Mental ilness story

I thought Id like to write in on how I coped with mental illness WITHOUT DRUGS, I was a period of time after I entered my life in sinful acts which lead my heart to be broken and faith in ruins which serves myself right ,I suffered some life dangering thoughts after a series of bad events and was unstable for an amount of years, I’m a christian and have been for a long time and my knowledge of the word has helped me as certain scriptures have been tools for me ,. God has had to teach me step by step on how to COMBAT the mental illness, One thing that has been an inspiration to me as well it watching the movie (A beautiful mind) with actor Russell Crowe, first of all I have found that it is a spiritual warfare as well as a health condition (ie hearing voices, seeing black figures, things lighting up to show "the way" had to be combat through putting that scripture in a practical understanding use. this is how I did it (with Gods wisdom of course) I would hear disturbing voices and it was very unpleasant and sometimes scary, I could not and would not take pills for me to numb the voices down because I vouched never to take anything of mind tablets after seeing my mother live off pills and needles throughout her life, and because I was pregnant (for the next three years) through this, I had to learn these tactics, ok with the voices,,,, instead of freaking out or being scared of them I learnt to listen to what the voice is saying, then I would use what it said and turned it around to the opposite to what it is saying, using the information against itself , scripture basis , There are many scriptures that say that God is truth ie (John 1 :14) And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt amongst us, (and we beheld his Glory and glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth. (John 8:44e When he(the devil) speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar and the father of it. and I found that as I did this my heart and head were becoming alligned with each other, I believe as I was untwisting the voices to a truth God was putting the truth in my heart with his grace if I found no logical answer opposite to match. also with other things I had to search deeply step by step into my heart the sin and evil and wrong doing that was in my heart that was turning Gods shinning face or sense Gods smile against me as it was so dark so it seemed and he left it up to me but he lead me through the EVIL that I did, which contributed to a lot of the mind trips and voices torments and demonic buffeting, doing this seemed to lift off burdens that I carried and numerous guilts, but there was so much and I could take them step by step and one or few at a time, I wish to talk about the leading "lights" all this time ,I would use those lights to follow certain roads, I did some outrageous things by these lights lead what I do I would follow certain roads and even drive into peoples parking spaces people I didn’t know at their homes, whether the people were or weren’t home or follow streets which lead me to nowhere or in circles or where I shouldn’t be, and it was confusing for me and the voices didn’t help as I thought I was on a "God trip", Throughout the whole experience, I became extremely fearful with feelings of suicide, strong ones.I don’t know why I didn’t try to suicide even though the desire was strong, I was afraid to try,I believe that if I hadv’e let go God wouldv’e interviened instead I suicided emotionally feeling dead and lifeless on the inside because with this and couldn’t trust myself or anyone, eventually years down the track I rediscovered what I did emotionally whilst I was sitting outside at my outdoor setting and gave it to the Lord, with the lights I got sick of it thinking I was following God of heaven above I then "rebelled" and swallowed it and It was only until I did karaoke (Psalm 44:10 Be Still and know that I am God)being still at that moment ) a couple of years later When the "lights appeared to pick out what songs I would sing, alot of the time I barely knew the songs which woke me up to "the wrong way" and what I was following all this time, Satan had twisted Gods way of leading me, I think this is where that movie a beautiful mind helped me as well and I thank God for that.. Also after I learnt the ropes of marraige I came to realise after my husband is on my case about something that is a repetitive and unpleasant I had to find the calamity inside that I have with my relationship with God. Of my life and I found that God Makes no mistakes, I have discovered on my own without doctors or social workers, I have met many of christians in the mental wards being a patient myself a few years because they have been attacked by the devil big time from wrong turns away from God who need to face the sin from the past so God can wipe it clean from their slate and their conscience so God they can have renewed fellowship again back, I still battle bad feelings, Its only from my past, where God is working in my heart and setting me free Praise and Glory be to God

Wow, that's awesome, praise God for being so faithful. I did take meds for a little while, but sopped after a few years. It was kind of scary. all I had heard for years was take your meds, over and over again.

After my first year being on staff at the local Calvary Chapel, I started to hate the cloudy fuzzy feeling. It seemed my focus was distorted and I could not sense the Lords presence or even think clearly. I began to realize God was asking me to trust Him and let go of the meds. Through much prayer and getting counsel from my elders I decided to slowly wing myself off the meds. I decided to inform my wife I was off the meds months after I quit because I did not want to scare her. With acountability from the elders as well as close supervision and MUCH PRAYER, I have been off meds for 5 years.

For more info on my testimony use this link: http://christianchat.com/showthread.php?t=4504

I wish to elaburate because I dont think that I was clear in what I wanted to say, Basis truth.. God is true and the devil is a liar ok? When the devil speaks with these "schizophrenic"voices thats when you turn it to a truth by translating it to the opposite, also sometimes you may hear different voices in your head, to my experience when I heard the echoe of someones voice whom I knew in my head it showed me that I had him or her upon the throne on my heart where God should be, (the fear of man)

For me I've learned no matter what, I have to test every thought and feeling, against the truths of God's Word.

God is not the author of confusion 1Cor 14:33.

God created me with ALL the right faculties in order to Worship Him and Glorify Him:

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2Tim 1:7.

Even those believed to be well are instructed by the writer of Proverbs 3:5-6

awsome testimony and nice job at fighting you mental illness and spiritualy battle together.

also what worked was to try to steer away from self pity, it will only make you worse emotionally, self pity is sin, which goes with the mental illness partof the devils devouring,( be sober be vigilent for the devil as a roaring lion walketh about seeking whom he may devour)youll have to be strong with this

Amen that you rejected the drugs, pills & injections.
The black figures = the devil
Flashing lights = Devil
& the voices also the devil.

May God keep helping you & please go to church to be able to meet christians & have more people pray for you.
The not taking pills is good because you dint relly on science to deal with that.
I dont really think anyone is crazy people who dont believe in God call it crazy BUT in reality i feel/know that its evil sprits &/or the devil.
Only way to fight it is with God & only with God you can be rescued by it =)

Wow, are you aware that schizophrenia is a biological disorder. Your mother likely had it as well and self-medicated. That does not mean that you cannot be helped on meds. Let me assure you they would benefit you as a mother. the modern meds are also far less harsh than the old style meds. There mere fact that you are entering mental health care tell s me that you need to be medicated and are deceived into thinking that you do not.

It is very difficult and destructive for children to be afflicted with a mentally ill parent. It terrorizes them. I have seen it once too many times to feel good about reading your post. You need help. If you were a diabetic I would encourage you to be on insulin or use Chromium Picolinate if you wree a type 2 diabetic. Schizophrenia is a structural abnormality in your brain. It is not jsut about Satan. Yes, I beleive quite firmly that Satan and demonic possession can lead to mental illness.

But what you have is an illness that needs to be treated as an illness. Satan can use the genetic brain abnormalities you were born with to cause you to harm yourself and others.He can also use your desire to control not using pills and the fear he inflicted on you as a result of how your mother lived her life to convince you that you must handle this disorder without medical intervention.

I see in your post disordered thinking. I really encourage you to see medical intervention for schizophrenia. Not becaseu I do nto beleive God can help you. Rather BECAUSE I beleive God put into place that means of helping you spo that your children can grow up with a stable and emotionally healthy mom.

As for your children, I have see the impact of untreated mental illness on one too many children. People with mental illnesses, especailly Bi-polar and Schizophrenia ALWAYS beleive they are better parents without medication. They are ALWAYS wrong. It is their children who suffer under the inconsistent and bizarre belief and discipline systems that follow. If nothign else, get evaluated for the love of your children. These two groups also ALWAYS beleive they are coping far better than they actually are. I beleive you may fall quite solidly into this generalization and I hope you will heed my words in this!

I will be praying for you!

Please get the help that you need.

Sorry but i disagree with you, She is doing good by not taking meds & relying on God =)
After all meds can do only so little while God is unlimeted & heals for good while meds just heal for 30min to a day.

I know in some illnesses you do need meds but with her case i think Keeping faith in God , praying & ignoring those things is better than just taking meds.

Because i think that if you are mentally ill & you refuse to take pills & instead have faith in God to heal you for good its showing that you have a lot of faith in him Because instead of doing what is easy but not realy that helpfull you choose to have faith & wait for the real healing which is From God that will heal you for Good =)

I agree with you a thousand percent!! Mental illness especially schizophrenia runs in my family... Several of my aunts have it as well as my cousin. My nana had it as well. So i have seen the effects it has on people and those who dont take medicine and try to fight it on their own. One of my aunts. She's a christian and thought she could just fight it herself and god, with no medication..... well.... all three of her kids hate her... she has gotten arrested i dont know how many times for child endangerment, and most of the time you can find her hiding underneath her car. Her condition has progressively gotten worse, and pretty soon there going to admit her into a mental institue where they will force her take medication

NoTearsShed said:

Sorry but I disagree with you, She is doing good by not taking meds & relying on God =)

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I'm confused, are you missing the part where she admits she has been forcibly institutionalized? Everyone has things inflicted on them. God did not intend for babies to be born with flippers because some quack doctor chose to convince his colleagues that an untested chemical was great for use on pregnant women to stave off NORMAL nausea.

You disagree based on ignorance and false doctrine, NOT based on a thought process firmly grounded in education, understanding, logical reasoning or scripture. Alas, yet another “well-meaning” person who thinks they are encouraging “faith.” I THINK you should realize that an uneducated opinion is really just noise and not in any way helpful to anyone. Although I respect that you wish to express yourself, I am not impressed by your eagerness to do so in a matter of which you clearly have little or no true clarity.

It is MORE, (rather than less) important that Christians bas all opinions on God, not on fluff and emotion. That means accurate and educated opinions based on reasoning and observation. I encourage you to never again use your OPINION to argue matters of medical KNOWLEDGE, UNLESS scriptural declaration and an understanding of God’s intention BASED on a deep scriptural knowledge counters that. It is neither your ignorance nor your desire to have a voice in this that angers me so much as the fact that you may well lead someone to continue sinning against her own children by your desire to “have your say,” without any basis in real understanding of scripture or knowledge.

Yes, some people are freed from these structural defects of the brain. However, it is NOT based on anything they do. It is based on a complete surrender to God on this issue COMBINED WITH God’s desire to use them as a instrument to convert others. NOT because they “pray real hard.” If demonic possession were present there would be indicators. She has named none of those. This is not a spiritual issue.

In some illnesses you do need meds but with her case I think Keeping faith in God, praying & ignoring those things is better than just taking meds. Being a Christian actually decreases the likelihood that a person will turn to illicit drugs to self medicate. It also increases the likelihood that they have the social support necessary to stay on their medication and not fall into the 50-60% non-adherence groups.

Sin was introduced in the world by Satan. That sin is passed down through generations in the form of mental, physical, emotional and spiritual defects. Some families have a genetic disposition to produce children’s with brains that can be very easily manipulated into psychosis and murder. Satan sends his demons to violate the child born with this defect until he begins to kill and rape. The sin is there and can and does affect many people PHYSICALLY. Just as Satan can convince people to put into place medicines that can cause physical damage, God loves us so much that He has put into place chemical that can assuage and even halt that damage. God is NOT punishing or even testing schizophrenics. It is just another manifestation of original sin that is inflicting someone since they were born, nothing more, nothing less.

You need to understand that Bi-polar and schizophrenia are just the same type of thing as if she were born with her heart outside her chest cavity. She needs medical intervention. It is sheer stupidity to say she does not. I have seen that mental illness can be elicited and CREATED in the children of people born with these brain abnormalities, even if the children were born with NORMAL and fully functional brains. Why?: BECAUSE the parent is emotionally and behaviorally unstable.

It is a fantasy to be convinced that someone is “dealing with it the easy way” by taking meds. Are you that out of touch with reality? That is absurd. Schizophrenia is NOT a punishment that you can “prove your faithfulness” through enduring more suffering. That is NOT scriptural in any way shape or form. That is called delusional and deliberately cruel “thinking.” God gives us tools to use to counter Satan’s' effects, if and when we humble ourselves and recognize that we are powerless against that sin. Yes, some mental illness will be cured entirely by the Holy Spirit. But as with Jesus, such healings are 100% and instant. They are a testament to GOD’s power not to the power of a person “faith and willpower.” INSTANT RED FLAG.! So her testament is a deception perpetuated by mental illness NOT a testament to the Holy Spirit. What she is doing is normal behavior for a non-compliant schizophrenic; but I GUARANTEE she is NOT treating her schizophrenia AND her children are being emotionally harmed by that. Time to stop the lie and get the help she needs so she does not ruin THEIR lives. However, it will take years for them to trust that she will not further betray them by returning to madness.

Why? Because I can guarantee that she has already severely traumatized her children and they will be afraid that the good and stable times with a "real" mom will disappear again. Her kids will not constantly have to “walk on eggshells” around, a embarrassing erratic, attention demanding mom who requires them to care for HER when she should be caring for THEM. Did you read her post? It is all about HER. Why? Because that is what mental illness does to children. They are forced to live in the shadow if the illness. It is time to allow them to be kids and not caretakers.

I personally have witnessed the work of the Holy Spirit. I KNOW (not believe) how powerful it is. Let me make a testament of that right here and now. I have personally experienced demonic possession and seen the miraculous change that occurs when it is stopped. I have also personally witnessed mental illness and the no less miraculous change that happen once the person recognizes the need for help so they can lovingly care for their own kids. I have also seen the attention seeking behavior that the children of the UNMEDICATED mentally ill engage in. That invariably leads them to them being rejected by their peers, hated in fact, which leads to personality disorders and the inability to honor that parent. The chain of sin is perpetuated BECAUSE their parent is so self absorbed with their illness, so selfish and desiring some means of controlling that which they are incapable of controlling (generations of sin manifested in damage to their brain) that she or he traumatizes their own offspring rather than protecting and making safe those innocent children. Love is about sacrifice. And by its very manifestation mental illness prevents loving sacrifice for the sake of others.

So I must be clear that you are entirely wrong, and your misunderstanding of how God works and how the Holy Spirit works can only serve to mislead this woman further. Here are some good web sites to read:

http://home.telfort.nl/tdruiter/healing01.htm

http://www.schizophrenia.com/media/strength.htm
Please, just try the medications. It is not the same as what your mother did. Your kids will thank you when they are grown. In the name of Jesus Christ, let go of the control you are being misled to beleive you have over this issue and accept that you can be helped by medical intervention. May God keep you from evil until then.

There you go CHEMICALS if we stopped using so many chemicals & ask God for help he can help us.
If she would have just gone to God they would be no messed up babies
I dont trust pills or medicine,
I prefer having faith in God ,teas, & Praying
You want a example ill give you one.
I had a tooth pulled out last month, it was infected/half broken & they gave me some pill prescription that takes away the infection so that way when they numb it, it does numb otherwise with a bad infection it wont numb it & it will hurt when they pull it out(felt that bad pain before on a different tooth), well guess what i REFUSED to buy that prescription & take it, due to some side effects i dint want to buy it & take it, I prayed to God A long with my mom that it would not hurt &/or make the infection go away, for it to be pulled out quick, (it was a broken tooth)
2 Weeks later i went to the dentist & they pulled it out without hurting. PROOF that you DONT need medicine, pills or prescription IF your faith is strong enough with God then of course he can cure you.
He put his mighty hand on my cheek/jaw & dint let it hurt one bit, that is till they pulled it out i felt a tiny pinch. which honestly was nothing.
Yes not the same as mental illness but thats not the point the point is he helps & protects you, especially when your faith is supper strong =) DONT believe what you see or hear but believe in what God is & what God does =)
If God gave life to humans who had died then dont you think he can cure mental illness?
Yes HE CAN! With God ANYTHING is possible.


Lets see PIlls which give you symtomps/side effects, cure you one way but hurt you another.

OR

God who heals for good & no bad symptoms or side effects.

I pick God =D

So you dont believe in medicine at all??? you dont believe anyone should take any kinds of pills for anything?? Please dont take my questions wrong. Im just curious

Honestly right now i cant think of any besides diabetes & aids that do need medicines but either way they still dont heal those illnesses ONLY God can =)
I mean they might be some more illeness that you need med with but still, i understand being desperrate but thats when we should depend on God NOT humans work which are pills they cant heal us maybe take the pain away for a while but not forever.

I cant say i never taken none because in the past i have but this year so far non that i can remember of =)

Thank you for saying not to take it wrong , i dint =) lol i am a curious person at times o.o

I very much disagree with anyone who says that ''with God, i dont need to take medicine for my mental illness''. Do you think that God doesn't send doctors to people to heal people with mental illness?
Before I started taking meds, I was taking drugs, drinking, and destroying myself from the outside in to self-medicate. If anyone told me that my faith wasn't strong enough I would have laughed in their face. I'm 2000000000000x better now that I take meds and I have a new lifestyle to prove it.
I'm not saying that pills are the answer for everyone but seriously they saved my life. Don't tell me that God doesn't use doctors or medicine because sometimes Jesus isn't the instant fix-it-all that every sick person hopes He'd be.

No offense to those of you who think it WAS Satan. It may have been, but coming from someone who has worked several years in the mental health field, directly with those who have severe mental illness. Hallucinations and delusions, which are different, are symptoms of several mental illnesses. And for those that are not educated on the subject. Mental illness does not mean crazy. A mental illness can range from mild anxiety to severe schizophrenia, and most everyone has dealt with some sort of mental illness once in there life, weather they know it or not. Basically.........God cured you from a normally incurable illness. Praise God.