Sex has been the downfall of my life. The acts of sexually immorality I've committed will always grieve me. But it is a humble grievance[: I recognize my sin and become humbled before God Almighty. O wretched man that I am, only The Lord is able to make someone realize what they did was wrong. I see nothing wrong in knowing your past as wicked, because now God has changed us, He made me different. Before I was not humble, I was not sorry, I did not care if I sinned.
This is how God sees us, He remembers our former sinful lives but yet acts as if He did not. For our sakes He does not convict us of former sins, it is we who remember and convict ourselves. It is humbling to repent for sins committed in the past. I know I am forgiven, but why does it still grieve me? Because my sins were committed against the Eternal God, therefore the offense is Eternally embedded in our minds. But again I reiterate, there is good that comes from remembering our sins. Repentance is always acceptable before The Lord, whether for sins in the past or sins committed in ignorance. But I must make the point that one cannot repent for future sins like this: "I know I'm going to sin Lord, so please forgive me before I do it". This is unacceptable, it's like saying "I know it's wrong but I'm going to do it anyway". If a man repents and yet still commits the sin he repented for beforehand, the repentance is in vain. Only after the sin is committed is the repentance acceptable, and only if the man is truly convicted for it.
I love The Lord for giving me the ability to repent for my sins.
I love Him for causing me to always remember who I am and who He is.
It is humbling to know your place before The Lord.