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God bless brothers and sisters, i have a testimonie to share first im going to start off saying that i am young but married and with two kids and one on the way and i can say God provides! No matter the sircumstance HAVE FAITH GOD WILL PROVIDE,! well heres my testimonie, i have been struggling in my marriage for several months now and i mean severly to the point where my marriage is no more, we constantly argued all the time and even forgot we were christian in some instances and couldnt watch our language or actions, my husband cared more for his job then me and my kids, never spend time with us came home and left right after with any excuse or he would make plans right after work he put everything before us and even when he would stay he would eat shower and sleep, he would leave his job at 3:30pm and not be home till 6pm at times 7pm and his job is only an hour away, then he would argue about me questioning where he was, he would come home with bruises on his thighs and scratches on his back and i would ask him where it came from he would say he did not know that he did not feel any of it, many times he was caught watching porn, i forgave him even tho the bible clearly says a married man should not so much as look at another woman with lust, i have poured my heart out to him many times asking and telling him to balance his time and spend more time with his family he would act like he cared but never tried to fix the situation we have had counseling from our youth pastors and actual pastors even watched fireproof and went to buy the book from the movie and do it together, nothing could help as time progessed things got worse he swore to change and never did, i started a hobby online taking surveys due to being lonely and getting no attention then he would argue with me and say im always on my phone when he never gave me attention to begin with i lost all my friends and practicly lost my family because he wanted to keep me locked up all the time and i love him so i didnt mind giving it all up even lost my job because he didnt want me to work, now that is that but also i am pregnant he expected me to take care of our kids both younger than 2 one is not biologically his but he adopted him, so he expected me to do that clean, cook, wash clothes, take out the garbage and wash dishes now i would do it all just ask that he take out the garbage because it was heavy, he would let the garbage pile up for days sometimes weeks before taking it out and our clothes would be dirty for months at times he wouldnt help or give me money to wash at times, he wouldnt ever leave me with or give me money and would say things like i pay the bills my house i do what i want, he also had us surviving off w.i.c, days i didnt eat just to save food for my kids, and days my sis took me out to eat if not id have nothing, now it gets worse our last arguement before our seperation he argues with me and does not want me to go to my moms evwn though he is not going to be home because he was mad at me so made plans to leave, i was upset because he always speaks to me in a form of disrespect like yo woman or you aint gonna do this or that and i was tired of being home alone with the kids i needed help its hard with two kids and being pregnant but he didnt understand even in church many times he would leave me alone with both kids to go concersate now i dont mind you speaking to a fellow christian but atleast help me and take one of the kids dont just leave me helpless with both, so the day in paticular he was mad i was going to my moms was well the day our marriage ended he locked me in the room and yelled at me and argued with me infront of the kids he pushed me and my kids cried and watched so as i went to call the police he bit me in the arm to stop me and i opened the window and screamed for help then he grabed me and slammed me against the wall pregnant and all with my daughter at hand, then i slaped him and tried to kick him away i punched him i tried everything i couldnt get away when i finally got away the police arrived and took me to my parents house where i filled a police report, then a couple days passed 2 or 3 and i found out he left me and the kids, gave in the apartment we had no money food shelter clothes not a penny to our names soon to be homeless i just prayed and left it all in Gods hands, i applied for help throught welfare it was difficult and seemed almost impossible but i trusted God no matter what i knew he wouldnt abandon me and my kids, i went foward with my life filled out for a restraining order got approved and got placed in a shelter, filed for foodstaps and am now going to further my education, and Glory be to GOD because even with nothing he has blessed me and these kids and we are healthy have shelter and food everyday, that goes to show God provides and it also shows FAITH goes a long way, i had nothing and couldnt do nothing pregnant about to give birth but God blessed me and with 3 kids i am alone in flesh but not in spirit and i know my God, My Lord, Jehova, will not leave me without i know my God is real and until this day i praise him and cannot wait till the day he comes for his people and i getvto see his Glorious face and praise him for life!!! We serve a living GOD who will never leave his children behind! Your mother, father, wife, husband, bother, sister, friend, may leave you but God is there thru it all! Put him FIRST and you will see his glory manifest, things will seem hard but i can tell you if you leave it all in Gods hands everything will fall into place! Seek the kingdom of God FIRST!!!! I hope this impacts someone God bless.