Hi... I had a very bad exsprince I believe I may have a gift of knowlege I am not sure, but I've always sense thing many time, but most of them is very detail, and alot of time I don't know what to do about it. lol
I was at a friend house I was praying my lord is my sheapard it my daily routeing I always pray those prayer before bedtime, and that night I had the most scariest exsprince I've probly ever exsprince.
When I reach in my lord is my sheapard all the way to... He prepare a table before me in the present of my enemy... I felt a gunshot blast on my face... from a Shot gun... I felt every single bb... that a shot gun have...
I remember it vividly.... it was like it was yesterday... I felt the first 3 bb... that hit the corner of my eye on the left side... it was like one, two, three then I felt more bb hitting my eye, then I felt more bb hitting on the outside of my eye it was like 8 more bb.. then I felt alot of debris, or gunpowder blast on the very outside of the eye...
Well in that house there was a shot gun... it was a 20 gage so I got scare very very scare.. lol..
I just pack my stuff... I told the owner of the gun.. I told him what I felt, and I told him becareful, and I need to go. I don't know what just happen, but whatever it was... Just make sure nobody get kill by that gun.. that what I told the owner lol..
Man.. I was terrifying... I was already in a process of having a custody battle, and I had a mother in law that was obsessive with my son, so I couldn't tell if the gunshot was for me, or was it for them.. because I already had an enemy of my own, and that day the dhr was suppose to come over there because I told the dhr that they was doing drugs, and neglecting my child so I wanted to stop there abuse, and get custody of my child.
Can you imaiging how scare you would be if you knew the dhr was going to see them that same day then feel that gunshot blast... lol....
So I seek God diligently, and I got a life insurance right after that it just to tell you how terrifying the exsprince it was... lol.... Anyway I am still scared... I'm to scare to see my mother in law, and my girlfriend that has my kid... Because my mother in law threat to put a bullet in my head... so I can't tell excacly what is going on, and what I should be doing about handling soembody that can be dangerous, and threating...
Anyway I call my friend a few days ago (the same place I had that shot gun exsprince)... I ask him how everything doing then he said he got one of his dog shot because one of the dog got run over... So I ask him... Where you shoot him at? He said his friend shot him... because I wanted to know where excacly he was shot at since I remember it vividly... so now I can't verified if the exsprince i had was about this dog.. or it ment something else... so he couldn't tell me where he was shot at... so now I'm stuck at a mystery, and still continue to be paranoid.. lol
I'm posting this here so I can get help... I know it come from gift of knowlege... because I've done alot of research... and it make alot of sense what it is... if anybody can help me understand how to make my gift of knowlege have more clarity, or how can I make it more specific like who's it gonna be so I won't be so terifying with my next exsprince lol
I'm amaze how a gift of God can scare the bezeez out of you. I've got an exsprince today it wasn't funny, but I rather keep it personal,but I'll tell you because this isn't my world and it belong to God. He says he see all good, and evil so I might as well just say it becuase you belong to God. I'm praying to God that it doesn't happen goodness lol.... It felt like I was gonna get rape... I mean seriosly I hope it doesn't happen I mean I'm straight... and I don't think I'll let any guy do me... I'm praying that it's a woman... and I am praying that I don't go to jail lol...
I live in a navy housing this place is dense everybody live next to each other so close. maby when I was praying I felt somebody next door that like anal sex or something, but I hope it was just a gift of discernment, instead of knowlege saying somebody is sinning using anal sex... lol... I don't know I'm freaking out... this is a total freak lol..
When I felt that I was praying our father which art in heaven.. when I reach certian word when I got to... lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil.. When I reach to temptation that where I felt that sexual feeling... I can't imaiging me falling into temptation being gay since I'm a homophobia lol... since i'm a homophobia... now I'm fearing that I may get rape lol...
I wouldn't mind if it was a woman.. but is she gonna be wearing a dildo.. I mean wow.. what if I'm going to mastubate in the future... I don't know lol...
I mean is God.. this open, or is he like the truth... it pretty sad.. because the lord is suppose to be something exciting, and why am I getting something sad, and scary... it pretty petrified... lol...
I don't mean to be distrubbing... but to be honest I think... my life, and this exsprince is distrubbing enough... It's pretty fustrated world.. I just need to keep reminding myself that everything on this world belong to God... Even you.... So I guess... if God can see Good, and Evil.. Then why can't you see it.. Since you belong to God... So I need to ask God to give me the strenght... to love everybody as myself...
Oh well I'll try this chat, and see where it take me... maby it will get ban I don't know, but I do need help... I'm always asking my mom for spiritual guidance... She can't help me she isn't understanding enough... She says I'm crazy.. or mental.. lol... everybody says that so I don't know where else to go to lol..
I was at a friend house I was praying my lord is my sheapard it my daily routeing I always pray those prayer before bedtime, and that night I had the most scariest exsprince I've probly ever exsprince.
When I reach in my lord is my sheapard all the way to... He prepare a table before me in the present of my enemy... I felt a gunshot blast on my face... from a Shot gun... I felt every single bb... that a shot gun have...
I remember it vividly.... it was like it was yesterday... I felt the first 3 bb... that hit the corner of my eye on the left side... it was like one, two, three then I felt more bb hitting my eye, then I felt more bb hitting on the outside of my eye it was like 8 more bb.. then I felt alot of debris, or gunpowder blast on the very outside of the eye...
Well in that house there was a shot gun... it was a 20 gage so I got scare very very scare.. lol..
I just pack my stuff... I told the owner of the gun.. I told him what I felt, and I told him becareful, and I need to go. I don't know what just happen, but whatever it was... Just make sure nobody get kill by that gun.. that what I told the owner lol..
Man.. I was terrifying... I was already in a process of having a custody battle, and I had a mother in law that was obsessive with my son, so I couldn't tell if the gunshot was for me, or was it for them.. because I already had an enemy of my own, and that day the dhr was suppose to come over there because I told the dhr that they was doing drugs, and neglecting my child so I wanted to stop there abuse, and get custody of my child.
Can you imaiging how scare you would be if you knew the dhr was going to see them that same day then feel that gunshot blast... lol....
So I seek God diligently, and I got a life insurance right after that it just to tell you how terrifying the exsprince it was... lol.... Anyway I am still scared... I'm to scare to see my mother in law, and my girlfriend that has my kid... Because my mother in law threat to put a bullet in my head... so I can't tell excacly what is going on, and what I should be doing about handling soembody that can be dangerous, and threating...
Anyway I call my friend a few days ago (the same place I had that shot gun exsprince)... I ask him how everything doing then he said he got one of his dog shot because one of the dog got run over... So I ask him... Where you shoot him at? He said his friend shot him... because I wanted to know where excacly he was shot at since I remember it vividly... so now I can't verified if the exsprince i had was about this dog.. or it ment something else... so he couldn't tell me where he was shot at... so now I'm stuck at a mystery, and still continue to be paranoid.. lol
I'm posting this here so I can get help... I know it come from gift of knowlege... because I've done alot of research... and it make alot of sense what it is... if anybody can help me understand how to make my gift of knowlege have more clarity, or how can I make it more specific like who's it gonna be so I won't be so terifying with my next exsprince lol
I'm amaze how a gift of God can scare the bezeez out of you. I've got an exsprince today it wasn't funny, but I rather keep it personal,but I'll tell you because this isn't my world and it belong to God. He says he see all good, and evil so I might as well just say it becuase you belong to God. I'm praying to God that it doesn't happen goodness lol.... It felt like I was gonna get rape... I mean seriosly I hope it doesn't happen I mean I'm straight... and I don't think I'll let any guy do me... I'm praying that it's a woman... and I am praying that I don't go to jail lol...
I live in a navy housing this place is dense everybody live next to each other so close. maby when I was praying I felt somebody next door that like anal sex or something, but I hope it was just a gift of discernment, instead of knowlege saying somebody is sinning using anal sex... lol... I don't know I'm freaking out... this is a total freak lol..
When I felt that I was praying our father which art in heaven.. when I reach certian word when I got to... lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil.. When I reach to temptation that where I felt that sexual feeling... I can't imaiging me falling into temptation being gay since I'm a homophobia lol... since i'm a homophobia... now I'm fearing that I may get rape lol...
I wouldn't mind if it was a woman.. but is she gonna be wearing a dildo.. I mean wow.. what if I'm going to mastubate in the future... I don't know lol...
I mean is God.. this open, or is he like the truth... it pretty sad.. because the lord is suppose to be something exciting, and why am I getting something sad, and scary... it pretty petrified... lol...
I don't mean to be distrubbing... but to be honest I think... my life, and this exsprince is distrubbing enough... It's pretty fustrated world.. I just need to keep reminding myself that everything on this world belong to God... Even you.... So I guess... if God can see Good, and Evil.. Then why can't you see it.. Since you belong to God... So I need to ask God to give me the strenght... to love everybody as myself...
Oh well I'll try this chat, and see where it take me... maby it will get ban I don't know, but I do need help... I'm always asking my mom for spiritual guidance... She can't help me she isn't understanding enough... She says I'm crazy.. or mental.. lol... everybody says that so I don't know where else to go to lol..
