Well guys here's my testimony! Hope you enjoy...
My name is Ella and I live in Sydney, Australia. I live in the western parts of Sydney on a beautiful 250 acre property with my mum. I also have my cousins, aunties and uncles which also live on the property which I am truly blessed to have in my life and to have living so close to me.
I am an only child and my mother raised me by herself.
I was seeing my dad up until the age of 10 years old until he remarried and had more kids.
I felt as if I had no point seeing him any more as he didn't spend quality time with me like he should have been as a father. He gave all his time to his new wife, new kids and I felt very left out the times when I would go visit him. So one day I decided I wouldn't go any more.
He didn't try to make thing better, in fact I bumped into him 3 times in the St and he turned his head and walked off.
That cut me pretty deep. But I have learnt to keep my head high. I have never been the type to let things get to me too much, I realised that what he was doing was wrong even at a young age.
My mum eloped to be with my dad, my grandfather was a very strict Italian, hard hearted man.
Showed no love and no compassion.
Being the only man in my life, I was raised to be respectful towards my grandfather.
I loved him very much, although he did not show me love in return.
He came to Australia when he was 21 from Italy. He grew up in the war and as he got older he got involved in the mafia. When he came to Australia he worked hard, but he was very tight with his money.
He bought the properly we are on and he used money to control his family, He treated me terribly, and tried to manipulate me also. We used to argue all the time as I got older, I knew deep down he loved me, but it was a hate love relationship. I believe he was the type of man that closed off to people so he couldn't get hurt.
I stopped talking to him also. I tried so hard to give him my love but he was a hard man.
His ways have affected my whole family, including my mum, which affected my life. My mum has now followed in his footsteps, thinking she is the dominant one and in complete control of my life. She REVOLVES her life around mine, which is completely suffocating, as I am a person that needs space and time for myself. Always asking....where are you going, what are you doing, what are you doing with your money, who are you on the phone to... the list goes on.
When I was in my teens, my mother and I used to fight like nothing else. I HATED being home. I just needed to get out, I needed space, I needed friends, love, HAPPINESS! So many negative people in my life! No one willing to help, just tell me what to do with my life.
By the age of 18 I started going out to the city clubbing and as time went on I made new friends.
By the age of 20 we were hanging around people that were much older than us, and all our friends were in their 30's. All had money, done up cars, apartments and plenty of cash, we all lived the high life. We never had to worry about money. Life was great I thought.
There was a club in the city that was one of Sydney's biggest clubs from around the 90's - mid 2000 and I eventually I met a man that was a Dj at the club. We were in the same group of friends and would flirt with each other here and there as I knew him for 2 years before we started dating. We finally decided that we would take the next step and start a relationship.
My mother was not impressed at all. She warned me not to go out with him, as he had 2 kids and had been married. She drove me mental, constantly yelling at me, showing no love, just biting my head off, so I left home to live with my partner.
We were in love and happy the first year of our relationship. I was serious about getting married, and so was he until the following year things got harder.
His family got involved, my family didn't like his family, his ex, the kids, and it was an absolute mess.
Everyone and I mean EVERYONE got involved in our relationship.
I lost my family and friends.
At this point, my partner was dealing with his own problems, his father that was diagnosed with Alzheimers, he wasn't speaking to his mother, and THEN his kids decided to move out of home to be with their mother.
That is when everything changed. He was coming home, straight to the fridge to get a beer, fall asleep on the lounge then depression started kicking in. He started gambling, lying and horrible to be around.
----THIS IS WHEN I CAME TO THE LORD!----
For a year straight we would attend church, we are both catholic and attended a church near our area. I found myself growing closer and closer to the Lord. Every day I would study my bible and want to know the answers.
There were times were I wanted to discuss things with my partner but he was so much in his own world that he closed off to me.
I was heartbroken. I tried everything to make him happy and to help him stop worrying about everything. I knew he loved me but his emotions took control. He told me he wanted to make it work and I believed him.
One day I was in the kitchen cleaning & blabbing on about how he had been gambling and how upset I am with everything, then I turn around and there he was on his knee with a beautiful one carat diamond ring. He asked me to marry him and I said yes. I was totally over the moon.
1 yr went by and our relationship was like a roller coaster. It didn't change, in fact it got worse.
One day I asked him to leave and I needed some space, then he decided that wasn't going to happen so he got physical. I LEFT.
I moved back home with mum. I have been living here for 9 months now, and have had to completely renew my mind. My way of thinking.
God knew that he was not the right one for me. He warned me so many times. There were nights after nights that I would cry myself to sleep. I felt lost, lonely, and betrayed.
I was so caught up in my new freedom that I started going out again because I thought it would take my mind off things. Started talking to guys and felt attracted to them but my heart wasn't in the right place. I had no desire to be in a relationship any more. I had guys messaging, and I would just throw my phone because I just couldn't be bothered at the time.
1 month after I moved back home, I received a phone call that I need to go to the hospital as my grandfather had 2 heart attacks and is in a serious condition.
My heart started racing, I haven't seen him in years how will I be able to see him like this!?
I forced myself to get in the car and go. I got to the hospital and my whole family were there, crying, I instantly started crying, the only man that was in my life was dying, I had so much pain in my heart before from his wickedness but I held his hand and let go of all of the past.
I felt this sense of peace come over me, the Lord was with me, I had forgiven him.
My grandfather squeezed my hand and we had a moment, a moment that only our spirits understood without having to say a word.
I was the last person to get to the hospital that day, he waited for me.
5 min after I got there he took his last breath and let go. I was so glad to be able to say goodbye to him for the last time.
A few weeks later one of my clients from work renewed my faith, and reminded me of what path I should be on. I went home and studied endlessly, and have been for the past 9 months now.
I'm on the straight road. Each and every day that goes by He reminds me that we should never rely on our own feelings but on His.
My love for Jesus is more than ANY love I could have ever received. He is the one who has made me whole, complete and my life has a new meaning.
The stars that shine at night, the moon that lights up the sky, the sun that gives us warmth, the air we breathe, the sun setting, the waves in the ocean, the rain falling from the sky, the birds that sing for us, all these things we forget about, God's great glory.
To love one another, to be patient, be kind and humble. No matter who is in your life learn to love them if you can even if they are wrong.
He is truly a great God, and where there is love, there is beauty. The Lord has provided us with everything we ever needed in life, we just need to learn to appreciate his perfect creation, He deserves to be praised!
I love the Lord Jesus Christ with all my heart, I am so grateful he died on the cross for my sins. He saved me, I have peace in my heart. I need Him more than anything in my life. Forever and ever!
My name is Ella and I live in Sydney, Australia. I live in the western parts of Sydney on a beautiful 250 acre property with my mum. I also have my cousins, aunties and uncles which also live on the property which I am truly blessed to have in my life and to have living so close to me.
I am an only child and my mother raised me by herself.
I was seeing my dad up until the age of 10 years old until he remarried and had more kids.
I felt as if I had no point seeing him any more as he didn't spend quality time with me like he should have been as a father. He gave all his time to his new wife, new kids and I felt very left out the times when I would go visit him. So one day I decided I wouldn't go any more.
He didn't try to make thing better, in fact I bumped into him 3 times in the St and he turned his head and walked off.
That cut me pretty deep. But I have learnt to keep my head high. I have never been the type to let things get to me too much, I realised that what he was doing was wrong even at a young age.
My mum eloped to be with my dad, my grandfather was a very strict Italian, hard hearted man.
Showed no love and no compassion.
Being the only man in my life, I was raised to be respectful towards my grandfather.
I loved him very much, although he did not show me love in return.
He came to Australia when he was 21 from Italy. He grew up in the war and as he got older he got involved in the mafia. When he came to Australia he worked hard, but he was very tight with his money.
He bought the properly we are on and he used money to control his family, He treated me terribly, and tried to manipulate me also. We used to argue all the time as I got older, I knew deep down he loved me, but it was a hate love relationship. I believe he was the type of man that closed off to people so he couldn't get hurt.
I stopped talking to him also. I tried so hard to give him my love but he was a hard man.
His ways have affected my whole family, including my mum, which affected my life. My mum has now followed in his footsteps, thinking she is the dominant one and in complete control of my life. She REVOLVES her life around mine, which is completely suffocating, as I am a person that needs space and time for myself. Always asking....where are you going, what are you doing, what are you doing with your money, who are you on the phone to... the list goes on.
When I was in my teens, my mother and I used to fight like nothing else. I HATED being home. I just needed to get out, I needed space, I needed friends, love, HAPPINESS! So many negative people in my life! No one willing to help, just tell me what to do with my life.
By the age of 18 I started going out to the city clubbing and as time went on I made new friends.
By the age of 20 we were hanging around people that were much older than us, and all our friends were in their 30's. All had money, done up cars, apartments and plenty of cash, we all lived the high life. We never had to worry about money. Life was great I thought.
There was a club in the city that was one of Sydney's biggest clubs from around the 90's - mid 2000 and I eventually I met a man that was a Dj at the club. We were in the same group of friends and would flirt with each other here and there as I knew him for 2 years before we started dating. We finally decided that we would take the next step and start a relationship.
My mother was not impressed at all. She warned me not to go out with him, as he had 2 kids and had been married. She drove me mental, constantly yelling at me, showing no love, just biting my head off, so I left home to live with my partner.
We were in love and happy the first year of our relationship. I was serious about getting married, and so was he until the following year things got harder.
His family got involved, my family didn't like his family, his ex, the kids, and it was an absolute mess.
Everyone and I mean EVERYONE got involved in our relationship.
I lost my family and friends.
At this point, my partner was dealing with his own problems, his father that was diagnosed with Alzheimers, he wasn't speaking to his mother, and THEN his kids decided to move out of home to be with their mother.
That is when everything changed. He was coming home, straight to the fridge to get a beer, fall asleep on the lounge then depression started kicking in. He started gambling, lying and horrible to be around.
----THIS IS WHEN I CAME TO THE LORD!----
For a year straight we would attend church, we are both catholic and attended a church near our area. I found myself growing closer and closer to the Lord. Every day I would study my bible and want to know the answers.
There were times were I wanted to discuss things with my partner but he was so much in his own world that he closed off to me.
I was heartbroken. I tried everything to make him happy and to help him stop worrying about everything. I knew he loved me but his emotions took control. He told me he wanted to make it work and I believed him.
One day I was in the kitchen cleaning & blabbing on about how he had been gambling and how upset I am with everything, then I turn around and there he was on his knee with a beautiful one carat diamond ring. He asked me to marry him and I said yes. I was totally over the moon.
1 yr went by and our relationship was like a roller coaster. It didn't change, in fact it got worse.
One day I asked him to leave and I needed some space, then he decided that wasn't going to happen so he got physical. I LEFT.
I moved back home with mum. I have been living here for 9 months now, and have had to completely renew my mind. My way of thinking.
God knew that he was not the right one for me. He warned me so many times. There were nights after nights that I would cry myself to sleep. I felt lost, lonely, and betrayed.
I was so caught up in my new freedom that I started going out again because I thought it would take my mind off things. Started talking to guys and felt attracted to them but my heart wasn't in the right place. I had no desire to be in a relationship any more. I had guys messaging, and I would just throw my phone because I just couldn't be bothered at the time.
1 month after I moved back home, I received a phone call that I need to go to the hospital as my grandfather had 2 heart attacks and is in a serious condition.
My heart started racing, I haven't seen him in years how will I be able to see him like this!?
I forced myself to get in the car and go. I got to the hospital and my whole family were there, crying, I instantly started crying, the only man that was in my life was dying, I had so much pain in my heart before from his wickedness but I held his hand and let go of all of the past.
I felt this sense of peace come over me, the Lord was with me, I had forgiven him.
My grandfather squeezed my hand and we had a moment, a moment that only our spirits understood without having to say a word.
I was the last person to get to the hospital that day, he waited for me.
5 min after I got there he took his last breath and let go. I was so glad to be able to say goodbye to him for the last time.
A few weeks later one of my clients from work renewed my faith, and reminded me of what path I should be on. I went home and studied endlessly, and have been for the past 9 months now.
I'm on the straight road. Each and every day that goes by He reminds me that we should never rely on our own feelings but on His.
My love for Jesus is more than ANY love I could have ever received. He is the one who has made me whole, complete and my life has a new meaning.
The stars that shine at night, the moon that lights up the sky, the sun that gives us warmth, the air we breathe, the sun setting, the waves in the ocean, the rain falling from the sky, the birds that sing for us, all these things we forget about, God's great glory.
To love one another, to be patient, be kind and humble. No matter who is in your life learn to love them if you can even if they are wrong.
He is truly a great God, and where there is love, there is beauty. The Lord has provided us with everything we ever needed in life, we just need to learn to appreciate his perfect creation, He deserves to be praised!
I love the Lord Jesus Christ with all my heart, I am so grateful he died on the cross for my sins. He saved me, I have peace in my heart. I need Him more than anything in my life. Forever and ever!
