Cynthia, you can't lose your salvation. The only way for that would be either God went back on His word, which He NEVER does, or something would have to wash Jesus' blood away, and NOTHING can do that. It's not possible, once you accept Christ, it's eternal. Either you're saved or not, once saved you can't lose it I'm telling you, the Bible says so which is God's word. God's word speaks only truth, once that blood is applied and your name is written in the book of life, it's there for eternity. I'll pray for you though, you've just kind of gotten away from God some, we all do that in life. He can and will draw you back to Him. God bless you.
~Sue