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In didn't want to title my testimony, cause everything i could think of sounded... umm idk how to spell the word lol but anyway i'll start now
My first life ended a few weeks after i turned 18. I had a pretty normal childhood, for a kid who's parents had split before she could remember. My mum was always pretty sick, and so i took care of my two younger sisters. My dad was ok, but he wasn't responsible. he acted like a friend not a parent.... anyway Sunday, 12th of August 2007, my father molested me. it killed me inside, cause i was daddy's little girl, always had been. I was confused and i felt alone and unwanted. i couldn't tell my mother, cause i didn't trust her enough... i was in year 12, doing my VCE and i struggled through. i wanted to end it, i thought i was worthless. Anyway, about 3 month later (don't remember the date) it got to a point where i'd beaten myself down that i had a razor to my wrist. i was crying out to god, and a song came into my head. the part was "Everlasting your light will shine when all else fades neverending your glory goes beyond all fame" (Inside out Planetshakers). I started singing it aloud, and love washed over me. I bawled lol. I went into my room, and i texted my youth pastor "What do your in a hole so deep that not even god can pull you out". He answered me pretty quickly and he talked to me for awile, which was cool. I did tell my mum, and i went to the police. My dad admitted to what he did and he got charged, i don't know what he got. But I know God saved my life that night. He was there for me when no one else was, and he has become eveything i need. My God is an awsome god for sure, and there is no where were he can't save us.
I'm slowly beging to heal, thanks to my story writing and a lot of prayer and keeping God a lot closer than i used to. I'm still a long way off being ready to face my father, but i'm healing from my pain, and i hope one day to see him and talk to him again.
My first life ended a few weeks after i turned 18. I had a pretty normal childhood, for a kid who's parents had split before she could remember. My mum was always pretty sick, and so i took care of my two younger sisters. My dad was ok, but he wasn't responsible. he acted like a friend not a parent.... anyway Sunday, 12th of August 2007, my father molested me. it killed me inside, cause i was daddy's little girl, always had been. I was confused and i felt alone and unwanted. i couldn't tell my mother, cause i didn't trust her enough... i was in year 12, doing my VCE and i struggled through. i wanted to end it, i thought i was worthless. Anyway, about 3 month later (don't remember the date) it got to a point where i'd beaten myself down that i had a razor to my wrist. i was crying out to god, and a song came into my head. the part was "Everlasting your light will shine when all else fades neverending your glory goes beyond all fame" (Inside out Planetshakers). I started singing it aloud, and love washed over me. I bawled lol. I went into my room, and i texted my youth pastor "What do your in a hole so deep that not even god can pull you out". He answered me pretty quickly and he talked to me for awile, which was cool. I did tell my mum, and i went to the police. My dad admitted to what he did and he got charged, i don't know what he got. But I know God saved my life that night. He was there for me when no one else was, and he has become eveything i need. My God is an awsome god for sure, and there is no where were he can't save us.
I'm slowly beging to heal, thanks to my story writing and a lot of prayer and keeping God a lot closer than i used to. I'm still a long way off being ready to face my father, but i'm healing from my pain, and i hope one day to see him and talk to him again.
