Hey guys, I am Jon, I used to be a really bad person and in fact I was the type of person everybody hated and that everybody did't want to be around, I had everything I Wanted, I had the girls and I had the things of this world but, I did't realize all of this until I lost everything and including some real close family members in 2005 to make me realize I needed to change. during high school I was the guy who would always bring the booze or beer or whatever you want to call it to the parties and to the football parties after the games were over during our home football games, I was the guy who treated girls really bad and I regret every decision now because God has made me a better person because of it but, here is the story from my perspective...
in 2005, I met a girl, she was everything to me, she was the girl I trusted more than anything, she was the pretty type and usually the pretty types are the types some people warn you of but, I did't listen to nobody, my family was attending church and I wasnt at the time but, I decided to go for a few services but, it did't do much for me because I was alone even though I was with this girl, my heart was burning for something more than just a relationship because the relationship I was in because it did't seem right to me after the first year because I did some things I am not proud of and still regret them decisions but, Im going to live with them from here on out and God is working them out as we speak but, later on in 2005... My best friend committed suicide, my great aunt died of cancer, my uncle died soon after that, my first cousin fell over dead, my mom got sick, very bad sick and I thought the whole world was caving in and most of the time I would leave home during the weekend's and get into my truck and get drunk and try to melt the pain away but, it did't help but, it only got worse...
My girlfriend left me for my best friend, she lied, made up some numerous lies on me and told stuff on my family and it really hurt me, I would sometimes I cry at night and usually feel alone during my life at this time, I had no friends to trust, I had nobody to talk or nobody to even talk to for that matter because I was bitter at my childhood and for letting people run over me and tell me stuff about my life and it just got to the point to where I wanted to die and never come back to earth because of what people had done to me or for that matter..what I did to them.
I cussed alot, I said things to my parents that were very wrong, my dad was a minister for crying out loud...A MINISTER!!! I was alll wrong, I was doing things out of the will of God, I would party, drink, do whatever it took to get back at my family and now I realize what kind of stupid mistake it truly was, I would do things out of the ordinary, I would usually skip dinner with the family, I would not go out with them on family trips, I would stay home and just cry over silly stuff, I mean yes? I could get any girl I wanted but, I wasnt happy, I wasnt satisfied, I wasnt whole or complete, so one sunday morning my mother asked me if I wanted to go to church at my uncle's church and this was in 2006 which my dad and mom was divorced then, so yes...I went to church, put some clothes on and made my way over to this big church my uncle pastors, it was a church of God which I did't really care what belief it was, I just wanted help and maybe for God to show up,.
that weekend God totally changed my entire life, my uncle preached on, change your life today and let God fix it, so before the altar call even happened, well..first they played a song called your love oh lord by third day..I ran to the altar I cried out to God and I wanted help and right there God changed my life, I cried in this guy's arms and which happens to be the youth pastor I'm serving under because I am a youth pastor now but, God is truly awesome and his love is truly amazing and if you let him work things out then you will be okay, trust me, If he can change a guy like me, I know he can change you. since then, I have been serving God with all of my heart, they're is times where I fall down and I get frustrated because I feel like God doesnt have the wife for me or the right job or this or that which I got a good job I just mean a opening where God can open another door but, I realized that God does it in his timing and his timing is perfect, I dont know if this touched somebody but, I know where I came from and I am thankful for God and his Love and his soverighty, his grace is sufficient and his love passes all understanding and Today I can stand and Say that God truly works and that God is real and God is waiting on you to serve him as well.
in christ,
Jon
in 2005, I met a girl, she was everything to me, she was the girl I trusted more than anything, she was the pretty type and usually the pretty types are the types some people warn you of but, I did't listen to nobody, my family was attending church and I wasnt at the time but, I decided to go for a few services but, it did't do much for me because I was alone even though I was with this girl, my heart was burning for something more than just a relationship because the relationship I was in because it did't seem right to me after the first year because I did some things I am not proud of and still regret them decisions but, Im going to live with them from here on out and God is working them out as we speak but, later on in 2005... My best friend committed suicide, my great aunt died of cancer, my uncle died soon after that, my first cousin fell over dead, my mom got sick, very bad sick and I thought the whole world was caving in and most of the time I would leave home during the weekend's and get into my truck and get drunk and try to melt the pain away but, it did't help but, it only got worse...
My girlfriend left me for my best friend, she lied, made up some numerous lies on me and told stuff on my family and it really hurt me, I would sometimes I cry at night and usually feel alone during my life at this time, I had no friends to trust, I had nobody to talk or nobody to even talk to for that matter because I was bitter at my childhood and for letting people run over me and tell me stuff about my life and it just got to the point to where I wanted to die and never come back to earth because of what people had done to me or for that matter..what I did to them.
I cussed alot, I said things to my parents that were very wrong, my dad was a minister for crying out loud...A MINISTER!!! I was alll wrong, I was doing things out of the will of God, I would party, drink, do whatever it took to get back at my family and now I realize what kind of stupid mistake it truly was, I would do things out of the ordinary, I would usually skip dinner with the family, I would not go out with them on family trips, I would stay home and just cry over silly stuff, I mean yes? I could get any girl I wanted but, I wasnt happy, I wasnt satisfied, I wasnt whole or complete, so one sunday morning my mother asked me if I wanted to go to church at my uncle's church and this was in 2006 which my dad and mom was divorced then, so yes...I went to church, put some clothes on and made my way over to this big church my uncle pastors, it was a church of God which I did't really care what belief it was, I just wanted help and maybe for God to show up,.
that weekend God totally changed my entire life, my uncle preached on, change your life today and let God fix it, so before the altar call even happened, well..first they played a song called your love oh lord by third day..I ran to the altar I cried out to God and I wanted help and right there God changed my life, I cried in this guy's arms and which happens to be the youth pastor I'm serving under because I am a youth pastor now but, God is truly awesome and his love is truly amazing and if you let him work things out then you will be okay, trust me, If he can change a guy like me, I know he can change you. since then, I have been serving God with all of my heart, they're is times where I fall down and I get frustrated because I feel like God doesnt have the wife for me or the right job or this or that which I got a good job I just mean a opening where God can open another door but, I realized that God does it in his timing and his timing is perfect, I dont know if this touched somebody but, I know where I came from and I am thankful for God and his Love and his soverighty, his grace is sufficient and his love passes all understanding and Today I can stand and Say that God truly works and that God is real and God is waiting on you to serve him as well.
in christ,
Jon