I come from a long line of spiritual people. On 1 side I have 2/3 of myself being Native American from 2 tribes (Miami & Blackfoot) with a great grandfather as an medicine man. The other side of me is Irish. From my Irish descendants my grandfather broke the traditional mold. His father my great-grandfather came over from Ireland and settled in the northern Indiana area. He helped maintain the Holy Cross church by which created Notre Dame University and my great-grandfather was an architect that also was part of building the original Knute Rockne football stadium of Notre Dame. Drenched in the traditions of Irish Catholicism, my grandfather was being led and motivated to become a priest which was a great great honor at that time period. But my grandfather felt there was more. He met a great African American named Bishop G.T. Haywood who wrote the great song (Crimson Stream of Blood) and was part of the great early movements in the 1920's of the Pentecostal movement As result, my grandfather gave his life to JESUS and became an evangelist and preacher in the Pentecostal movement. My father then carried on where my grandfather left off and the assumption was for me to continue it.
As I grew I was being molded to follow the footsteps of those before me. But, I had other plans. My uncle was an expert in martial arts and I spent hours and hours with him learning this great art. I was now focused on the things I wanted. Still in high school I was an great athlete and became successful in many ares outside of the church. As the seasons passed the sports I was involved in ruled my life. I went thru young ladies trying to conquer them all. But I could not escape the calling of GOD and as long as my grandfather was still alive I felt convicted and ashamed.
I turned 19 and sadly the best thing at that moment I felt happened my grandfather passed away. The entire world seemed to lift off of my shoulders and I never felt so free. For the next few years I spent it chasing women, drinking, getting high and my new religion became my martial arts as I grew successful and began expanding into other art forms. I was now very good at fighting and my attitude grew to a point of no return. I hopped from club to club chasing every skirt in town married and single. For fun I became a bouncer and got a chance to practice my art on unsuspecting victims that I would take full advantage of and hurt them as much as possible. Next thing I found myself in jail. And this became another forum by which I could fight and get away with more behind bars than I could on the streets. It didn't take long until my name surfaced everywhere and my reputation exceeded my abilities. I became target #1 to some and enemy #1 to the police force in my general area by which i stemmed as MY personal play grounds. It wasn't long before I was being asked by those who I can't mention to come to the greater Chicago area. I jumped on it. It was not long before I was in trouble there to.
Now, the uncle who taught me martial arts as an young boy was an successful business man in the Phoenix, Az. greater area. He contacted me and because of his connections I was able to leave Chicago and go to Arizona. I became an employee of my uncle. Now, my uncle is very successful. He owns a business building custom homes to people that economy has no effect upon. He also owns small side businesses to help leviate loss for tax purposes. Part of what he does attracts those by which big money bring him into contact with. Those by which money is lowned to and that create more income as result. But, as in some cases, money that needs to be retrieved by any means when the loan is defaulted. As result, I became hand in hand with alot of this activity. I met some of the most incredible and deranged evil people I believe the world has ever known and in some cases they considered me a friend.
My life seemed to be good and purposeful. I had a wife and all the women I wanted on the side. I made incredible income. I had 3 homes. Any vehicle I wanted. I partied all the time. My life was great. Fast and easy. Nothing could be better. I was making the kind of friends this business considered valuable. As result of 1 friendship to my buddy who is the leader of the H-Group of the H.A. I was now dealing meth, coke, and weed. Life was awesome. But, I was never home, never an husband to my wife, a father to my children. In fact, I was only a name to them and nothing more.
It was not long before I discovered my wife had met someone and was planning a new life without me. She was afraid to tell me or talk to me because she thought with those I knew I would have her disappear. When I found out I remember leaving the house. I picked up a buddy. We were driving and met 2 ladies. They were looking for a good time which included getting them high on crack and going to bed with them. I told them get in and lets party. I took them to a place I knew well. It was an apartment of a well known pimp and his hookers. The money i spent for crack they used to support their need for heroine. We were all sitting around. 4 of us getting high on crack the rest shooting up on heroine. I remember I was getting ready to take the 2 ladies I had and my buddy to get us a room to finish partying, but I became distracted by this hooker who was standing in the bathroom in front of the mirror. What seemed a lifetime as she desperately tried to steady herself to apply her make-up so she could get on the streets and make money. She became saddened and i walked over to her and helped her be steady. All i could do was watch her face. The pain and anguish of what this life had become to her. As I watched her I began to see me.
I walked out and told those with me lets go. I got a room and as they went in I left. I went directly home. No one was there. Soo incredibly empty. I walked into my walk-in bedroom closet just fell down and I remember crying. My wife finally made it home. I told her I can't live my life no more and I needed to change. I said I need GOD. I asked her to join me, but she said, she had enough of life with me. She told me I was now on my own and that she was leaving. In the next few weeks to come she did just that. She packed her things and moved to Wisconsin where the guy she had seen and secretly met lived at.
For a man that seemed like he had it all...I really had nothing. I wont go into complete detail about all that conspired between those I know and my uncle. I will say since I have given my life completely to GOD I am now a preacher and counselor. I will say that I have been shot and GOD has brought me thru. I will say every time I walk out my door I could be ambushed by more than just demonic forces by which I can feel but can't see. I will say every day is new because I understand the meaning of having no promise for tomorrow. I do not fear in fact I find it would be easier if I was jumped and killed this way I would be with GOD. Since I am living and typing this I can honestly say, MY GOD is greater in me than him that is in the world. As result of what I chose in the past and now my testimony by which GOD ALMIGHTY has given priviledge to me to share has brought many to the wonderful salvation of JESUS CHRIST. I can make this promise to anyone if you need GOD and need someone that is not afraid of satan let me know. I will stand with you side by side helping you every step of the way to find GOD and reach HIS AMAZING GLORY.
I sincerely pray and love each and everyone of you. My desire is for you to know who my JESUS is for yourself. If you need someone to listen to. Someone to help. Someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone to allow GOD to possibly give you a WORD that might help. No matter what you are going thru, your problem, your situation, I can honestly say to you I know who GOD is personally and I can tell you the GOD I know is able to bring you out of anything no matter what it is.
May GOD Bless each and evryone of you...
In JESUS NAME
AMEN
As I grew I was being molded to follow the footsteps of those before me. But, I had other plans. My uncle was an expert in martial arts and I spent hours and hours with him learning this great art. I was now focused on the things I wanted. Still in high school I was an great athlete and became successful in many ares outside of the church. As the seasons passed the sports I was involved in ruled my life. I went thru young ladies trying to conquer them all. But I could not escape the calling of GOD and as long as my grandfather was still alive I felt convicted and ashamed.
I turned 19 and sadly the best thing at that moment I felt happened my grandfather passed away. The entire world seemed to lift off of my shoulders and I never felt so free. For the next few years I spent it chasing women, drinking, getting high and my new religion became my martial arts as I grew successful and began expanding into other art forms. I was now very good at fighting and my attitude grew to a point of no return. I hopped from club to club chasing every skirt in town married and single. For fun I became a bouncer and got a chance to practice my art on unsuspecting victims that I would take full advantage of and hurt them as much as possible. Next thing I found myself in jail. And this became another forum by which I could fight and get away with more behind bars than I could on the streets. It didn't take long until my name surfaced everywhere and my reputation exceeded my abilities. I became target #1 to some and enemy #1 to the police force in my general area by which i stemmed as MY personal play grounds. It wasn't long before I was being asked by those who I can't mention to come to the greater Chicago area. I jumped on it. It was not long before I was in trouble there to.
Now, the uncle who taught me martial arts as an young boy was an successful business man in the Phoenix, Az. greater area. He contacted me and because of his connections I was able to leave Chicago and go to Arizona. I became an employee of my uncle. Now, my uncle is very successful. He owns a business building custom homes to people that economy has no effect upon. He also owns small side businesses to help leviate loss for tax purposes. Part of what he does attracts those by which big money bring him into contact with. Those by which money is lowned to and that create more income as result. But, as in some cases, money that needs to be retrieved by any means when the loan is defaulted. As result, I became hand in hand with alot of this activity. I met some of the most incredible and deranged evil people I believe the world has ever known and in some cases they considered me a friend.
My life seemed to be good and purposeful. I had a wife and all the women I wanted on the side. I made incredible income. I had 3 homes. Any vehicle I wanted. I partied all the time. My life was great. Fast and easy. Nothing could be better. I was making the kind of friends this business considered valuable. As result of 1 friendship to my buddy who is the leader of the H-Group of the H.A. I was now dealing meth, coke, and weed. Life was awesome. But, I was never home, never an husband to my wife, a father to my children. In fact, I was only a name to them and nothing more.
It was not long before I discovered my wife had met someone and was planning a new life without me. She was afraid to tell me or talk to me because she thought with those I knew I would have her disappear. When I found out I remember leaving the house. I picked up a buddy. We were driving and met 2 ladies. They were looking for a good time which included getting them high on crack and going to bed with them. I told them get in and lets party. I took them to a place I knew well. It was an apartment of a well known pimp and his hookers. The money i spent for crack they used to support their need for heroine. We were all sitting around. 4 of us getting high on crack the rest shooting up on heroine. I remember I was getting ready to take the 2 ladies I had and my buddy to get us a room to finish partying, but I became distracted by this hooker who was standing in the bathroom in front of the mirror. What seemed a lifetime as she desperately tried to steady herself to apply her make-up so she could get on the streets and make money. She became saddened and i walked over to her and helped her be steady. All i could do was watch her face. The pain and anguish of what this life had become to her. As I watched her I began to see me.
I walked out and told those with me lets go. I got a room and as they went in I left. I went directly home. No one was there. Soo incredibly empty. I walked into my walk-in bedroom closet just fell down and I remember crying. My wife finally made it home. I told her I can't live my life no more and I needed to change. I said I need GOD. I asked her to join me, but she said, she had enough of life with me. She told me I was now on my own and that she was leaving. In the next few weeks to come she did just that. She packed her things and moved to Wisconsin where the guy she had seen and secretly met lived at.
For a man that seemed like he had it all...I really had nothing. I wont go into complete detail about all that conspired between those I know and my uncle. I will say since I have given my life completely to GOD I am now a preacher and counselor. I will say that I have been shot and GOD has brought me thru. I will say every time I walk out my door I could be ambushed by more than just demonic forces by which I can feel but can't see. I will say every day is new because I understand the meaning of having no promise for tomorrow. I do not fear in fact I find it would be easier if I was jumped and killed this way I would be with GOD. Since I am living and typing this I can honestly say, MY GOD is greater in me than him that is in the world. As result of what I chose in the past and now my testimony by which GOD ALMIGHTY has given priviledge to me to share has brought many to the wonderful salvation of JESUS CHRIST. I can make this promise to anyone if you need GOD and need someone that is not afraid of satan let me know. I will stand with you side by side helping you every step of the way to find GOD and reach HIS AMAZING GLORY.
I sincerely pray and love each and everyone of you. My desire is for you to know who my JESUS is for yourself. If you need someone to listen to. Someone to help. Someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone to allow GOD to possibly give you a WORD that might help. No matter what you are going thru, your problem, your situation, I can honestly say to you I know who GOD is personally and I can tell you the GOD I know is able to bring you out of anything no matter what it is.
May GOD Bless each and evryone of you...
In JESUS NAME
AMEN
But I'm happy for you that you got close to Jesus which is much better in the long run!