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Well, I wrote a much smaller version of this in another thread, but I figured that I should write out a fuller version of the story... it'll really show the foolishness of how I used to be (hooray for embaressment), but through the story of my foolishness, you can hear about the amazing work that God did in my life!
Alrighty, I became a Christian at a really young age... I knew since I was young that homosexuality was an abomination unto the Lord, and I found it utterly disgusting. But as I entered my teens I began to struggle with an attraction to other men. (quick interjection: it's sad to know that I had I not been so scared to tell some friends or leaders in my church, I could've been freed much sooner... ah well. 'Tis done.) Because I was too scared to tell anyone, I lived for years struggling with this feeling... I kept saying that I KNEW I wasn't born this way, but was having more and more trouble believing it. When my father passed away of a heart attack, I basically gave up trying to fight the temptation anymore (I think it was, unfortunately, because I was angry at God for the loss of my father...). I tried justifying my actions because I didn't choose to have that attraction. It's kinda sad how many false doctrines there are out there that condone homosexuality, and help those who struggle with it continue to believe the lies. After I'd made a complete mess of my life, I cried out to God and confessed that I'd been foolish. I begged him to forgive me and to please show me how I could escape this wretched lifestyle. As soon as I had finished praying, I knew that I had to tell someone so they could pray with me (I wish I could remember the verse that talks about how we should confess our sins to one another to be healed... ah well. I should find that later). Anyway, with God's help, I overcame my fear of condemnation (and woah, can that fear be strong!) and I told one of my good friends at church... he prayed with me... and God healed me of my struggle! (haha, just thinkin' about it now, I feel like doin' a little happy dance). As I got into the word, He grew in me a natural attraction to women, and slowly revealed to me the multitude of individual lies I had believed which brought me to that struggle, and then he told me the truth behind each of those things I believed. Isn't He amazing!? Heh, I'm getting all pumped up writing about this again... Jesus can completely transform us. I'm so thankful for what Jesus has done in my life!! Hope this has encouraged some of you... Peace out!
Alrighty, I became a Christian at a really young age... I knew since I was young that homosexuality was an abomination unto the Lord, and I found it utterly disgusting. But as I entered my teens I began to struggle with an attraction to other men. (quick interjection: it's sad to know that I had I not been so scared to tell some friends or leaders in my church, I could've been freed much sooner... ah well. 'Tis done.) Because I was too scared to tell anyone, I lived for years struggling with this feeling... I kept saying that I KNEW I wasn't born this way, but was having more and more trouble believing it. When my father passed away of a heart attack, I basically gave up trying to fight the temptation anymore (I think it was, unfortunately, because I was angry at God for the loss of my father...). I tried justifying my actions because I didn't choose to have that attraction. It's kinda sad how many false doctrines there are out there that condone homosexuality, and help those who struggle with it continue to believe the lies. After I'd made a complete mess of my life, I cried out to God and confessed that I'd been foolish. I begged him to forgive me and to please show me how I could escape this wretched lifestyle. As soon as I had finished praying, I knew that I had to tell someone so they could pray with me (I wish I could remember the verse that talks about how we should confess our sins to one another to be healed... ah well. I should find that later). Anyway, with God's help, I overcame my fear of condemnation (and woah, can that fear be strong!) and I told one of my good friends at church... he prayed with me... and God healed me of my struggle! (haha, just thinkin' about it now, I feel like doin' a little happy dance). As I got into the word, He grew in me a natural attraction to women, and slowly revealed to me the multitude of individual lies I had believed which brought me to that struggle, and then he told me the truth behind each of those things I believed. Isn't He amazing!? Heh, I'm getting all pumped up writing about this again... Jesus can completely transform us. I'm so thankful for what Jesus has done in my life!! Hope this has encouraged some of you... Peace out!
