prayer for my mom and i going to church today

she's not a believer yet... we're going to church today. i'm nervous.

something unsettling happened very recently threatening my own progress, i went into panic mode.

it's difficult to explain what is going on, i feel embarrassed for being dramatic lately, in my personal life. i had something so hard happen, that i just broke down... so much is on the line.

going through a lot.

any prayers of mercy and protection... pleading the blood of Jesus on myself and my family, would be awesome.

i'm sorry for asking for so much help recently, but things were getting better and the enemy just went for the jugular.

sorry for any dramatics here, i have been in fight mode... settling down now. absolutely exhausted.

i realize fully that i need to pray for myself and my family and read the bible and do my work- i'm just so tired and struggling to do the right things.

it would be awesome if today went well at church. my mom and i are going to get help and hopefully talk to the pastors.

i'm nervous having never brought her to church. i'm exhausted and embarrassed about my emotional roller coaster lately, but i was really intimidated and scared by the attacks i've been facing.

thank you brothers and sisters.

love,
lav

( hard to articulate where i'm at. hard to know what to say... how much to say, etc. )

fighting hard. need to go on God's strength and not my own. need to focus less on myself, but a very personal attack by the enemy just happened as i was starting to get so much healing and progress in my walk. i will not give up.
i feel shame and guilt and am struggling to grow in my walk as i fight for my faith.

<3

i want to say a special thank you and blessing of protection for those that i reached out to yesterday. i realize i was frantic. i hope you can forgive me for my drive to get help and protect myself. i pray the blood of Jesus on this post and on any recent interaction i have had pleading for help from some of the people i asked it of.

i don't like to make a scene. please forgive me.

GOD bless your every step, and let Him work in your mothers life from today,Amen

Dear God I pray that you cover Lav and her mother with the precious blood of your son Jesus.

Protect them and help them receive the help they need. Draw them closer to you God.
Thank you for their lives and, Jesus, please let your peace that passes all understanding fill Lav's heart and that of her mother.


In your name I pray Jesus. Amen.

Good sister Lav! There comes a time dear sister in all of our walks,when we just can't anymore! We have done everything we know how to keep our peace,as so many are looking to take our peace! Just look at yourself as a Mary and not a Martha sis.( luke 10:38-42)

Mary was seated at Jesus listening to his Words( The Word!!) Our own words we finally learn do not have the effect,that words spoken by our Jesus does! I had to learn this the hard way myself sis! And the reason we cannot rest,is because we are looking to our own words to find this rest.

Rather then in what Jesus said!( 2 cor 1:3-7) as just one example! You see sis as hard as this may be to you,as it was for me,Jesus wants you to depend upon him for everything,and in every way!! Abraham learned this when he thought the Lord needed some help and he produced an Ishmael,God waited for 13 years after this to once again speak to Abraham.( gen 16:1-16) ( Gen 17:1-10 etc..) Gen 21!!

And God produced an Isaac!! Our endurance dear sister in waiting,is not hardship but rather hope! For those who will wait upon our lord WILL renew there strength, not might renew it!( Isaiah 40:28-31!!) There comes a time in our walk sis that God will actually hid himself from us,oh he is always there!! But he hides( Isaiah 45:15) to see if you know your own heart.(2 chron 32:31) which says "God left him alone only to test him that he might know all that was in his heart!"

You are finding out what lessons, as I did need attention in your life sis. And when you direct your attention in the Word to these issues,through Jesus words,and by his everlasting love, you will have your peace! For today dear sister Jesus and his love have come upon you,in his own words!!( Isaiah 41:9-13) Let Jesus give you birth to an Isaac in your life sis.My prayers are of course for you, and with you in this time of need,but in time of need we find out something,we find out who we truly go to in that time of need,for whoever that is, that is who we worship!

Take comfort sis, and always, always have continued hope in believing!!! ( rom 15:13!!!) For in the hope we have through our Jesus, we now have something to give another!! Praise the Lord!!! amen!

it was a good experience. thanks for everyone who prayed and commented God bless. really appreciate it.

just resting now...

feeling peace.