Schizoaffective the real story behind it.
By:Anonymous
How did it affect me:
This disorder affected my life a great deal. It drove my friends away and almost drove my family away until I was diagnosed. They didn’t understand and were afraid. I said things I didn’t mean and acted in a way that scared them. They would think this is not her why is she acting this way. She was normal before but now she is retarded. Some actually cared and wanted to help me. It was like that for a wile until I messed up and was selfish.
How did this start. Funny you should ask. I was seeking God the almighty one.
And the holy spirit. And that says it all. Heaven and the bad place talks to me just as they talk to every one only its more real to me. I think thats the secret to this disorder. Its not a brain thing altho it does prove evident. Its a spiritual battle that I think every one should learn. As well as talking to spirits here on earth. I guess thats the gift part. Talking to spirits. Good or bad thats the discernment.
Keeping in check with reality is the key to keeping sane first its the voices, not all of them are bad but not all of them are good as well. Then its the delusions. People call them delusions because they don't make since. But has a miracle ever made since with out God in the picture. The same goes here. Now i'm not saying all are true. You should check with the bible on that one. Then its the hallucinations. There was one where I saw my face on my sister. I saw a lions face on my dad and sister as well as claws on my sisters hands. That was scary. Bringing this all out is emotional for me. So bear with me
What were my dilutions:
they are quite a few...
I thought I was in a zoo.
The first moment I thought I was in a zoo. It was when I was paralyze and couldn’t move. There was an evil presents that would pull at my limbs and I herd them talking to me. When I thought I was no longer in the zoo. I woke up under my blanket and could barely move like I was dead and God brought me back. That the animals ate me.
I thought I was preg. With Gods baby.
This was when I was still in school and I felt movement in my belly yet I did not know what it was. I later had a dream that some one I knew attacked me.
I thought people where robots
I believed that I had a chip in my head that caused me to forget the year. And think that it was some time in the future. There for I thought that I had kids and was married to my first x bf.
The whole time I herd voices
there was a time where I thought my parents committed crimes against me. And that my name was shannon. I was pazest
The lord has saved me many times and hes still and will do
wow theres a lot I still cant explain them all.
why the world needs to be aware of this disorder.
This is a real disorder. people need to know and be aware that it can be scary at times yet so wonderful in others. How you may ask simple. God. He can work in any situation to bring him glory. His stead fast love never fails. Evan some secrets have been reveled to me from God that I am not privileged to speak about. This is so powerful just like a.d.h.d. It can be a curse or a gift you choose. The gifts feel wonderful. But the curse can feel scary. So thats the basic difference of how you can tell if something is true or not. Yet it can be tricky. You could have dreams that seem so real to you. That may or may not be a sign from God. If it falls in line with the bibles teachings then it is true. The truth can set you free.
How Med's can make a true difference. All med's work for different people. Some help some make it worse. Most sike med's as I like to call them make the brain super slow. It is very sad to see people who look and sound retarded who may have once been as mature as there age. Thats exactly what it does. It slows that brain down so much that the brain could take up to 5 minutes to complete a thought. Med's do help however or extreme cases as I explained in my delusions.
How did this disorder happen
as with all disorders some are brought on others you are born with. Its all about how God made you. Now i'm not blaming God. Remember when I talked about a disorder can be a gift or a curse. God brings challenges yes. But its up to us wether we trust him enough to go through them with him. With Jesus as our lord and savior. He walks with us every day every step just like the foot print poem.
Doctors say when traumatic events happen a disorder is born. Doctors like to put labels on people. We are not labels we are people and we are not retarded.
Underneath a disorder is always a spiritual battle to be beaten. When I said disorder can be brought on. This is what I am talking about. It may take the rest of your life to beat it but it can be beaten. Have faith. How to cope and deal with this disorder. Each person has there own way. You just have to learn and discover what is best for you.
By:Anonymous
How did it affect me:
This disorder affected my life a great deal. It drove my friends away and almost drove my family away until I was diagnosed. They didn’t understand and were afraid. I said things I didn’t mean and acted in a way that scared them. They would think this is not her why is she acting this way. She was normal before but now she is retarded. Some actually cared and wanted to help me. It was like that for a wile until I messed up and was selfish.
How did this start. Funny you should ask. I was seeking God the almighty one.
And the holy spirit. And that says it all. Heaven and the bad place talks to me just as they talk to every one only its more real to me. I think thats the secret to this disorder. Its not a brain thing altho it does prove evident. Its a spiritual battle that I think every one should learn. As well as talking to spirits here on earth. I guess thats the gift part. Talking to spirits. Good or bad thats the discernment.
Keeping in check with reality is the key to keeping sane first its the voices, not all of them are bad but not all of them are good as well. Then its the delusions. People call them delusions because they don't make since. But has a miracle ever made since with out God in the picture. The same goes here. Now i'm not saying all are true. You should check with the bible on that one. Then its the hallucinations. There was one where I saw my face on my sister. I saw a lions face on my dad and sister as well as claws on my sisters hands. That was scary. Bringing this all out is emotional for me. So bear with me
What were my dilutions:
they are quite a few...
I thought I was in a zoo.
The first moment I thought I was in a zoo. It was when I was paralyze and couldn’t move. There was an evil presents that would pull at my limbs and I herd them talking to me. When I thought I was no longer in the zoo. I woke up under my blanket and could barely move like I was dead and God brought me back. That the animals ate me.
I thought I was preg. With Gods baby.
This was when I was still in school and I felt movement in my belly yet I did not know what it was. I later had a dream that some one I knew attacked me.
I thought people where robots
I believed that I had a chip in my head that caused me to forget the year. And think that it was some time in the future. There for I thought that I had kids and was married to my first x bf.
The whole time I herd voices
there was a time where I thought my parents committed crimes against me. And that my name was shannon. I was pazest
The lord has saved me many times and hes still and will do
wow theres a lot I still cant explain them all.
why the world needs to be aware of this disorder.
This is a real disorder. people need to know and be aware that it can be scary at times yet so wonderful in others. How you may ask simple. God. He can work in any situation to bring him glory. His stead fast love never fails. Evan some secrets have been reveled to me from God that I am not privileged to speak about. This is so powerful just like a.d.h.d. It can be a curse or a gift you choose. The gifts feel wonderful. But the curse can feel scary. So thats the basic difference of how you can tell if something is true or not. Yet it can be tricky. You could have dreams that seem so real to you. That may or may not be a sign from God. If it falls in line with the bibles teachings then it is true. The truth can set you free.
How Med's can make a true difference. All med's work for different people. Some help some make it worse. Most sike med's as I like to call them make the brain super slow. It is very sad to see people who look and sound retarded who may have once been as mature as there age. Thats exactly what it does. It slows that brain down so much that the brain could take up to 5 minutes to complete a thought. Med's do help however or extreme cases as I explained in my delusions.
How did this disorder happen
as with all disorders some are brought on others you are born with. Its all about how God made you. Now i'm not blaming God. Remember when I talked about a disorder can be a gift or a curse. God brings challenges yes. But its up to us wether we trust him enough to go through them with him. With Jesus as our lord and savior. He walks with us every day every step just like the foot print poem.
Doctors say when traumatic events happen a disorder is born. Doctors like to put labels on people. We are not labels we are people and we are not retarded.
Underneath a disorder is always a spiritual battle to be beaten. When I said disorder can be brought on. This is what I am talking about. It may take the rest of your life to beat it but it can be beaten. Have faith. How to cope and deal with this disorder. Each person has there own way. You just have to learn and discover what is best for you.