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So, I have posted bits and pieces here from time to time, but not a lot about me. So, here's another one about me I guess...about what God has been doing with me as of late.
The first great thing God did for me was bring me out of my stubborn atheism that I had entered into after high school (yay teenage rebellion!) and he dropped a proverbial ton of bricks on me that led me back to church quite spontaneously.
The second great thing he did was he led me to college 3 years after my High School graduation. I never thought I would go to college. I was told I was smart, but no one ever mentioned the possibility of college. On a whim I applied at a local college, was accepted, and got a substantial amount of financial aid. Now I am in my 3rd year at Belmont Abbey College (North Carolina) majoring in Theology.
There's something special about my college. Not only is it a Catholic college (there are plenty, after all), but it is a Benedictine college, meaning it was founded by a community of monks who follow the guidelines of St. Benedict, the founder of monasticism in the West who lived and died nearly 1500 years ago, and his monks have carried on his legacy since then to this present age.
Learning at this college has exposed me to the Benedictine lifestyle. The monks day is framed with prayer: morning prayer, midday prayer, mass, and evening prayer. They devote about 3-4 hours total to prayer daily in community, not counting whatever personal prayer they choose to do on their own time. They have been generous enough to invite all who wish to join them in communal prayer, and it is something I have gladly taken them up on whenever I have been able too. This practice has done wonders for my spiritual life and has given me the discipline I need to focus on my academic work as not only something I am doing for class, but something I am doing for God. My major is theology, after all, and I am basically there to learn about God. It was a monk many centuries ago who said "He who does not pray is not a theologian." The monks have helped me realize this, that prayer is the most important part of my studies as I seek those truths concerning God.
Another great thing he has done is put me into contact with another community of monks, whom I work with along with a group of college students, in the Mid West. The nature of my job is that I spend 6 weeks with this college-intern community under the guidance of another group of Benedictines. Half of our time is spent in spiritual formation, and the other half is spent in youth ministry as we teach the faith to High School students. We also participate in as much of the local monastic life as we possibly can, and this has done so much for all of our spiritual lives. I can not begin to put a price on the many words of wisdom, encouragement, or love which has been taught by or received from those monks of this other monastery. They have constantly pushed me in the right direction to become the person God wants me to be.
As a result of these things God has done for me, he has helped me understand that he has been calling me to a special vocation in life. Beginning towards the end of Autumn, I will begin serious discernment regarding my vocation to the religious life; the life of a nun, more specifically, a Benedictine nun. In all honesty, the discernment of if this is right for me is not the issue, but the matter I am going to explore is where I should become a nun. I will begin visiting different communities of Benedictine nuns in the USA to find a place to spend the rest of my life allowing God to help me work out my salvation with fear and trembling. It has been a difficult thing to openly admit, because there is a stigma nowadays when a young lady says she wants to be a nun, but now that I have admitted it to my parents (after the good monks gave me some encouragement), I have felt all the more confident with trust in God and his plan for me. I am so excited to begin these first steps towards the rest of my life, steps that I know will be taken with Christ beside me. He has never led me anywhere I couldn't go, always giving me just enough strength to do what must me done.
I now face a future for myself that will leave me living a daily rhythm of work and prayer for the greater glory of God, and I've never been happier with anticipation. Please keep me in your prayers that I might find a suitable community to live out my life as a prayer to God. Thank you.
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The first great thing God did for me was bring me out of my stubborn atheism that I had entered into after high school (yay teenage rebellion!) and he dropped a proverbial ton of bricks on me that led me back to church quite spontaneously.
The second great thing he did was he led me to college 3 years after my High School graduation. I never thought I would go to college. I was told I was smart, but no one ever mentioned the possibility of college. On a whim I applied at a local college, was accepted, and got a substantial amount of financial aid. Now I am in my 3rd year at Belmont Abbey College (North Carolina) majoring in Theology.
There's something special about my college. Not only is it a Catholic college (there are plenty, after all), but it is a Benedictine college, meaning it was founded by a community of monks who follow the guidelines of St. Benedict, the founder of monasticism in the West who lived and died nearly 1500 years ago, and his monks have carried on his legacy since then to this present age.
Learning at this college has exposed me to the Benedictine lifestyle. The monks day is framed with prayer: morning prayer, midday prayer, mass, and evening prayer. They devote about 3-4 hours total to prayer daily in community, not counting whatever personal prayer they choose to do on their own time. They have been generous enough to invite all who wish to join them in communal prayer, and it is something I have gladly taken them up on whenever I have been able too. This practice has done wonders for my spiritual life and has given me the discipline I need to focus on my academic work as not only something I am doing for class, but something I am doing for God. My major is theology, after all, and I am basically there to learn about God. It was a monk many centuries ago who said "He who does not pray is not a theologian." The monks have helped me realize this, that prayer is the most important part of my studies as I seek those truths concerning God.
Another great thing he has done is put me into contact with another community of monks, whom I work with along with a group of college students, in the Mid West. The nature of my job is that I spend 6 weeks with this college-intern community under the guidance of another group of Benedictines. Half of our time is spent in spiritual formation, and the other half is spent in youth ministry as we teach the faith to High School students. We also participate in as much of the local monastic life as we possibly can, and this has done so much for all of our spiritual lives. I can not begin to put a price on the many words of wisdom, encouragement, or love which has been taught by or received from those monks of this other monastery. They have constantly pushed me in the right direction to become the person God wants me to be.
As a result of these things God has done for me, he has helped me understand that he has been calling me to a special vocation in life. Beginning towards the end of Autumn, I will begin serious discernment regarding my vocation to the religious life; the life of a nun, more specifically, a Benedictine nun. In all honesty, the discernment of if this is right for me is not the issue, but the matter I am going to explore is where I should become a nun. I will begin visiting different communities of Benedictine nuns in the USA to find a place to spend the rest of my life allowing God to help me work out my salvation with fear and trembling. It has been a difficult thing to openly admit, because there is a stigma nowadays when a young lady says she wants to be a nun, but now that I have admitted it to my parents (after the good monks gave me some encouragement), I have felt all the more confident with trust in God and his plan for me. I am so excited to begin these first steps towards the rest of my life, steps that I know will be taken with Christ beside me. He has never led me anywhere I couldn't go, always giving me just enough strength to do what must me done.
I now face a future for myself that will leave me living a daily rhythm of work and prayer for the greater glory of God, and I've never been happier with anticipation. Please keep me in your prayers that I might find a suitable community to live out my life as a prayer to God. Thank you.
-PAX-