you for being at work in my sisters stars life.....for keeping her safe and holding
her and her children close....thank you for removing all obstacles that block her path to You......
Thank you for keeping her strong......and safe......and also working on her childrens mind, bodies, and souls....
I thank you in Jesus,s name.......amen.....
As always im here for you sister.....any time.....jo

What blue_lady bug said. I could not word my response as well if I tried. This is a real horror show.

Hello ... I will add you to my prayers this evening. May I suggest that you seek help at your local mental health center? They have emergency advisers and options to help you get out and get free. Their resources would amaze you. God hates divorce but He does not expect us to live in that kind of an environment, either. His first concern is for us as individuals. He cares about our souls and the damage being done by the abuse you are suffering would raise His wrath. He loves us so very much. Pray for some time alone to get the help you and your children need. The people at the MHC can make you "disappear" in one day. Then you can get the necessary restraining orders and the authorities will be able to help you be safe. Through it all, just do not loose sight of the blessed Lord Who loves us all so very much. You must cling to him for your very life. It may seem like He is not there, not knowing, not caring but that is NOT the case. Remember, trials test the strength of our faith. We are as gold being purified. Cling to Him ... pray absolutely constantly ... be very certain that you are ready and willing to accept His help. Your husband is a very sick person. He, too, needs help. If he violates any of the orders put in place to keep you and your family safe, he will be forced to get that help. Please ... lay this burden at the feet of Jesus. Place all your cares upon Him. What He will do will astound you ... so long as you are stepping out in true faith. I pray right now that God will keep you under His care. You are loved ... and understood.

Thank you all for your kind words thoughts and prayers...honestly the abuse was horrific for the first 2years..I tried to leave during that time though every resource that I reached out to....(womens shelter, police, friends, family) heas has stopped .This man is danergerous and I agree sick. He has tried to kill me with his bare hands and then the next week he goes to our pastors and asks for marital counseling and denies any abuse and tell them "I" am the wrong one. He will serve at church and attended faithfully..he read me scriptures and cried to me for forgivness when I wanted to leave.
I would give him chances only to him going back to abusing me. He would also become in despair and suicidal when I tied to leave I would feel guilty and guilt myself "maybe he does care for me" Only to fall into the trap again that he continued the abuse.

Sorry to hear all you've been through star, but at least you've finally moving forward. You did your best and it may take time for your children to understand. Just keep trying to love them and keep communicating with them. It will be a long journey and lots of pain, but also can be the most rewarding in the end.

How do I change my nickname? And will people still know who I am? I can't figure out how to pm you.

I couldn't edit my post so I reposted. Thanks!
Thank you all for your kind words thoughts and prayers...honestly the abuse was horrific for the first 2years..I tried to leave during that time though every resource that I reached out to....(womens shelter, police, friends, family) he has has stopped and or manipulated.This man is danergerous and I agree sick. He has tried to kill me with his bare hands and then the next week he goes to our pastors and asks for marital counseling and denies any abuse and tell them "I" am the wrong one. He will serve at church and attended faithfully..he read me scriptures and cried to me for forgivness when I wanted to leave and I took him back."
I would give him chances only to him going back to abusing me. He would also become in despair and suicidal when I tied to leave I would feel guilty and guilt myself "maybe he does care for me" Only to fall into the trap again that he continued the abuse. I have had 3 order of protections against this man..though I felt in despair and dismissed them on my own...I was confused and wanted answers from him why...why. to only again fall into the trap that he said was "my fault" and the abuse continued.

I have stayed separated from him for the last seven years and felt he was less aggressive and the abuse was less often if I stayed married to him though I know me and my children needed to stay safe and never agreed to have him live with us. He pressured me all the time to move back in knowing deep down the abuse would be horrific like before and everytime I would try and hint at that (I could never tell him the truth or he would hurt me) he would bring up trips and marital counseling which I new he was never sincere about changing and manipulation for me to open up and put my guard down to continue the control and abuse.

This has been scary, I have been faking and in hiding for a very long time just to survive. I am a Christian and devoted to God though I felt he used this situation to pull me down..my dream of having a family that almost killed me and my children. This man knew the bible and Gods word more than me...I trusted him..he was all for our children going to bible camps in the summer, nightly devotions as a family we had and we would help a stranger and take the shirt off his back for them. This is were the confusion came from how can this man follow God in so many way and then hurt me and his children..every time I processed with him it sounded somewhat logical..a mastermind and I belived it until I had a breakdown and major depression set in..I couldn't physically move and felt like I was sinking in quicksand mentally.

It hasn't been so cut and dry..though at my lowest points I have seen Jesus face weeping for me and new I wasn't alone. I have fasted and prayed and the ONLY reason I am still alive is because of God rescuing me...everyday I have got stronger...I am in therapy..my 13 year old is in treatment..3 other children are in therapy and other programs are getting in place as we speak.
I also have an attorney for the divorce and he feels because I dismissed the other OFP he judge may think I am not serious about it again..and because my ex is acting out calling the cops and sending threatning text messages he thinks this will be enough to show that he is acting out. God will judge him one day, so I am giving this to God and only focusing on me and my children.I agree its hard to be paitent when the storm is hurling around me though I choose to sit quietly and wait still on the lord for direction and peace.

An abusive relationship is never healthy, you should get closer to your immediate family, they are the ones who will protect you. I'm sorry your heart is hurting, and your little hearts will continue to make you stronger. I hope that one day that tear that falls from your eye is that tear. I send my Love Sister, to you and your children. With Love Saint True