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You know, one of the hardest things for me to do is trust , a deep seed planted a long time ago from the enemy, and I lie I bought for years. much hurt poured in and instead of trusting and asking for Gofs help , my pride and arrogance of thinking , " I got this "... Lead to
Much brokeness...
we are not equipped to handle things on our own , separated from God.. We may think we are but time will prove we are not... Before this year walk coming to know my lord and savior I was doing everything I knew how to do .I thought I was doing it all right.. God has reminded me "without me Michelle, you can do nothing "..
He allowed me to walk my own way for years , The pressures and anxieties took their toll.. The weight of everything I was trying to handle by myself fell in and crashed down in me ... I thank god so
Much for those lessons today! Hallelujah!!
what I learned is that most of what I was doing and going after were things God didn't bring to me .. They were things I went out and piled up in heaping portions on my plate... Filling it up With all the wrong things. my plate got so full and so heavy I could barely breath to carry it ... God has a way of saying... "when you're ready, when you've had enough, come sit at my table and let me feed you".
I have found that by obeying and trusting him to bring what He wants on my plate instead, that tue portions are lighter, more tasteful... things that are of Him...
I always thought I had to be busy doing something or I would become nothing... This is not so....
I have come to know that God brings things in at just the right time.. Each time his timing is perfact . we come into this world with our hands closed tight around things we want , instead of leaving them open to what God wants.. It hurts when father has to pry our hands open to take something out...
I have also found that leaving my hands open , allows Him to bring in and take out more easily.. Each time showing me something of Him I would have otherwise missed had I had my hand clenched .. god feeds us in so many ways
His word , people , activities .. Etc...
I have also found he is restoring my trust ... trust that he will bring good things in , if I will just stay still enough and allow him to do this ... Reminds me of a homeless man that came to me one day and told me of a coffee shop... I had never met a homeless person .. still he was a person and I wanted to listen to what Je had to say.... A few weeks passed , I decided to visit the coffee shop he told me about ... I pulled up... And there the man I had met sat... It was a hot hot day in Oklahoma ... 115 outside ... I sat in my truck for a moment and observed the surroundings ... I saw people bringing out cups and sharing their drinks with one another ... I saw a man come out with a tray , he was handing out wet towels that had been put in the icebox, people outside wrapped them around their necks, some even put them in their heads... I decided to get out and go say hello ... he smiled and said " I can not believe you came!"
we walked inside and I bought us both a drink ... We sat down and played a game of scrabble... Inside the coffee shop people were reading books to each other, playing games, laughing... There was a stage and a black man got up and began singing a gospel song in the mic... my homeless friend began telling me his story ....he revealed the coffee shop was ran by a pastor who holds services for the homeless ... It was an amazing day and I went back several times ... I thought , This is something I would love to do!! god only wanted to show me something that day ... not sure yet where he is leading me too ... But I will know it when I arrive there... I know tue manna will be great as his portion that day filled Many people ..
Much brokeness...
we are not equipped to handle things on our own , separated from God.. We may think we are but time will prove we are not... Before this year walk coming to know my lord and savior I was doing everything I knew how to do .I thought I was doing it all right.. God has reminded me "without me Michelle, you can do nothing "..
He allowed me to walk my own way for years , The pressures and anxieties took their toll.. The weight of everything I was trying to handle by myself fell in and crashed down in me ... I thank god so
Much for those lessons today! Hallelujah!!
what I learned is that most of what I was doing and going after were things God didn't bring to me .. They were things I went out and piled up in heaping portions on my plate... Filling it up With all the wrong things. my plate got so full and so heavy I could barely breath to carry it ... God has a way of saying... "when you're ready, when you've had enough, come sit at my table and let me feed you".
I have found that by obeying and trusting him to bring what He wants on my plate instead, that tue portions are lighter, more tasteful... things that are of Him...
I always thought I had to be busy doing something or I would become nothing... This is not so....
I have come to know that God brings things in at just the right time.. Each time his timing is perfact . we come into this world with our hands closed tight around things we want , instead of leaving them open to what God wants.. It hurts when father has to pry our hands open to take something out...
I have also found that leaving my hands open , allows Him to bring in and take out more easily.. Each time showing me something of Him I would have otherwise missed had I had my hand clenched .. god feeds us in so many ways
His word , people , activities .. Etc...
I have also found he is restoring my trust ... trust that he will bring good things in , if I will just stay still enough and allow him to do this ... Reminds me of a homeless man that came to me one day and told me of a coffee shop... I had never met a homeless person .. still he was a person and I wanted to listen to what Je had to say.... A few weeks passed , I decided to visit the coffee shop he told me about ... I pulled up... And there the man I had met sat... It was a hot hot day in Oklahoma ... 115 outside ... I sat in my truck for a moment and observed the surroundings ... I saw people bringing out cups and sharing their drinks with one another ... I saw a man come out with a tray , he was handing out wet towels that had been put in the icebox, people outside wrapped them around their necks, some even put them in their heads... I decided to get out and go say hello ... he smiled and said " I can not believe you came!"
we walked inside and I bought us both a drink ... We sat down and played a game of scrabble... Inside the coffee shop people were reading books to each other, playing games, laughing... There was a stage and a black man got up and began singing a gospel song in the mic... my homeless friend began telling me his story ....he revealed the coffee shop was ran by a pastor who holds services for the homeless ... It was an amazing day and I went back several times ... I thought , This is something I would love to do!! god only wanted to show me something that day ... not sure yet where he is leading me too ... But I will know it when I arrive there... I know tue manna will be great as his portion that day filled Many people ..
A BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT IS YOURS. WHEN THE CHILDREN OF EGYPT WERE IN THE WILDERNESS. WHO PROVIDED THE MANNA, AND QUAILS DAILY. WHO PARTED THE GREAT AMOUNT OF WATER THAT COULD EASILY COVER THESE 7 CONTINENTS. JEHOVAH WANTS AND WANTED THEM TO DEVELOP FAITH, WHICH IS TRUSTING THE GOD. OUR GOD. THE ONE WHO CREATED ALL THINGS HEAVENS AND BENEATH. IT SEEMS THE NATURAL INSTINCT OF SURVIVAL TO HOARD FOOD { JUST IN CASE GOD WOULDN'T SHOW UP} OR FORGOT. THESE ARE THE CARNAL DOUBTING THOUGHTS, AND THE MISTRUSTING ONES. HE TOLD THEM ONLY STORE ENOUGHT FOR ONE DAY, YOUR DAY, THIS DAY, AND NOT FOR ANOTHER DAY. THOSE WHO DID NOT ADHERE TO THE WORDS OF THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, FOUND THAT IN THE MORNING, THEIR MANNA , OR FOOD, WAS FULL OR WORMS, AND NOT CONSUMABLE. WHO ARE WE KIDDING. CAN WE HIDE THINGS FROM THE LORD. THE JOURNEY WAS A PHYSICAL ONE, BUT IT WAS LOSING THE BONDAGES OF SLAVERY ALONG THE WAY, TO EMBRACE FAITH, AND REAL FREEDOM OF THE SPIRIT. IT WAS A TRAINING AND LEARNING PROCESS. MUCH HAPPENS IN THE DESERT, PURIFICATION OF ONES SOUL. TRUSTING GOD, FOR TOMORROW, IS HAVING HIS HAND IN YOURS, WHEREEVER HE LEADS, I WILL FOLLOW, EVEN IN THE DESERT, WHERE NOTHING IS. ISN'T GOD ABLE TO MAKE FOOD FALL FROM THE SKY'S, AND WATER FROM A ROCK. WE EACH MUST DO WHAT THE HOLY SPIRIT INSTRUCTS. IT ONE IS GOING BANKRUPT, AND MAYBE ONE SHOULD SUPPLY WITH FOOD, FOR SURVIVAL, IT WOULD BE SILLY IF A SNOW STORM CAME, IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS, AND NOT TO GET MUCH FOOD. BUT TO LOOK AHEAD, AND TO DOUBT THAT GOD IS NOT HERE, AND IS NOT GOING TO BE THERE, IS DOUBTING HIS POWERS. IT IS A MOST BEAUTIFUL THREAD, OF YOURS, THE BIBLE SAYS, IT ALSO IS A SIN TO WORRY, AND BE AS THE CHILDREN IN THE WILDERNESS, MOST OF THEM WERE DESTROYED, FOR LACK OF FAITH, IN MAKEING THEMSELVES A IDOL. { FOR WE WALK BY FAITH, AND NOT BY SIGHT}