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Have you ever heard the expression " when you walk in my shoes then you can judge me ?" The problem with some people is they think they know you and start pointing fingers telling you need this or that , but the problem is they have never walked in YOUR shoes . Those who have listened to my testimony about how GOD has brought me from being in the dirt face down on the dirty nightclub floor in a bathroom with severe alcohol posioning and living in the Biggest Lie as a Exotic dancer in the Adult Sex Industry for 10 long years . I was running from the pain the hurt and even GOD , call me the modern Jonah wanting to go my own way , but GOD had another plan. My testimony is only for JESUS in the hopes that someone that is in those stilettos that is tired of the Dark Lies Satan has used to decieve and destroy many a young person (including men in this industry ) would know there is Light at the End of the Tunnel . I believe that GOD allows the ashes of your life for a reason , maybe to help those and understand those who are still dancing in the Dark the same shoes i danced in for 10 long years . Many people do not know the dark side to the dancers life , they just see the dancer the flesh rises up and they wear the blinders to what lies beneath this disgusting life style one that has taken many a soul and ruined family , home and life . From Drugs being sold and passed around to the girls , to the constant use of alcohol and the V.I.P rooms that seems also so harmless that in disguise area cover for prostitution and even abuse for Money . The problem with this life is many think they can just waltz in and make good money and not be effected by the other things but this is the magic trick of Satan to introduce the Drugs and Sex as a way to make more money ! It may look all innocent but this is how the angel of light (works to deceive and destroy using more than just the dance.
This was my life this was the deception i lived in the longer i stayed the worse it got untill i became addicted to drugs and alcohol . As i ran from GOD the worse it got untill i found myself after consuming 15 shots of whisky at once running to the bathroom . I found myself hugging this porcelain god ( the toilet ) and passed out only to wake up 2 days later !
A knock came at the door "maintaince" he bangged on the door " is anyone in here "
i yelled " yes im here what time is it " he answered " its 6 am child and Sunday "
my mouth opened i was in this filthy bathroom 2 days hugging a germ infested toilet in the nightclub where i worked .
I opened the door there was a African American Gentleman standing in front of me and he smiled and say " child what are you doing on the floor ?" i told him i got sick from too much to drink and must have fell asleep " he took my hand and said " Child GOD did not create you to be face down on a dirty floor graveling for dollar bills , you are a CHILD of the KING and dont you forget that " i looked at him he was the cleanest maintenance man i ever seen , he walked me to a cab and i went home fell asleep for 3 more days i was so sick it must have been alcohol poisoning i woke up on a Friday and i just felt led to go back to the nightclub to say thank you to the nice man . As i entered the club i seen the owner smiling at me " Tawny " you was a wreck last week what happened to you ?" i told him what happened and asked about the maintenance man and he Laughed and said " you must be crazy we dont have a maintenance man here i do all the work . He grabbed the plunger from the toilet and ran out like he was god laughing at me . i ran out of that place feeling so humiliated , then i remembered what the maintenance man said ! and i stood in silience and wondered did GOD send a angel in that night club ???? i do believe HE did , i never seen the man again .. it was shortly after then i walked away from the dancing life , running back into the Fathers arms and HE alone as delivered me from the drug abuse the alcohol abuse i am free NOW i dance in HIS light ..
I am here beyond the ashes of my past to tell this testimony in hopes to help just one that is struggling to leave the Adult Sex Industry in Exotic dancing , This is the Beauty for my Ashes
and for those ladies /men to know YES i danced in your shoes and i do know where your have been
GOD bless you , remember you are beautiful inside ! not just the outside BUT the most beautiful part is the heart and Jesus can change the dance in the dark to a Dance in HIS light !
Amen
This was my life this was the deception i lived in the longer i stayed the worse it got untill i became addicted to drugs and alcohol . As i ran from GOD the worse it got untill i found myself after consuming 15 shots of whisky at once running to the bathroom . I found myself hugging this porcelain god ( the toilet ) and passed out only to wake up 2 days later !
A knock came at the door "maintaince" he bangged on the door " is anyone in here "
i yelled " yes im here what time is it " he answered " its 6 am child and Sunday "
my mouth opened i was in this filthy bathroom 2 days hugging a germ infested toilet in the nightclub where i worked .
I opened the door there was a African American Gentleman standing in front of me and he smiled and say " child what are you doing on the floor ?" i told him i got sick from too much to drink and must have fell asleep " he took my hand and said " Child GOD did not create you to be face down on a dirty floor graveling for dollar bills , you are a CHILD of the KING and dont you forget that " i looked at him he was the cleanest maintenance man i ever seen , he walked me to a cab and i went home fell asleep for 3 more days i was so sick it must have been alcohol poisoning i woke up on a Friday and i just felt led to go back to the nightclub to say thank you to the nice man . As i entered the club i seen the owner smiling at me " Tawny " you was a wreck last week what happened to you ?" i told him what happened and asked about the maintenance man and he Laughed and said " you must be crazy we dont have a maintenance man here i do all the work . He grabbed the plunger from the toilet and ran out like he was god laughing at me . i ran out of that place feeling so humiliated , then i remembered what the maintenance man said ! and i stood in silience and wondered did GOD send a angel in that night club ???? i do believe HE did , i never seen the man again .. it was shortly after then i walked away from the dancing life , running back into the Fathers arms and HE alone as delivered me from the drug abuse the alcohol abuse i am free NOW i dance in HIS light ..
I am here beyond the ashes of my past to tell this testimony in hopes to help just one that is struggling to leave the Adult Sex Industry in Exotic dancing , This is the Beauty for my Ashes
and for those ladies /men to know YES i danced in your shoes and i do know where your have been
GOD bless you , remember you are beautiful inside ! not just the outside BUT the most beautiful part is the heart and Jesus can change the dance in the dark to a Dance in HIS light !
Amen
