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My name is Zaw Lin. I am 13 years old and I am from Myanmar but I live in Singapore. My childhood years were a mix of both good and bad. Sometimes I am well-behaved, sometimes I am a bad boy. When I was 11 years old. My classmates started to bully me. In Buddhism, there is this thing called "Karma". It goes like this: if you do good, good things will happen. If you do bad, bad things will happen to you. I believed that the things happen because I caused a lot of trouble back then. So I decided to repent and start being faithful. I was also interested in conspiracy theories and the Illuminati, which brings me to hear about Jesus and Christianity. I believed in both Buddhism and Jesus. One day, on Vesak Day, or the Buddha's birthday, after I went to the monastery, I was in my home, and I watched a video about a Buddhist monk from Myanmar who died and went to hell and saw Buddha there. It (sort of) changed my life, my perspective, and my beliefs. I realized that Jesus was the only way, so I started to pray and believe, but I was also backsliding and sinning willfully. Two years later, I realized that the video I watched turned out to be fake! It turned out to be a hoax! So I started to question myself. How could God use something like hoax or a lie, to bring me to Christ? I was becoming anxious and stressed out. Did I come to convert falsely? Am I a false convert? Right now, I'm becoming a bit skeptical about my testimony. Please help me! I'm starting to have doubts about my faith and belief and I'm being skeptical. Please help me!