I'm matt and this is my first post on this forum. I am catholic, however, I admit I don't go to mass as much as I should. I am looking to get some kind of feedback if possible. I has a very powerful dream last night that has me puzzled. A little background without going into a novel about myself. I don't get very good sleep, and I hardly dream, and I don't I get rem sleep, that I know of. Sometimes I wake up 2-5 times a night, but last night was very powerful, and very vivid from what I can recall. (It woke me up, but I didn't get up and write anything down)
It felt like an timeline of my life. I mean, that's really the best description I can give you. Like a blur I guess. It got to a point in my life in 2005 to my car accident that should've, and could've killed me. (Then I heard the voice,but I'll get to that later) I mean that in every sense. I would say thirty seconds or so before the accident happened, somethingor someone told me to put my seatbeat on and I didn't think twice. (I know I know. I was a stupid young kid, since that incident I've never done it again) once that picture of my accident finished, it's hard to explain, but a very loud, very bold voice told me there was a reason he showed me that, and that I need to do something before it's too late. Something along the lines of that.
I immediately woke up. I prayed for a few min but I fell back asleep. Why would God show me only up to that point in my life for? Since then I have to admit that accident took a toll on my life, and it hasn't been the same. I have preeminent injuries. Am I getting ready to die? I'm only 32. What does it mean? Is all this punishment for what I did before the accident? Nothing crazy, but stupid stuff. I understand the obvious, God wants me too repent and turn to him, but why am I shown that part off my life for? That was more then ten years ago.