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This is my testimony and I pray that God helps my heart and try to be vurnerable because I feel I am called to share my testimony.
I was born in 1992 and growing up all I remember was fighting and arguing comming from my mom and my step dad. My mom and my "Biological" dad werent together anymore and he was barely in my life. My mom and step dad always got into it mainly because he was an alcoholic. There were times when he hit her and a time where he chocked her infront of me and I thought she was dead until our dog liked her back to life. We were homeless when I was in the 3rd grade, 7th grade and 9th grade. I had to deal with their constant fights and abuse. Thank God he never hit me. Besides that, they were good parents to me. I never went hungry. Then when I was in the 8th grade I found out that the man i always known to be wasnt really my biological father, but he still considered me as his daughter regaurdless Fast forward till 2010. That year was supposed to be the best year for me. I was graduating HS and starting college that fall, prom, and turning 18.... Boy was I wrong. January 2010 My step dad passed away because of his drinking. Then in april, I got raped by this random guy when I was walking home. Then I didnt graduate HS because I was short 12 credits. Then I got raped again by the guy who I had been with since 2008. Then 3 days before my 18th birthday My mom passed away. The day my mom passed away was the day that Jesus saved me. I went to church with a friend and his mom. I never really went to church that much in my life but that was the day that God really did something in me. Now I know that he put something in my heart to accept him into my life. After that I struggled so much trying to figure out how to be a Christian. But then I became addicted to sex and pornography. That was all I wanted to do. Ive had well over 65 partners. Then I had a place to stay after my mom passed away but because I couldnt deal with being there I put myself in so many different situations that I really shouldnt have. Lived with so many different people but somehow God kept the apartment for me. I still kept chasing guys and having sex. Waisting time.. I really wanted to be a Christian but the devil has a constant hold in my life. Then begining of this year I had a boyfriend who took me to his church and it changed my view of life and God. I became a youth leader at the church and now I really am putting for the effort to try to put God first. I am still currently working with a really bad sexual addiction but I know that God will work out my heart. And I know He will deliver me from this sin as long as I try to live out His will for my life.
I was born in 1992 and growing up all I remember was fighting and arguing comming from my mom and my step dad. My mom and my "Biological" dad werent together anymore and he was barely in my life. My mom and step dad always got into it mainly because he was an alcoholic. There were times when he hit her and a time where he chocked her infront of me and I thought she was dead until our dog liked her back to life. We were homeless when I was in the 3rd grade, 7th grade and 9th grade. I had to deal with their constant fights and abuse. Thank God he never hit me. Besides that, they were good parents to me. I never went hungry. Then when I was in the 8th grade I found out that the man i always known to be wasnt really my biological father, but he still considered me as his daughter regaurdless Fast forward till 2010. That year was supposed to be the best year for me. I was graduating HS and starting college that fall, prom, and turning 18.... Boy was I wrong. January 2010 My step dad passed away because of his drinking. Then in april, I got raped by this random guy when I was walking home. Then I didnt graduate HS because I was short 12 credits. Then I got raped again by the guy who I had been with since 2008. Then 3 days before my 18th birthday My mom passed away. The day my mom passed away was the day that Jesus saved me. I went to church with a friend and his mom. I never really went to church that much in my life but that was the day that God really did something in me. Now I know that he put something in my heart to accept him into my life. After that I struggled so much trying to figure out how to be a Christian. But then I became addicted to sex and pornography. That was all I wanted to do. Ive had well over 65 partners. Then I had a place to stay after my mom passed away but because I couldnt deal with being there I put myself in so many different situations that I really shouldnt have. Lived with so many different people but somehow God kept the apartment for me. I still kept chasing guys and having sex. Waisting time.. I really wanted to be a Christian but the devil has a constant hold in my life. Then begining of this year I had a boyfriend who took me to his church and it changed my view of life and God. I became a youth leader at the church and now I really am putting for the effort to try to put God first. I am still currently working with a really bad sexual addiction but I know that God will work out my heart. And I know He will deliver me from this sin as long as I try to live out His will for my life.