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At the beginning of december 1999 :
I woke up and I wasn't doing good for a few years. I wasn't suicidal and I told God I cannot imagine myself alive in one month because my inner sufference was at the top. One month later my conciousness went out in space and I was one with everything and I could feel the presence of God over my head in the sky. At that time it was only the cousciousness of my head that had spead out. In that moment I was seeing all the galaxies in the sky with my eyes. My taugth stream was empty and I was in the presence of calm, love. I could see planetes over my head and I had access of all knowledge. When I look at someone I would know everything about the personne and what I would say made a difference and was appropriate. I was connected to the present moment. It was beautifull and magic. Everything in all my perception was align with the experience. My hand and head change form they where less material and more like with the substence of a dream but I was definitely not dreaming. When I look at a seeling, the seeling would disapear and I would see thrue it. After a while of this my heart started opening and it feelt that I would disintegrate in the cosmos. I block the process and that nigth was the most sufferente moment of my life has I reintegrated my suffuring budy. I wish I would entered the kingdum of God like a child but I didn't. A month later, all my inner stress came out and I was like electrocuted by it and my hearth open at 100%. It was extraordinary, the love arround me spead into the people arround me that where receiving it. It was beautifull. That nigth the connection was broken and I went back in my regular life. At that time I was a computer engineer and I became a massotherapist and then I became a primary school educator. I don't remember how I use to be. I really seek to become the best that I can and I feel very small and I contribute kids the best that I can. Overall my life is a million time better. I am really sad that so many children suffers in the world. I know that God his and my fate is small has I discourage myself sometime and that I loose confidence. I am a small Christian that prays very rarely. I feel who am I to pray. This site is contributing me has I am going thrue a difficult time. I guess I find it sad that I have done so little with what I received. I didn't integrated the sacrifice of Jesus in my heart. I didn't use all that I am to make a difference in the world. I am ordinary personne that witness something extraordinary and I don't know if it make a difference for others to know. But This is what appened has I can remember it.
I woke up and I wasn't doing good for a few years. I wasn't suicidal and I told God I cannot imagine myself alive in one month because my inner sufference was at the top. One month later my conciousness went out in space and I was one with everything and I could feel the presence of God over my head in the sky. At that time it was only the cousciousness of my head that had spead out. In that moment I was seeing all the galaxies in the sky with my eyes. My taugth stream was empty and I was in the presence of calm, love. I could see planetes over my head and I had access of all knowledge. When I look at someone I would know everything about the personne and what I would say made a difference and was appropriate. I was connected to the present moment. It was beautifull and magic. Everything in all my perception was align with the experience. My hand and head change form they where less material and more like with the substence of a dream but I was definitely not dreaming. When I look at a seeling, the seeling would disapear and I would see thrue it. After a while of this my heart started opening and it feelt that I would disintegrate in the cosmos. I block the process and that nigth was the most sufferente moment of my life has I reintegrated my suffuring budy. I wish I would entered the kingdum of God like a child but I didn't. A month later, all my inner stress came out and I was like electrocuted by it and my hearth open at 100%. It was extraordinary, the love arround me spead into the people arround me that where receiving it. It was beautifull. That nigth the connection was broken and I went back in my regular life. At that time I was a computer engineer and I became a massotherapist and then I became a primary school educator. I don't remember how I use to be. I really seek to become the best that I can and I feel very small and I contribute kids the best that I can. Overall my life is a million time better. I am really sad that so many children suffers in the world. I know that God his and my fate is small has I discourage myself sometime and that I loose confidence. I am a small Christian that prays very rarely. I feel who am I to pray. This site is contributing me has I am going thrue a difficult time. I guess I find it sad that I have done so little with what I received. I didn't integrated the sacrifice of Jesus in my heart. I didn't use all that I am to make a difference in the world. I am ordinary personne that witness something extraordinary and I don't know if it make a difference for others to know. But This is what appened has I can remember it.