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During my whole life i grew up in a Christian family. I went to church when i was young and basically did what my parents did. I never really had a relationship with the lord, and going to church was something i just did because my parents made me go. I really didn't even like going to church or having anything to do with God. I believed and knew that the Lord was real but i just didn't care and didn't want to give my life to the lord. Anyway Around 6 months ago i started to get some of the worst anxiety ever. This was my first time ever having this and i was so scared. the reason i got anxiety was most likely from drugs. I used to take drugs, drink alcohol, and do all the stuff most teenagers would do. During that time taking the drugs i thought i was going to die. My heart was beating so fast and my body was reacting so weird. That night was one of my worst nights ever. Thinking about it just makes me sick. After the days past after that incident i just wasent myself anymore. I started to get panic attacks and get really bad anxiety. I would always be fearful and thought i would die at any second. I was becoming really depressed and sad, and having these suicide thoughts as well. I was saying to myself how can i think of these things? i was not going to commit suicide but the thoughts were bothering me so much. Then one day i was laying on my bed with all these negative thoughts hitting me, and all of a sudden i remembered about the lord. I don't remember what i said but it was probably something like this. Lord i'm sorry for all i done, please help me to get rid of these problems i'm going through. I repented and asked the lord into my life. From that day forward the anxiety started to go down and down and down. Now i'm fine and the lord helped me so much, and he continues to help me. I developed so much love for the lord and he changed me so much. I thank the lord all the time for what he has done for me and i know no matter what i have done in the past he loves me and he will always forgive me if i ask for forgiveness. Once and a while i would get a little anxious about some things but i memorize scriptures that give me comfort against anxiety. The lord is still helping me to get rid of the storms in my life, and i know these storms are not going to last forever. The lord is always with us, he will never leave us nor forsake us. God is so good and no matter what he loves you so much. Never give up and trust in the lord. NO PROBLEM IS BIGGER THAN THE LORD, HIS BLOOD CAN BREAK ALL CHAINS!! Praise the Lord!!