5 Years of Hidden Pain

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You are, will be, or have been a teen once. Life is never easy, and whoever told you it was, lied. Life is not a simple walk in the park. It is the craziest thing in the world, and yet some of us think we can never live past the bumps on the road. Sometimes we need a little push from someone to get over it. Also, you need something to keep you grounded. Something or someone who will love you no matter who you are or what you’ve done. You need an unconditional lover. That person so full of love is God. And God is pretty much writing this story, I am simply his hands doing it for him.


Now just because God was mentioned doesn’t mean you don’t want to read it. Don’t let that stop you, it’s my belief and that’s the first thing you should know about me. I am a follower and child of God. The second thing to know is that this is a true story. Some of it is edited for public protection, and to keep the identities of some people unknown.

This is my story. My life seemed so terrible at one point, to the point where all I wanted was to be no one. I did not want to end my life, that’s just cowardly, but I just wanted all the struggles to go away. For so long, about 3 years, I lived in pain. A pain no girl my age, which was 11 until about 14, should go through. Finally on December 11, 2011, the physical pain stopped. I still had the scars inside of me, and the memory of it was there, but I forced the images out of my mind. I will never forget what happened so many times over. I kept that secret to myself for a long time, and while it was still happening I finally told some of my friends. By the time it ended until the time I spoke up, I had told about 11 friends and only one was able to convince me to do what was right. This is only the beginning, there are missing details of each time period. But wait, you don’t even know what happened do you? That’s because I didn’t tell you. I was raped continually for about 3 years of my life, and hid the pain for another 2 years. 5 years of pain, and struggling with life. I made it though. God was with me, he sent some people to help me, and most of all, my faith grew more and more because I knew I needed God to get rid of this pain.


God saved me big time! If you want the full on story of it all, comment please! I think I feel a calling to maybe write this as a book, and I don’t know if it’s worth it, but so far I’ve been told it’ll be very inspirational!
 
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my heart goes out to you i was melested and abused as a child i have a lil girl i am so pertective of her she doesnt stay off anywhere its took me a long time to get over it i forgave my abuser never again i trusted my dad never let him watch any of my kids
 
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My step-dad was the one who did it too me, I forgave him while he still lived in the house, and it made me be able to live with him. For those 2 years, I just didn't speak up and lived with him and the pain.
 
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I am proud of you for speaking out i tried telling my mom she didn't believe me but it stoped the abuses from happening.alot of times kids never tell but you did and god knows your pain and he is there and if my daughter ever came to me and told me her dad or anyone did anything to her i would probly loose it,i pray everyday god protects her
 
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That's what happened to my mom. I spoke up this last February and the entire case of all sorts of things was just dismissed.
 
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You, my dear, are a survivor by grace. I am truly sorry for what you've been through. You are very young though, you have your whole future in front of you. Don't let what happened ruin it. Stay strong. God bless you.

Philippians 3:13 (NLT)

"Now, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead"
 
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If what happened hadn't happen, I wouldn't be who I am today. I've learned to except it as part of my past, and move on. Yes, some thing that I do in life that pertain to what happened still bother me, but God helps me figure out how to deal with it. I believe that everything that happens to me and everyone else, happens for a reason.