I was ten my dad told my mom on their 13th anniversary that he wanted a divorce. He loved her but wasn't in love with her. This really didn’t bother me at first. I knew my parents weren’t happy together, so if they were apart and still friends I was happy. All I knew is no matter what I wanted to live with my mom. Soon after my parents split, my sister moved out. Even though she would hit me and drag me out of the house by my hair she was my only companion. The only person I really had anything to do with. I spent most of my days with her. After she moved out, I didn’t see her again until I was thirteen.

The next three years in life were really hard for me. My dad was dragging me in and out of his relationships…I would stay up at night hearing my mom cry herself to sleep….I would sit and wonder if I would see any of my sisters again. I struggled with depression. I felt like no one could help or my family would be judged by others. So I never said anything. It was like my deep dark secret that no one could know about.

Then I met my best friend Lyndsie the person I call my guardian angel. We talked all the time, I could tell her anything and everything. I never felt so relieved in my life. At this same point I started going to youth group and learn to give my pain to God…all my hurts, struggles, everything. I started feeling better more relieved and then in two years…My faith was really tested.


My sister’s fianc

I couldn't post it all...and I can't delete it...so this was pointless

keep going with your testimony. would love to hear it

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ahhh it won't let me go beyond that =(

weird. :-(

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"Then Peter began to speak: 'I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism but accepts men from every nation who fear him and do what is right.'" Acts 10:34-35

thats just super strange

hahah I think it hates me.

Shinning thru pain its true u have really come thro and seen many things un understandable but life has to continue........
so can u continue ua life story
its encouraging to know what God did for u and what he is doing now
what happened after visiting youth groups and how did u get salvation
Just go on girl......................... continue pliz.........................................

My sister’s fiance overdosed and died. Which was sad…but it meant we no longer had to worry about him drugging or beating her…she would no longer have to sell her body or get beat if she refused. She went through tons of depression, she often thought of suicide. I didn’t understand how she could love someone who treated her so bad. But then I thought of how God loves us, even when we turn away from him. It’s unconditional love, and although you don’t always understand it, it’s still always there for you.

Another rough spot my family was in at this time in life was dealing with my oldest sister’s ex husband. He was harassing her and threatening to kill her family if she didn’t come back to him. It was a very hard time for everyone. We felt like we needed to protect her and the girls, but it was very difficult and sometimes it seemed impossible.

If we thought things couldn’t be worse, we were wrong. My other sister was sitting in prison for robbing a bank with her husband, because they couldn’t afford to take care of their kids. I was told I wouldn’t see my sister for years. It broke my heart, these are my siblings and they are not here spending life with us, their family.

My dad picked this point in my life to tell me he had cheated on my mom when she was eight months pregnant with me, and I had a sister that wanted to meet me. This was insane I thought. This only happens to other people, not my family. I’m fifteen years old, and you want me to meet someone I don’t know and just accept her? I know this might sound bad on my part, but I wasn’t sure I could do that.

I just kept giving it all to God…I knew he wouldn’t give me too much…I kept remembering the verse “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Philippians 4:13, but I admit at times it was hard. Not only was their strife in my life, but my best friend Lyndsie was going through things I had already gone through.

Her parents started fighting a lot. Her dad would leave and he wouldn’t come back for hours on end. She would call me, and I would stay on the phone with her until her dad had come home. I would try to cheer her up, and I would read Bible verses to her, just giving her all the inspiration I could. If things didn’t seem bad enough for her, another tragic they happened. Her best friend’s boyfriend died in a car crash. She felt so alone and torn down. She didn’t believe in God. So she didn’t have the blessing of giving all her strife to him. She felt really bogged down with her friend’s sadness on top of her parents fighting. This had put her in a depression she had never known.

She would often talk about suicide. This scared me to no end. I was worried I prayed and prayed and kept reassuring her that her parents loved her. I kept telling her that I loved her but most of all God loved her and she was worth so much and suicide was not the answer.

Three days later one of my classmates had killed themselves…It was one of the worst feelings I have ever felt. I was determined to do everything I could to keep Lyndsie from making that same decision. I stayed strong and kept praying and kept reassuring her. She got better and better every day. I would read the Bible to her and we would discuss it and a year later she was saved. I got the nickname ShiningThruPain from Lyndsie because she said even at my worst times in life. I turned to God, smiled, and held her together. I always shined through my pain, to help whoever needed it.

While writing this I’ve realized one verse that really sticks out. “Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.” 1st Corinthians 13:7. Through it all God’s love is what got me through.

hahah the rest of the story!

oh my gawshhhhhhhhhhh! i'm glad u typed it all out finally :-] that last verse is amazing!!! that's my favorite book of the Bible..

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"Then Peter began to speak: 'I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism but accepts men from every nation who fear him and do what is right.'" Acts 10:34-35

God bless you, Shining!!!

That aworesome Shinning. God bless and may He see u thro and lyndsie ua friend its really trumatizing to go thru and bear all that. Your heart must be the strongest lady heart i have heard of its testimony

bless you shining

wow that was so amazing! God has brought you through so much! be blessed!

That was incredible, I was very close to tears. God's love really is so very much amazing! Thank you for sharing!

such an awesome testimony
you got such a sweet spirit!

thanks =)=)

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