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So a little introduction of myself. i became a born again christian when i was around 16 yrs old. but since then ive been bouncing around with my relationship with God. I am currently serving in the Navy and trying to find out what i am doing with my life right now. I noticed nothing was as entertaining as it used to be and i was doing things that really made me ashamed of myself. a week later a fellow sailor invites me to visit his church i refused a couple time but i finally gave in.
At that service the Lord was screaming at me through the pastors words. i was so desperately trying to hold back my tears i felt like something huge was being ripped out of my body. for some reason i could feel my self trying to hold on to it but i just wanted it GONE it was so heavy to carry. Suddenly i was just gone i lost my balance and fell to my knees. the pastor kept speaking and i was so embarrassed i just made this whole seen in front of all these people i dont even know. But at the same time i could feel this voice in side me that i havent felt for so long i could feel the voice crying with me saying "I'm so glad your back i missed you so much. i was loosing it. but i was fresh i was brand new. You all know what happened and for those who dont ill explain. GOD reached deep inside of me and took all my shame, hatred, and disgust i had for myself that i built up and took it all away. I was FREE FINALLY FREE FROM MYSELF! since that day ive been trying desperately to change my life for God om done running from him and just doing what i want cuzz i finally believe the only way i can be truly happy is with God. This all happened a month or two ago. im still struggling to adjust to this new lifestyle but when ever i start to fall down i suddenly remember Jesus is with me God is with me and i dont have to struggle any more.
so yeah that was the introduction. so this is the situation im in now. one im trying to find out what God want to use me for. to become a pastor, missionary, just another solider of his amongst the people. i have 4 yrs to figure this out and to prepare (my time left serving for the navy).
two ive been becoming more and more curious of who God has planned for me to spend the rest of my life with and share my love for Him with. that one woman that i can call wife one day. BUT, i know it is not time for that for me i have a duty to my country i must fulfill, and i know i am spiritually not ready to be in any kind of relationship with a women. When the thought come in my head that OH THIS GIRL MIGHT BE THE ONE i become obsessed with the idea. But God pulls me back and i apologize for loosing my way and ask that he make my strength to resist such thoughts stronger so i can focus on God and become the man of God he wants me to be. AMEN.
so thats whats going on. i so excited for the future. but im also excited to see what God has planned for me today.
i hope this inspires you or makes you ask some questions about yourself and your relationship with God.
thank you for reading and God bless.
YIC
TJ91
At that service the Lord was screaming at me through the pastors words. i was so desperately trying to hold back my tears i felt like something huge was being ripped out of my body. for some reason i could feel my self trying to hold on to it but i just wanted it GONE it was so heavy to carry. Suddenly i was just gone i lost my balance and fell to my knees. the pastor kept speaking and i was so embarrassed i just made this whole seen in front of all these people i dont even know. But at the same time i could feel this voice in side me that i havent felt for so long i could feel the voice crying with me saying "I'm so glad your back i missed you so much. i was loosing it. but i was fresh i was brand new. You all know what happened and for those who dont ill explain. GOD reached deep inside of me and took all my shame, hatred, and disgust i had for myself that i built up and took it all away. I was FREE FINALLY FREE FROM MYSELF! since that day ive been trying desperately to change my life for God om done running from him and just doing what i want cuzz i finally believe the only way i can be truly happy is with God. This all happened a month or two ago. im still struggling to adjust to this new lifestyle but when ever i start to fall down i suddenly remember Jesus is with me God is with me and i dont have to struggle any more.
so yeah that was the introduction. so this is the situation im in now. one im trying to find out what God want to use me for. to become a pastor, missionary, just another solider of his amongst the people. i have 4 yrs to figure this out and to prepare (my time left serving for the navy).
two ive been becoming more and more curious of who God has planned for me to spend the rest of my life with and share my love for Him with. that one woman that i can call wife one day. BUT, i know it is not time for that for me i have a duty to my country i must fulfill, and i know i am spiritually not ready to be in any kind of relationship with a women. When the thought come in my head that OH THIS GIRL MIGHT BE THE ONE i become obsessed with the idea. But God pulls me back and i apologize for loosing my way and ask that he make my strength to resist such thoughts stronger so i can focus on God and become the man of God he wants me to be. AMEN.
so thats whats going on. i so excited for the future. but im also excited to see what God has planned for me today.
i hope this inspires you or makes you ask some questions about yourself and your relationship with God.
thank you for reading and God bless.
YIC
TJ91