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Hello everyone! First I'd like to say God is good! I am a believer who is having the struggle of my life. I have tried to come to Christ a couple of times before and my heart wasn't ready at the time to let go of a few things that was keeping me from having that solid reltionship with God. This time was different, I let go of alcohol which was something that I was struggling with. I only drank to get drunk, i hadn't had a drop in 4 months and was going strong. So that was my first hurdle. My second hurdle was lonliness. I do not want to sound arrogant but it will anyway. I am a good looking guy who stays fit. For some reason I always long for a gf and now wife since im 29. I want only a good wife who seeks Gods heart. I met someone fairly quickly after starting my relationship with God and she was everything I wanted. Seeks God's heart first, beautiful, and smart. It didn't work out because she moved far away. After that didn't work out I felt as though my focus shifted from God to finding a wife. Then I started struggling with things I struggled with before. I met up with a non believer friend ending up playing pool and somehow got into a bet to where if i lost i had to take a shot of alcohol. Well of course I lost, stupid me should have saw that set up by the enemy. The next weekend which was this past weekend I ended up getting drunk and missing church because of it. I felt so convicted and horrible about myself, but I will not quit and stay down because that's what the enemy wants. The thing is, im going into ministry and i lead worship at a small church. I need help with someone who can relate to the things that are hurting me.
1. Lonliness wanting to find my perfect wife now.
2. Getting bored and when I get bored I go to my old friends and because I feel like it's hard to make new christian ones. Like Im bored ALL THE TIME and that's when my mind wants to be entertained. I think If I found a core small group of guy friends on fire for God to where I wouldn't be bored as much That would help sooooo much.
*God please send me someone who has had this same struggle and that has overcome this state of confusion to give me advice and wisdom from you. Amen*
1. Lonliness wanting to find my perfect wife now.
2. Getting bored and when I get bored I go to my old friends and because I feel like it's hard to make new christian ones. Like Im bored ALL THE TIME and that's when my mind wants to be entertained. I think If I found a core small group of guy friends on fire for God to where I wouldn't be bored as much That would help sooooo much.
*God please send me someone who has had this same struggle and that has overcome this state of confusion to give me advice and wisdom from you. Amen*
