i just want you all to know that i just want to say this all very humbly and praise God because he is so good to us...
when i was a little kid, things seemed great, i have two parents i love alot, they well....they dont know
God they believe in him one is catholic and one is jewish but they talk as the world talks and thinks as
the world thinks. When i was around 7 years old i remember clearly...my mom was on the phone with
sombody and that my dad had a suizure. as time progressed my dad got eplipsy, as a child i watched
my father convulse on the ground and make all kinds of wierd noises....
it frightened me alot, and over the course of time it cut me emotionally seeing my father who i loved so much....losing jobs because of his sickness....it only got worse. i will skip to when i was 13-14 years old
one night i went to sleep and a demon woke me up i dont remember what he was saying to me...but
did some bad things to me
after that expirence i couldnt sleep, i was full of fear, i thought i died. for over a year i had to deal with this exprience....afraid to death everynight being like a watchmen eyes open for it wouldnt let me sleep, and the evil presence was always there, so malovent and evil....just horrible.
so lets skip to being 15 years old....it was the beginning of highschool, such a grand and wonderful time to live right? NO ...not for edge.
before i continue i just wanted to say things will get better trust me!!!
so highschool....freshman year my best friend got a girl friend...loved her to death, i wasnt saved at this point....but he loved her so much, it seemed to me that he didnt care about me anymore...well
one thing lead to another...and what ended up happening was we became bitter towards one another but my friend, whom all my other friends knew, they decided to leave me and be friends with my friend....and the whole year i had no friends.
and remember i told you about my fathers eplipsy, at this point it was bad because financial situation was getting bad..and my parents were highly stressed about everything.
all of the suddent that year i had no friends, demons bothered my when night came and the financial suation got bad. All of this made my heart full of much pain...so much pain and i became depressed.
month after month went by of dealing with no friends, and demons having their fun and seeing my parents going nuts....and yes also my dad sometimes having episodes of eplipsy.
for a time my only means of communication with anybody....was on a irc chat, very old system.
one thing led to another there....and they found out about my story of being up late at night how i was terrified every night. - one night i had two dreams, they were from God...the one is more important...it was a prophetic dream
it was a dream where i was on that chatroom talking to one person in particular and it came true
one night i talked to one of the people - sombody who always gave me good advice when i was dealing with my problems day by day. she told me about ephesians 6- the armour of God...and i remembered the dream i had
it was being fulfilled before my very eyes, the night i became saved....the evil presence couldnt get to me anymore it was blocked by the Lord, for that first time i felt free, i felt joy and happiness and i felt protection.
I was reading a internet bible and i heard people praying and i heard angels, millions possibly saying "Praise the Lord!!!" indeed....Praise the Lord, after that awsome night God became my friend
i had 3 months left before summer came, where i could just sit down and read the bible.
during those 3 months, i cried and wept with the depression but God was always there by my side, protecting me from the demons, letting his love be known to me when my heart was full of pain and grief. He was my friend when i had no friends, he became my heavenly father and his son covered me with his blood and i had found grace mercy love forgiveness...and the spirit was inside of me.
Praise the LORD!!!! now i am growing in the Lord....and everyday to be closer and closer to him, and to follow the Lord....for i have given my heart to God, i have accepted his grace and mercy found in the lamb who covers me. and now i can be doing the will of God all so humbly and graciously, all glory belongs to God..
when i was a little kid, things seemed great, i have two parents i love alot, they well....they dont know
God they believe in him one is catholic and one is jewish but they talk as the world talks and thinks as
the world thinks. When i was around 7 years old i remember clearly...my mom was on the phone with
sombody and that my dad had a suizure. as time progressed my dad got eplipsy, as a child i watched
my father convulse on the ground and make all kinds of wierd noises....
it frightened me alot, and over the course of time it cut me emotionally seeing my father who i loved so much....losing jobs because of his sickness....it only got worse. i will skip to when i was 13-14 years old
one night i went to sleep and a demon woke me up i dont remember what he was saying to me...but
did some bad things to me
after that expirence i couldnt sleep, i was full of fear, i thought i died. for over a year i had to deal with this exprience....afraid to death everynight being like a watchmen eyes open for it wouldnt let me sleep, and the evil presence was always there, so malovent and evil....just horrible.
so lets skip to being 15 years old....it was the beginning of highschool, such a grand and wonderful time to live right? NO ...not for edge.
before i continue i just wanted to say things will get better trust me!!!
so highschool....freshman year my best friend got a girl friend...loved her to death, i wasnt saved at this point....but he loved her so much, it seemed to me that he didnt care about me anymore...well
one thing lead to another...and what ended up happening was we became bitter towards one another but my friend, whom all my other friends knew, they decided to leave me and be friends with my friend....and the whole year i had no friends.
and remember i told you about my fathers eplipsy, at this point it was bad because financial situation was getting bad..and my parents were highly stressed about everything.
all of the suddent that year i had no friends, demons bothered my when night came and the financial suation got bad. All of this made my heart full of much pain...so much pain and i became depressed.
month after month went by of dealing with no friends, and demons having their fun and seeing my parents going nuts....and yes also my dad sometimes having episodes of eplipsy.
for a time my only means of communication with anybody....was on a irc chat, very old system.
one thing led to another there....and they found out about my story of being up late at night how i was terrified every night. - one night i had two dreams, they were from God...the one is more important...it was a prophetic dream
it was a dream where i was on that chatroom talking to one person in particular and it came true
one night i talked to one of the people - sombody who always gave me good advice when i was dealing with my problems day by day. she told me about ephesians 6- the armour of God...and i remembered the dream i had
it was being fulfilled before my very eyes, the night i became saved....the evil presence couldnt get to me anymore it was blocked by the Lord, for that first time i felt free, i felt joy and happiness and i felt protection.
I was reading a internet bible and i heard people praying and i heard angels, millions possibly saying "Praise the Lord!!!" indeed....Praise the Lord, after that awsome night God became my friend
i had 3 months left before summer came, where i could just sit down and read the bible.
during those 3 months, i cried and wept with the depression but God was always there by my side, protecting me from the demons, letting his love be known to me when my heart was full of pain and grief. He was my friend when i had no friends, he became my heavenly father and his son covered me with his blood and i had found grace mercy love forgiveness...and the spirit was inside of me.
Praise the LORD!!!! now i am growing in the Lord....and everyday to be closer and closer to him, and to follow the Lord....for i have given my heart to God, i have accepted his grace and mercy found in the lamb who covers me. and now i can be doing the will of God all so humbly and graciously, all glory belongs to God..
