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A quick testimony to where I'm at right now. I am sure that writing this is more for my own benefit than anyone else but that's okay.
I've always known God and that He existed. He has been my companion, confidant and Savior. Being brought up catholic, I questioned things early on and explored different religions always hoping to find the right one. I wanted a church that felt like home and yet strictly bible based. I felt I didn't fit in anywhere. Eventually, the term "double minded" was thrown my way.
I hated it but after a while I began to accept it. The way I lived my life slowly changed. The last "big" mistake I made was asking (via much prayer) for something that held many red flags. I might as well pretended God said okay go ahead and have things my way because I chose to do as I wished without God's blessing. He remained with me, it was I who had left Him. Things quickly took a turn for the worse. One day recently I said out loud, "If I've ever doubted the existence of God, it is now."
Having said it out loud scared the bejeebies out of me and suddenly the fight was on. I HAD to find God again. That was last month.
Right now I feel as though I'm in some kind of boot camp for God. I'm in rehab. I'm excited and grateful full of praise for Him. I've learned that my own sinful ways threw a wrench in nearly everything. I also understand that being "double minded" is not a curse, it a choice.
I have a long, long way to go but I am so ready for this journey and forever grateful our God is a God of mercy and grace.
I'd really love to write more, I have sooooo much more to say but I'm going to be late for work if I don't hurry. lol
Thx all, it is truly good to be here.
I've always known God and that He existed. He has been my companion, confidant and Savior. Being brought up catholic, I questioned things early on and explored different religions always hoping to find the right one. I wanted a church that felt like home and yet strictly bible based. I felt I didn't fit in anywhere. Eventually, the term "double minded" was thrown my way.
I hated it but after a while I began to accept it. The way I lived my life slowly changed. The last "big" mistake I made was asking (via much prayer) for something that held many red flags. I might as well pretended God said okay go ahead and have things my way because I chose to do as I wished without God's blessing. He remained with me, it was I who had left Him. Things quickly took a turn for the worse. One day recently I said out loud, "If I've ever doubted the existence of God, it is now."
Having said it out loud scared the bejeebies out of me and suddenly the fight was on. I HAD to find God again. That was last month.
Right now I feel as though I'm in some kind of boot camp for God. I'm in rehab. I'm excited and grateful full of praise for Him. I've learned that my own sinful ways threw a wrench in nearly everything. I also understand that being "double minded" is not a curse, it a choice.
I have a long, long way to go but I am so ready for this journey and forever grateful our God is a God of mercy and grace.
I'd really love to write more, I have sooooo much more to say but I'm going to be late for work if I don't hurry. lol
Thx all, it is truly good to be here.