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I have recently been talking to a very lovely person who had been through this, and I can see that seeing she is not the only one that has gone through this trial has brought a certain amount of comfort to her heart.
I am hoping this testimony of my story with this brings that comfort to more.
From very early on I was "introduced" to inappropriate behavior towards me.
My step brother would always ask me to have sex with him and would often grab my arm and try to force me.
He tried to come into the restroom with me multiple times, and when I was doing dishes he always came up and put his arms around my waist and would get a little too close.
I was to sacred to tell my parents in fear that he would just do worse so I kept silent.
He gave my phone number to many of his friends when he got into middle school and had then send me inappropriate pictures. I went to the police who told me to be more careful, and took my phone for information.
On 6/07/14 a man from church pulled me aside and told me to come with him. He took my phone, grabbed my shoulders and pushed me on the ground. He then sat on my legs and held my arms to the ground.
It just went from there.
After he gave me my phone and told me that if I told anyone it would just be a lot worse next time.
He drove me back to church and I walked home.
For months I would not step foot in that church again. I couldn't go into a bathroom without having awful anxiety and feeling incredibly nauseous and lightheaded.
I kept quiet for months until I decided to return to my "home church" where I felt safe instead of that other church.
After the service I went to the pastor and explained what happened. He told me that he needed to report it to higher authorities and my parents.
I accepted that because by then I knew he would have to.
When I met with the Police they, at least to me, acted like I chose what happened. They asked me what I learned from this.
I was not notified of whether the law caught up with the man or not, but all I know is that things like this aren't easy to go through. And those who have gone through it;
YOU ARE NOT ALONE God sees your pain. He will help get you through this. Let go and rest in His arms. He gives us the strength to keep going.
God bless you all
-Natania
I have recently been talking to a very lovely person who had been through this, and I can see that seeing she is not the only one that has gone through this trial has brought a certain amount of comfort to her heart.
I am hoping this testimony of my story with this brings that comfort to more.
From very early on I was "introduced" to inappropriate behavior towards me.
My step brother would always ask me to have sex with him and would often grab my arm and try to force me.
He tried to come into the restroom with me multiple times, and when I was doing dishes he always came up and put his arms around my waist and would get a little too close.
I was to sacred to tell my parents in fear that he would just do worse so I kept silent.
He gave my phone number to many of his friends when he got into middle school and had then send me inappropriate pictures. I went to the police who told me to be more careful, and took my phone for information.
On 6/07/14 a man from church pulled me aside and told me to come with him. He took my phone, grabbed my shoulders and pushed me on the ground. He then sat on my legs and held my arms to the ground.
It just went from there.
After he gave me my phone and told me that if I told anyone it would just be a lot worse next time.
He drove me back to church and I walked home.
For months I would not step foot in that church again. I couldn't go into a bathroom without having awful anxiety and feeling incredibly nauseous and lightheaded.
I kept quiet for months until I decided to return to my "home church" where I felt safe instead of that other church.
After the service I went to the pastor and explained what happened. He told me that he needed to report it to higher authorities and my parents.
I accepted that because by then I knew he would have to.
When I met with the Police they, at least to me, acted like I chose what happened. They asked me what I learned from this.
I was not notified of whether the law caught up with the man or not, but all I know is that things like this aren't easy to go through. And those who have gone through it;
YOU ARE NOT ALONE God sees your pain. He will help get you through this. Let go and rest in His arms. He gives us the strength to keep going.
God bless you all
-Natania
