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Being told by doctors I would never function again in society due to my PCP induced manic episode that landed my in a mental health ward for 3 months along with taking countless prescriptions of anti psycotics like Thorazine, Depakote and Haldole, I was forced to give up my family, (of whom I thought where just actors pretending to be my family), and move in with my mom. My mom gave up her job and I filed for permanent disability since the suicidal and homicidal thoughts I was experiencing would never go away.
While I was in 2 Tower (mental health ward) i did some foolish things:
1. Made all other patient beds, thinking I was in the military training for a mission
2. Confronted my parents about them being military personnal pretending to be my mom and dad.
3. Hallucinated about an Imaginary chip I had in my head that allowed others to read my thoughts
4. Stripped down naked in the emergency room, because I heard a voice instruct me too in order to get ready for surgery.
5. I even hid medications under my tongue and refused to take them thinking I wa being poisoned or was going to be harmed.
6. Tried to change my Identity for others would not recognise me.
The list goes on and on.
I was given a Bible of all things by an unbelieving uncle since everyone thought there was just nothing they can due for me anymore to bring me out of this state that I was in.
As I thumbed through the Word at my moms house looking for secret messages hidden in it like in Mission Impossible with Tom Cruise. I came upon this scripture:
For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, that no flesh should glory in His presence.1 Cor 1:26-29
At that very moment every anti psycotic I was on wore off. My mom seen such a different look in my face she insisted that she take me to the hospital again or call the doctor. I rejected that idea and asked for my wife and 3 kids of whom I didn't ask for nor seen in 3 months. At that moment my mom knew something had happened and she allowed me a 26 year old man to call his wife for the first time in months.
I explained to my wife the experiance I just had, but did not expect her to beleive me. To make a long story short I convinced her to go to church with me that Sunday and we have been serving the Lord ever since.
Give God the glory, for the Bible does change lives through His Spirit. At that point and time of my life I beleive I was saved. I understood not only the weight of my sin, but how foolish I had been the past 26 years, even more so those last three months.
Through God and this noticable change in my life my sister, mom and aunt gave their lives to the Lord, of which where staunch catholics. My dad who was LDS even showed more interest in the God of the bible rather then the God of the book of Mormon.
Praise God that He does use the foolish things of this world. Willing or not.
While I was in 2 Tower (mental health ward) i did some foolish things:
1. Made all other patient beds, thinking I was in the military training for a mission
2. Confronted my parents about them being military personnal pretending to be my mom and dad.
3. Hallucinated about an Imaginary chip I had in my head that allowed others to read my thoughts
4. Stripped down naked in the emergency room, because I heard a voice instruct me too in order to get ready for surgery.
5. I even hid medications under my tongue and refused to take them thinking I wa being poisoned or was going to be harmed.
6. Tried to change my Identity for others would not recognise me.
The list goes on and on.
I was given a Bible of all things by an unbelieving uncle since everyone thought there was just nothing they can due for me anymore to bring me out of this state that I was in.
As I thumbed through the Word at my moms house looking for secret messages hidden in it like in Mission Impossible with Tom Cruise. I came upon this scripture:
For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, that no flesh should glory in His presence.1 Cor 1:26-29
At that very moment every anti psycotic I was on wore off. My mom seen such a different look in my face she insisted that she take me to the hospital again or call the doctor. I rejected that idea and asked for my wife and 3 kids of whom I didn't ask for nor seen in 3 months. At that moment my mom knew something had happened and she allowed me a 26 year old man to call his wife for the first time in months.
I explained to my wife the experiance I just had, but did not expect her to beleive me. To make a long story short I convinced her to go to church with me that Sunday and we have been serving the Lord ever since.
Give God the glory, for the Bible does change lives through His Spirit. At that point and time of my life I beleive I was saved. I understood not only the weight of my sin, but how foolish I had been the past 26 years, even more so those last three months.
Through God and this noticable change in my life my sister, mom and aunt gave their lives to the Lord, of which where staunch catholics. My dad who was LDS even showed more interest in the God of the bible rather then the God of the book of Mormon.
Praise God that He does use the foolish things of this world. Willing or not.