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Thought I would come forward and tell everyone my testimony as many have asked for it. I guess it all started when I was younger, my mother met my farther and thought he was a nice man until they had one and he became very abusive and started beating myself up and throwing me into a dark room and locked me inside while he then beat my mother. We were trapped with him and couldn't find a way out as when my mother was going out she had to leave me behind. Then it came to a point in which he decided he was going to kill us both so he sat us down inside a circle he made out of salt and said if we moved outside the circle he would kill us both. Little did we know the neighbour had called the police so they came through the door and arrested him. We have been on the run ever since and only recently has he gone back into jail so we're no longer worried about it.
I then got older and went to primary school (pre-school). I was one of the popular kids and found myself left out a lot. I began to get bullied and this continued throughout my life into secondary. Once I finished school I decided to join the military as infantry. The reason for this was because I didn't enjoy school so didn't get very good grades therefore joined the military and thought my mother would be proud of me, she was. Just as I finished my training I decided that the military wasn't right for me.
I began to notice certain things and felt like the military was a bad place and weren't for good. They told me that for every 1 Taliban that was killed 10 more were made and this got me thinking. The 10 Taliban that are being made because one was killed are his friends and family seeking revenge therefore they're not bad people. We would all do the same for our loved ones. During my training I had my first fight and we began to have fights in the bathrooms to prove ourselves. This released the animal within me and I turned out to be a lot better at fighting than I ever thought becoming one of the toughest members in the platoon I was respected and taken under the popular guys wing, this was the first time I felt apart of something
I then realised that fighting was bringing out the worst in me, for the most little things I would just start a fight and that was my new way of handling things. Once I left I was a very confused, depressed and angry young man. I'm currently 19 and left last year when I was 18. Since I have left It's been hard for me fitting into the civilian world once again. I got so used to how the army guys were with each other and find myself under the "Socially awkward" sector of people. I still don't have any friends in college and find myself lingering around most times doing nothing with myself during breaks.
Then my mother began to look into the bible. At first I was like whatever because I was in the fighting, getting drunk, doing drugs and having sex stage and couldn't care about anything or anyone else. As she began to explain the bible to me a few days later I became obsessed with researching about it and found myself wondering more and more. I started reading the bible, watching videos with my mother and loads more. I decided to become a Christian and since my whole life has began to change. I was confused, depressed and angry at everyone all the time but now I actually feel better, much better. I spend time with my mother, brother and sister a lot more, we go out and spend time with each other but before hand we never spoke at all. I'm now able to control my anger by asking myself "what would Jesus think if I let anger get the better of me?". Just recently some guy in my college did something that really annoyed me to the point that I want to hit him and instead I got up walked away and around 30 minutes later when I had calmed down I approached him, asked what his problem was and we spoke and sorted it like men, then shook hands and went out separate ways.
In overall I had a very bad life of abuse and we suffered from domestic violence, I got bullied all my life, was very depressed, confused and angry all the time and much more but becoming Christian and hearing the word of the lord has changed me for the better. I'm so grateful for what the lord has done for me and my family. I look back on the past and take them as lessons, they have strengthened myself and my mother and we no longer dwell on the past, instead we look forward for tomorrow and live everyday as it comes in the word of the lord.
God bless you all, Amen!
I then got older and went to primary school (pre-school). I was one of the popular kids and found myself left out a lot. I began to get bullied and this continued throughout my life into secondary. Once I finished school I decided to join the military as infantry. The reason for this was because I didn't enjoy school so didn't get very good grades therefore joined the military and thought my mother would be proud of me, she was. Just as I finished my training I decided that the military wasn't right for me.
I began to notice certain things and felt like the military was a bad place and weren't for good. They told me that for every 1 Taliban that was killed 10 more were made and this got me thinking. The 10 Taliban that are being made because one was killed are his friends and family seeking revenge therefore they're not bad people. We would all do the same for our loved ones. During my training I had my first fight and we began to have fights in the bathrooms to prove ourselves. This released the animal within me and I turned out to be a lot better at fighting than I ever thought becoming one of the toughest members in the platoon I was respected and taken under the popular guys wing, this was the first time I felt apart of something
I then realised that fighting was bringing out the worst in me, for the most little things I would just start a fight and that was my new way of handling things. Once I left I was a very confused, depressed and angry young man. I'm currently 19 and left last year when I was 18. Since I have left It's been hard for me fitting into the civilian world once again. I got so used to how the army guys were with each other and find myself under the "Socially awkward" sector of people. I still don't have any friends in college and find myself lingering around most times doing nothing with myself during breaks.
Then my mother began to look into the bible. At first I was like whatever because I was in the fighting, getting drunk, doing drugs and having sex stage and couldn't care about anything or anyone else. As she began to explain the bible to me a few days later I became obsessed with researching about it and found myself wondering more and more. I started reading the bible, watching videos with my mother and loads more. I decided to become a Christian and since my whole life has began to change. I was confused, depressed and angry at everyone all the time but now I actually feel better, much better. I spend time with my mother, brother and sister a lot more, we go out and spend time with each other but before hand we never spoke at all. I'm now able to control my anger by asking myself "what would Jesus think if I let anger get the better of me?". Just recently some guy in my college did something that really annoyed me to the point that I want to hit him and instead I got up walked away and around 30 minutes later when I had calmed down I approached him, asked what his problem was and we spoke and sorted it like men, then shook hands and went out separate ways.
In overall I had a very bad life of abuse and we suffered from domestic violence, I got bullied all my life, was very depressed, confused and angry all the time and much more but becoming Christian and hearing the word of the lord has changed me for the better. I'm so grateful for what the lord has done for me and my family. I look back on the past and take them as lessons, they have strengthened myself and my mother and we no longer dwell on the past, instead we look forward for tomorrow and live everyday as it comes in the word of the lord.
God bless you all, Amen!
