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Ive been having turmoil in my family and my bestfriend and idk it ****ing feels like its to much ive been having suicidal thoughts and have been drinking and smoking and can't stop ****ing cussing idk im just I honeslty dont know I can't stop crying and I feel worse when I have suicidal thoughts cuz people have conquered worse and I'm feeling like a ***** for not being able to handle my situation which in turn makes me feel worse i dont ****ing know I really ****ing hate everything right now and in just so full of hate all I wanna do is yell and tell people off! Idk in just ****ing lost in everything right now!