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2 main reasons I'm shy is the Lust and my horrible voice.
Lust
I didn't learn about these verses til it was too late, I read really fast so I never really took anything in as I should've in my teen years, I usually forget stuff when I need the knowledge and remember when I no longer needed so I just always preferred to discard knowledge whether it be Gods or the Worlds, "if i'm gonna forget it, then why bother?"
Romans
[SUP]6 [/SUP]For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
[SUP]7 [/SUP]Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
maybe there's a reason Samson's story is my fav in the Bible, or maybe not.
but anyway I struggle with lust since the 4th Grade, I couldn't even look at teachers or the other girls, after I moved from my home state sometime after graduating I struggled with being uncomfortable, so I turned to it completely every single night, hopefully I will recover completely, but maybe not, I'm a dude after all and the only to completely forget is to get Married, and I've never talked to really any woman ever other than family members, so more than likely will never happen unless she can understand me.
lust makes you hate life, others and yourself, if I were you, try your hardest to stay away from lust.
virtual reality
also trying to recover from virtual reality and this at the same time is hard, what ever you do, don't play video games like I did, if you're reading this, consuming yourself with others imaginations can really mess you up, thankfully the Lord kinda made them completely boring to me. I think movies can do the same thing but gaming is what destroyed me.
Anger
something I couldn't handle, especially being in public with the Lust, I thought it was best just to put chains on myself to keep everyone safe. but I wasn't doing myself any good, chain your Anger up with God's knowledge.
eating too mcuh
I wouldn't really gain weight, but I couldn't lose it either, you really can get full on God's word....... I went 7 years of school without eating school lunches, the best part was I stopped getting sick. plus I always thank God for what I ate.
dwelling on the past
I was doing this in high school, wasn't ready to give up my childhood, God gave me one of the best childhoods, and that wasn't something I wanted to let go, you also hoard when you dwell on the past, I didn't hoard too much, just my collection of stuff, stuff that aren't really jewels at all. I kinda realized it years ago but was too slothful to get rid of anything
selfishness
don't really care to talk about but it's over i hope, I was the middle child so......
pride (17)
lets just say don't lift 300 lbs without a spotter b/c when your arms all of a sudden fall asleep..... they awoke before something bad happened, happened 2x, I gave up lifting after this. besides GOD will give you strength when you need it not when you want it.
************ To be continued ************
I hope to return, maybe, I might forget to. lol
Slothfulness
this will be the hardest thing for me, I still have my physique I had when I turned 13, which is weird. but since I didn't care to make friends I gave up exercising after weightlifting. running was never for me.
doubtful mind
could be b/c I don't talk to no one
............for anything else I forgot
I really hope I can use this strength to knock down my wall of shame
Lust
I didn't learn about these verses til it was too late, I read really fast so I never really took anything in as I should've in my teen years, I usually forget stuff when I need the knowledge and remember when I no longer needed so I just always preferred to discard knowledge whether it be Gods or the Worlds, "if i'm gonna forget it, then why bother?"
Romans
[SUP]6 [/SUP]For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
[SUP]7 [/SUP]Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
maybe there's a reason Samson's story is my fav in the Bible, or maybe not.
but anyway I struggle with lust since the 4th Grade, I couldn't even look at teachers or the other girls, after I moved from my home state sometime after graduating I struggled with being uncomfortable, so I turned to it completely every single night, hopefully I will recover completely, but maybe not, I'm a dude after all and the only to completely forget is to get Married, and I've never talked to really any woman ever other than family members, so more than likely will never happen unless she can understand me.
lust makes you hate life, others and yourself, if I were you, try your hardest to stay away from lust.
virtual reality
also trying to recover from virtual reality and this at the same time is hard, what ever you do, don't play video games like I did, if you're reading this, consuming yourself with others imaginations can really mess you up, thankfully the Lord kinda made them completely boring to me. I think movies can do the same thing but gaming is what destroyed me.
Anger
something I couldn't handle, especially being in public with the Lust, I thought it was best just to put chains on myself to keep everyone safe. but I wasn't doing myself any good, chain your Anger up with God's knowledge.
eating too mcuh
I wouldn't really gain weight, but I couldn't lose it either, you really can get full on God's word....... I went 7 years of school without eating school lunches, the best part was I stopped getting sick. plus I always thank God for what I ate.
dwelling on the past
I was doing this in high school, wasn't ready to give up my childhood, God gave me one of the best childhoods, and that wasn't something I wanted to let go, you also hoard when you dwell on the past, I didn't hoard too much, just my collection of stuff, stuff that aren't really jewels at all. I kinda realized it years ago but was too slothful to get rid of anything
selfishness
don't really care to talk about but it's over i hope, I was the middle child so......
pride (17)
lets just say don't lift 300 lbs without a spotter b/c when your arms all of a sudden fall asleep..... they awoke before something bad happened, happened 2x, I gave up lifting after this. besides GOD will give you strength when you need it not when you want it.
************ To be continued ************
I hope to return, maybe, I might forget to. lol
Slothfulness
this will be the hardest thing for me, I still have my physique I had when I turned 13, which is weird. but since I didn't care to make friends I gave up exercising after weightlifting. running was never for me.
doubtful mind
could be b/c I don't talk to no one
............for anything else I forgot
I really hope I can use this strength to knock down my wall of shame