Hi all,
I may call myself a Christian, but if I were to be brutally honest, I have not been a very good Christian - or person, for that matter.
I struggle with pride, with jealousy, with lust, with anxiety, with low self-esteem, with forgiving myself for my sins, with holding myself accountable for my own actions, with stubbornness, with anger, with being hard on myself...the list goes on. All of this indicates that I have difficulties loving myself. And all of this is why I continue to need Jesus.
When I began to give my life to Christ ( I say that, because giving my life to Christ for me has been something that I have needed to do on a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute basis), I initially (naively) thought that my life would get easier. That, of course, did not happen. What did happen was that I became aware of how much I needed Jesus.
If God can love me, He can love anyone. And His love is where it all begins. Where it all began. Where love began.
Note that I didn't do anything here to deserve God's love. I didn't earn God's love. I earned God's wrath. We all did - but it was his Son's sacrificial love that showed us a way. The only way. And His love for me - in spite of everything I have done, am doing, and will continue to do - astounds me.
I just hope that I can be more like Him, and less like me. I know I often fail at that. And you know what? That's OK. Because there was only one man who could be without failure, without flaw, without sin. A perfect human life. That's who our faith is in. Let's all try to be more aware of that, and continue to live for Him, and Him alone -even knowing that we will fail.
Thank you.
I may call myself a Christian, but if I were to be brutally honest, I have not been a very good Christian - or person, for that matter.
I struggle with pride, with jealousy, with lust, with anxiety, with low self-esteem, with forgiving myself for my sins, with holding myself accountable for my own actions, with stubbornness, with anger, with being hard on myself...the list goes on. All of this indicates that I have difficulties loving myself. And all of this is why I continue to need Jesus.
When I began to give my life to Christ ( I say that, because giving my life to Christ for me has been something that I have needed to do on a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute basis), I initially (naively) thought that my life would get easier. That, of course, did not happen. What did happen was that I became aware of how much I needed Jesus.
If God can love me, He can love anyone. And His love is where it all begins. Where it all began. Where love began.
Note that I didn't do anything here to deserve God's love. I didn't earn God's love. I earned God's wrath. We all did - but it was his Son's sacrificial love that showed us a way. The only way. And His love for me - in spite of everything I have done, am doing, and will continue to do - astounds me.
I just hope that I can be more like Him, and less like me. I know I often fail at that. And you know what? That's OK. Because there was only one man who could be without failure, without flaw, without sin. A perfect human life. That's who our faith is in. Let's all try to be more aware of that, and continue to live for Him, and Him alone -even knowing that we will fail.
Thank you.